grace + zoe au ✘ written by @blucardinal & @notorioustarlet

He laughed at her defense. His face split into a wide, boyish grin as he looked down at the petite girl, oddly missing her even though she was right there. It was weird, missing her, and he knew that. She was never hit to have, and she made it loud and clear when she rejected him, but before that, he could have sworn it was different. But she, like Maya, rejected him twice and he couldn’t help but wonder if it was ever going to be possible for someone to actually want him. Zig’s brow furrowed - so again, she was alone. Just as they had met, before she had a squad of girls praising her and filling themselves up with dreams of winning medals or trophies, or whatever power squad won. It made him s,ad that her simple request of friends always left her burnt and alone, but he let the comment slide like he figured she’d prefer. Zig sighed, “Well I knew that part from Grace. Geez, girls are so secretive,” he said, pretending like he wasn’t jealous. He kept his self-entitlement in check, though it was hard. He had been rejected and he was hurt, but he cared about her, and what right would he have anyway? He was with M A Y A now, and she clearly didn’t like him. Not as anything other than a distant friend she was forced to have coffee with. Though, he doubt he, or anyone else, could have forced her to stay.

Zig looked around, feeling an agreement with her request for another reason, and it made him feel sleazy. If news got back that he had coffee with Zoe, the questions would come and then the fights. He wasn’t in the mood for anymore of his and Maya’s drama, and honestly? It was just coffee - even if he still liked Zoe, this was going to be friends. He wouldn’t go outside of Zoe’s limits for his desires, even though his gut twisted with guilt as he said, “Yeah, let’s go… anywhere else. You’re call, Rivas.” 

  A part of her had considered the possibility of a relationship of Zig Novak, he always saw the best in her despite everything she had done to prove she was, in fact, an awful person.The way he looked at her was different, it wasn’t a look of hate, fear, or even lust -- it was admiration and warmth. She was aware he would try to never make her feel unsafe again, but she couldn’t let herself go through those emotions. Zoe couldn’t let herself get attached to, yet, another guy who was madly in love with someone else, there was no way she could compete with kind, smart, lovable, blonde, Maya Matlin -- again. The starlet watched the boy for any signs of jealousy but she was disappointed when she came up empty-handed. She didn’t know why she was expecting any, he was with the girl of his dreams now, why would he ever be interested in the ex-teen star who had to sell her boobs for money, it would make no sense. “Yeah, I might’ve taken the whole “done with boys” thing too serious.” she pointed out in a light tone, even though the story was much darker. 

  Zoe noticed as Zig seemed to look around as if they were being watched. She didn’t blame him, Zoe wasn’t exactly the person anyone wanted to be seen around -- especially, when they had a girlfriend named Maya Matlin. The brunette took a quick sip of the hot coffee in hand and then shifted back to look at the tall male in front of her, “We don’t have to, I’m sure Maya wouldn’t like you hanging out with me.” Zoe assured the boy, not wanting to cause him anymore trouble then she already had. “Besides,” she paused. “-- it didn’t exactly work out the first time we were friends.”

                                at this moment, there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. some are running scared. some are coming home. some tell l i e s to make it through the day. others are just now ( facing the truth ). some are evil men, that war with GOOD. qnd some are GOOD, struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world. 6 billion souls. and sometimes, ALL YOU NEED IS ONE. ( canon multi-muse account. private & selective. written by ana. )

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                @notorioustarlet ♥’d for a starter.

                as much as she wished she could take every second back ; from walking up to grace to letting herself get carried away by anger and kissing zig, she knew there was no rewind button in real life -- no do overs. a part of her felt as if she could've never gone through with it, but for some unexplained reason going all the way was effortless and far too easy, like her body had a mind of it’s own. yet as she looked maya in the eyes once she realized the truth, the guilt ate her alive. zoe made her way towards the door trying her best to stay from away from the faces she had so terribly tangled up in her web. feeling someone grab her, the starlet turned around startled -- only to see the face she had been trying her best to avoid the most. zoe rolled her eyes as she released herself from his grip.❛ the truth. ❜ she simply responded. ❛ actually, she had a lot questions and i think the silence answered them for her. ❜ zoe admitted, thinking back how she refused to explain what had happened in detail to maya only causing her to realize they hadn’t just kissed like zig had insinuated. ❛ what i can’t believe is you didn’t tell her.❜

