Already missing you
i love little kids with very niche interests. Like for awhile I nannied for a family who had a little girl who loved old black and white movies. She adopted a transatlantic accent, constantly wore a long string of plastic pearls, and would often dramatically drape herself over pieces of furniture when told to do something and say “I just can’t do it babe”
i once dropped her stuffed animal and she yelled “there’s been a murder!”
Earth and Moon from Saturn [976x976]
New Lows
More and more unhappy
I will never be enough.
I hope the next thing I get addicted to is taking care of my self and loving my body
I got my answer ..
I will never understand why I am never enough. I have never been enough for someone to just love me unconditionally and it sucks. I put out so much and I recieve nothing. You wonder why I stay at work as much as I can. I over load myself with work so that at least I feel accomplished with something in my life. I’m will never be someone’s ‘enough’ I will never be enough for myself. I am such a hollow shell of s person because I deplete my entire being into other people and yet it’s never good enough. I’m sorry I am the way I am. I hate me too. I just don’t understand why you beg to be with me and still talk to everyone else. I gave you so many opportunities to leave and yet you chose to stay. I just want someone to love me. And it’s looking like I will never have that and I am getting to the point of not wanting it anymore. I’ve wanted it for so long but I’m busting my ass for absolutely nothing
Feeling really shitty
I don’t know if that’s meant in a metaphorical way as in, “their insults have no bite” or a literal sense as in “someone was talking shit so he got his fucking teeth knocked out” but I like it either way