A lone

When you're finally alone and not lonely.

But then I'm back to square one. Missing all the friends I made with you and also your friendship.

The more and more I try and be nice, but I get shut down. The more and more I get over it.

It's like once I think I'm happy the emotional train wreck starts all over again. I hate feeling this negative towards a person whom I care so much for.

I guess we all become someone in the crowd we used to know.