                @notorioustarlet· ♥’d for a starter.

             zoe rivas’ instinct for self defense ultimately always leads her to self destruct, taking down anyone standing in her way. it was a force of habit that only pushed those she cared about the most away. there was no doubt in her mind the blonde ( which was never the target to begin with ) hated her, maybe almost as much as zoe hated herself for what she had done. the feeling wasn’t unheard of, in fact, it was all too familiar for the brunette ; regret, guilt, ashamed, apologetic, she knew them too well. although her conscious was drowning in self pity, she felt even worse for dragging the blonde into her wicked web. things weren’t going to resolve itself if they just continued to avoid one another, she figured the only way to make amends was if she faced her once again -- not to discuss what had happened but why it did. walking inside the room zoe knew maya spent most of her time, she exhaled deeply as she watched the other girl strum the guitar. she couldn’t help but wonder if the taylor swift-to-be had written yet another song of just how terrible the ex-west drive star really was.  her thoughts were quickly interrupted by maya’s reaction to seeing her, not like she had been expecting anything less. ❛ avoiding each other isn’t going to do much of anything maya.❜ she responded trying to convince maya but she was sure her straight-forward approach wasn’t going to have much effect, other than upset the other girl. ❛ look maya --❜ she looked down at the girl as a sigh escaped her lips. she was never good at admitting she was wrong or worse -- apologizing. ❛ i know we were never the best of friends but -- i’m sorry.❜

“I can’t say I disagree with that. Was I? Who told you  that? Maybe I was, maybe I wasn’t. Sorry to break it  to you, Rivas, but I did NOT stay for you. But either way  you should be happy I’m still here – I know you like  seeing me around. Yes, I am. Is that wrong? So, what  you’re really saying here is – you think I’m handsome.  I’ll be a great president, unlike Tristan. Why is he even  running? Well, right now I plan on throwing this campaign  party, I’ll get to more important things when the debate  comes around. I didn’t say it’d f i x anything, but it’s  definitely going to get me votes at the moment. I do expect  you to be there, and I’m looking forward to it. Oh, and  what could you possibly mean by that? ”

“Of course not, I’m a l w a y s right. Probably because I know  a lot, and Tristan told me. Maybe he just wanted you gone. Wow, you should add dishonest to your banter, maybe you really are cut out for the presidency. We both know you’re  still here for this perfectly toned behind. Don’t get a big head now Hollingsworth, your presence has little to NO effect on me. What? So know you’re also delusional, I did not say that -- well maybe I did, but who really knows, right? He’s running because he can be a great president, I know that and you know that too, so just give it up and look for some o t h e r pass time. Well, you better make sure it’s a damn  good party, or else you’re just wasting your time. I’m sure you are looking forward to it, I might even put on that bikini you  liked so much. Hm, I don’t know I guess you’ll just have to  wait and see....”

Grace should have been used to this by now – the constant yelling and arguing between she and the girl in front of her. But their arguments had been much simpler before all of this – that kiss. Before real feelings got involved, they were just two girls who couldn’t stand one another, yet somehow were always helping each other. Briefly, Grace closed her eyes, knowing Zoe was right. She had always been upfront about everything – she was a BLUNT person, so not speaking about this was clearly exposing some part of the truth. “I’m not TRYING to make you disappear, Rivas!” she shot back, shaking her head. Of course that would be easier, but it wouldn’t solve anything.  It was unlike Grace to let anyone scream at her the way Zoe did – normally she would be able to fight back on every word. And while she may have been trying to do that, she couldn’t hit everything. That was because Zoe was right to say most of the things she said – Grace was being unfair, secretive, and and inconsiderate to Zoe’s feelings, but she thought she was S A V I N G her. she allowed her to continue, staring directly at her as she hit her with each and every one of her cold words.  Taking a moment, she calmed down, trying to o get ahold of the words she needed to speak. This wouldn’t go away. “It’s not that I don’t trust you, Zo,” she said, her voice much quieter with a hint of weakness. “There’s stuff about me that no one knows, that no one can handle – and it’s just best that I don’t try to explain it. We all have things we d o n ’ t want to talk about. Right?” she questioned, staring at her intently. She knew even she had plenty that she never wanted to express to others. “This – relationships, feelings, committing myself to someone else is just not IDEAL for me – it doesn’t work. You’ll give up on me, like e v e r y o n e else does.” Turning away now, she took a long, deep breath, hoping that her body would pull through for her until this conversation was over. Still keeping her eyes locked on the floor, she spoke again. “Maybe I do feel something, but I can’t DO anything about it.”

