Hey, everyone!! Hope you’re all doing great!
I know it’s normal for me to disappear and then come back without any reason but this time, was different. I lost my sweet little baby, my bunny Merlin. It’s the second time I lose a furbaby (the first one was my Poncho, my pasha. Then I got my Merlin.) and it does not get any easier... The last 4 months have been extremely difficult for me, there were days where all I did was sit on my bed or bedroom floor and cry. Other days, I didn’t even want to be in my room because it was his room too. He was a free range bunny, he was allowed to go everywhere in my house but our room was where he spent most of his time and where all his stuff was. I would sit on my desk and he would come sit next to me or do circles around my legs... Today it’s the first time I opened my PC and sat on my desk again.
I’m sorry if this is all over the place but it still hurts. so. much! I can’t help crying. I miss him so much and I wish he was still here but I’m also very thankful that he left the way he did. He decided when it was time to go and he didn’t suffer. He died peacefully in my arms (another thing I’m very thankful!! I was there with him until the very end). He was doing great, binking and jumping (a month before dying), and then slowly his apetite started decreasing and wanted more alone time. I took him to the vet, of course, but the old man wanted to go to Heaven. He was 10 years and 4 months old. If you really think about it, 1/3 of my life, I’ve spent it with him.
Do you believe that our furbabies send us messages after passing? A couple weeks after his passing, I had to go to my godson’s school celebration and at the end there was a lottery type of thing. I never get anything but this time I got a bunny plushy. Out of all the gifts... and the dozens of people there, I was the one who got it. Also I’ve been finding his poop every now and then in places where I know they weren’t there before and my Morgana never played with his poop (they’re like little balls!) before so it’s not likely she found them in some corner and brought them in the middle of my bedroom floor! I don’t know if it’s possible or not but it has helped me a lot so I don’t care, I like to think it’s his way to make me feel better!
@totheendoftheworldortime You’ll get your video, I promise! It’s just my Merlin’s passing happened before finishing it and as I said, after 4 months, today I found the courage to sat down and open my PC.