Zoe was angry but not as much as Grace as she was with herself, her feelings for the other girl were unexpected and stronger than she had ever imagined. She felt scared, she knew if Grace wasn’t willing to be upfront about something it was because it was something big -- something that would change everything. Yet, Zoe wanted --- NEEDED to know. She was so sure of her feelings for the girl in front of her, she was willing to do or hear a n y t h i n g. Even if it would rip her apart. “Yes you are Grace, you keep saying there’s this big deep dark secret and I will automatically go off running into the sunset -- why can’t you just trust I won’t. That I’ll stick around?” she asked hurt Grace wouldn’t open up to her. “Why can’t you just let me in, I want to be here for you? Whether it’s as a friends or something more.” the brunette looked at the other girl intensely, all she wanted was answers, she felt drawn to Grace and a part of her felt the need to know more. “You don’t know that.” she shot back at the blue-haired girl in front of her. “I’m not e v e r y o n e else, I can handle anything. You know that and I want you to be able to trust me enough to make me the first person to know what is going on.” Zoe sighed, unsure there was anything left in her to express or anything else she could possibly say or do to make the other girl believe she was here to stay. “Maybe we do, everyone does -- but secrets aren’t kept forever... everything comes out someday. I would know. So just, make it easier on both of us.” she argued, trying to make her point across, once again. Zoe stepped closer to Grace, “It will work, I know, I’ll make sure of it. Just give it a chance, and even if we do it completely wrong, at least, we tried.” she paused. “--- because I can’t stop, and I know I won’t EVER give up on you.” she assured the girl who seemed just as torn and broken as Zoe. The girl stepped in front of Grace, knowing all she wanted was to get this conversation over with, but she wasn’t ready to let Grace just walk away just yet. Her lasts words gave her hope, a weak smile appeared on the girls face -- she wasn’t just delusional, all this time Zoe knew there kiss was magical and not just for her -- but for Grace as well. Stepping closer, Zoe placed her finger on Grace’s chin and gently guided her head to face her. Her eyes locked with hers and no matter how wrong things were, for that split second it all felt right. Zoe leaned forward and kissed the girl slowly on the lips before pulling away. “I don’t care what you have to say Grace Cardinal, I’m not going anywhere.”

✫ Zoe Rivas

Zig shrugged, pretending like he didn’t care, because what grounds did he have to? Maya was his second choice, wasn’t it only fair if he was her’s? “Eh, I guess. She’s decent, I suppose.” He mentally winced, but didn’t try and backtrack. Maya was an okay singer and an even lesser song writer. She was a musician, but he never felt wow’d by her. Especially when he saw things like Imogen make spinning glasses play and her songs weren’t something he wanted to hear. Her cry out to try and be sexy had made both him and Tori cringe, but as friends, they supported. “Ahh yes, you and Grace,” he grinned, thinking of his best friend. “Well Grace is a bit coy, so I haven’t gotten any juicy gossip yet.” Zig had the common sense to blush and be ashamed. Wincing, he rubbed the back of his neck as he thought of what he’d done and said to Zoe. He’d been mad, but not about the phones, about the rejection itself. It’d been petty and cruel, and hadn’t he promised to never make fun of her - to not be like the others? “Listen… I’m sorry about that. I genuinely am, but let me pay for it. You won’t owe me anything, just friends, getting coffee. Yeah? You won’t owe me, I won’t owe you - just friendship.”

  Everything was always so effortless when Zoe was around Zig, she didn’t have to be anyone else and he didn’t expect her to be anyone. He’d seen her at her lowest and still managed to pick her pieces up and build her up again. She knew her selfishness and poor choices had made her push him away and in the long run, lose him all together. It was hard watching Zig and Maya display their affection in front of the world, it ate her inside -- but Zoe knew better than to show any type of remorse and jealousy. Could be why Zoe was so quick to find anything and anyone to focus all her attention on during the summer -- fortunately, it was Grace Cardinal. The goth princess was a great friend to her and had helped her realize she was more than she showed the world and in a moment of weakness she confused her feelings for something more. However, Zoe knew she wasn’t in love with Grace, she cared deeply for her but strictly as friends -- and that realization just made the truth even more clear -- Zoe Rivas was head over heels for the sleeveless ‘not so’ bad boy, Zig Novak.

  Zoe’s face lit up as he appeared to like teasing her just as much as she liked teasing him. “I’m not that short.” she defended herself. “...but.” the girl paused and turn to look at the boy next to her. “I do like Tinker Bell.” she shrugged before cracking into a light chuckle. Zoe bit down on her lip as she looked up at the boy, “All I heard were compliments.” she smirked. A curious expression took over Zoe’s face as Zig seemed less interested in talking about his girlfriend than she was. Not that it bothered her at all, but it just seemed awfully strange. “Right....” she breathed out, trying so hard to pretend Zig and Maya, Maya and Zig, together didn’t boil her blood inside. Zoe cringed as she thought about what happened with Grace once again. “Well um, I guess I should tell you since I have no one to talk to and talking to Tristan only results in him thinking I need to get out of some sort of closet or something.” the brunette shook her head annoyingly. “I kind of kissed Grace...” she admitted to Zig, slightly hoping to get a reaction out of him but she knew he was happily with Maya Matlin and had no chance whatsoever. Zoe looked attentively as Zig apologized to her, she wasn’t going to pretend what he had said haven’t gotten to her but she wasn’t going to hold it against him, just like everyone else, they all had the right to be mad at her and she couldn’t blame them. “ Novak, it’s fine, really. I did something horrible and I caused everyone else to get in trouble as well, so it’s the least I deserved. It’s all in the past now.” she assured him, hoping this year would be fresh and all her mistakes from the last term would only be terrible memories now. “Oh..” she looked down before looking back up at him. “Just friends, sure... I guess I can’t say no to coffee.” she looked up at the handsome male in front of her. “But lets not stay, how about we ditch this place and go somewhere better.” she suggested.

“You’re right. All anyone cares about is being popular.  Do you know how incredibly idiotic that sounds? What is popularity going to get anyone? You’re wasting all  your time trying to round up people to worship you, and you’re going to be left with NOTHING once you  graduate. Sucks for you. Is she your f r i e n d or is she just someone who can help you get ahead? You can’t destroy me because I’d never give you the power to. Nothing you can do will ever define me in any way.  Those skills I learn from gaming can transfer to real life in more ways than you bullying around innocent people will ANY DAY.”

“I never said it made sense, it can sounds awfully  ridiculous but while you’re here still trying to make sense of it, everyone is trying to be like me. Popularity can get you anything, it opens every door you haven’t even thought of. Oh you’re so  n a i v e, I’ll have more than enough when I graduate and I’m sure your dear sister will try to be the next Zoe Rivas. So what are you really afraid of? Little ol’ me or your sister willing to do anything to be like me?  I make the rules and she chooses to follow them, I don’t make her do it. Face it dweeb, your sister is just like everyone else.”

“I couldn’t see you as a therapist, either; so you’re right.  Maybe it’s NOT for you. But this is a new year for me, too.  That’s why I’m running. It’s time for me to take school  more seriously than I did last year. Me, shaking inside? No,  not at all. I’m not a nervous guy. If that’s true, then I think my  campaign party will change everyone’s mind. It’s gonna be  killer. And like you said, it’s just a popularity contest. Kids these  days are superficial enough to vote for someone who gives them  a g r e a t party. I won’t confirm nor deny these “dreams” you’ve  brought up. Yeah? Well, too bad for me. I guess I’ll just have to  wait till next Summer. ”

“Therapists are overrated anyway, no one is gonna fix someone who’s broken unless that person acts for themselves. Still not convinced, weren’t you supposed to go off to a boarding school or something? Don’t tell me you stayed for me. Oh is that so? You’re gonna take school more serious... by running for President. Come on Hollingsworth, I’m sure handsome and rich aren’t exactly the qualities that lay within a good school president. What do you even plan on doing? RIGHT of course, a party. That will surely will fix e v e r y problem at school. Well I guess we’ll just see about that, but you better expect me at the party. It is still pretty sunny outside, maybe this summer isn’t quite over yet..”

“You know, you can stop giving Grace that puppy-eyed look, anytime now.  I’m right here.”

“There are no puppy-eyed looks.....What Novak, are you jealous?”