My testosterone levels came back in the pit again. So I’m back to injections, biweekly intramuscular this time around.
100mg of 200mg/1mL
At least I know my uterus is going to get the “go fuck yourself” message.
I think there are some misconceptions here on tumblr about transition. For one thing, life as a trans person isn’t completed and made perfect by transitioning. Frankly, once you start passing more readily in society, there’s another set of struggles that will be encountered. One of these is having to accept that - no matter how much you alter your body - ultimately you were born and raised as your biological gender. That is a burden you will carry with you for the rest of your life.
In my case, no matter how much surgery I have or how much I ultimately resemble a man, I will never be able to procreate with a woman and have a child in this manner. I will never have the childhood and adolescent experiences of a man. I may never have a fully functional set of male genitals. Transition will never solve all of my dysphoria because it will not make me into a flawless, biological man. The nature of being transgender is that, no matter how you transition, some part of you will still just wish that you had been born the proper sex to start.
This is normal, though, and it’s just a part of transitioning and being a transgender person. I hate that actual transgender people are being made to feel as though their experiences or their difficulties with transitioning are abnormal because they aren’t feeling all sunshine and rainbows after being on hormones. Life doesn’t begin and end with the transition process. Does it help dysphoria? Yes, mostly. Does it solve all life problems? Fuck no.
For the next ten (10) folks who slap either their own or a “secret valentine” person’s addy in my email (littlerunnergurl@gmail.com) AND make a minimum $10 donation to either Planned Parenthood or NPR, I will send you linzers
You’re angry about Trump and his defunding of these two (2) great non-profits… so instead of drinking a beer and typing hate on to Tumblr, put all that anger into good.
AAANNNNDDD GO!
Sometimes I have... bad thoughts and I’ll randomly (for her) text my senpai that I love her.
It makes them go away for a little while.
“What have I become?” (via SamMorrisDesign)
I use to have a very small group of people I could just talk to about the bullshit we all go through on a daily basis.
You know, just trying to survive all this for a few more years. It made things a little more bearable when you could go, “You know what, you fucking get it.”
And it causes a mixture of emotions, ya know? While you don’t want to feel so. damn. alone, it hurts because the only reason they get it, is because it’s happening to them too. You want their pain to stop. Their suffering to end. You want them to have a happier life than what you have.
But I feel so fucking selfish for wanting to have someone who just gets it.
I really wish I had stayed on AndroDerm.
In an odd turn of events, AndroGel isn’t working properly. I’ve had four periods, the first one in October ‘16, the most recent one being this January ‘17. I don’t really know what to do at this point but wait it out.
My endo seemed really surprised that my period made a reappearance, in full force mind you, with absolutely no signs it was coming. He had me change where I applied the AndroGel and then ordered bloodwork 6 weeks out. I’m poor so 6 turned into 8.
I got the bloodwork done yesterday. I called his office and told his assistant that if the blookwork came back with unsatisfactory results, perhaps the best thing to do was go back to injections.
I really can’t afford to pay so much for treatment that isn’t working and injections is loads fucking cheaper. Right now it’s costing 1k/y in T alone vs >$300/y for injectable.
He’s probably going to want me to increase the number of pumps per dosage but again, it comes down to the #’s game. Financially speaking it’s an extra 1 to $200/y.
I’m just getting really overwhelmed. I have therapy tomorrow morning, I hope I feel better afterwards but who knows.
wow I can’t believe the united states won’t have a president for the next four years. how crazy is that??
YOOOO SO LOOK DA FIRST TIME I EVER GOT ON DIS RIDE I WAS WITH A WHITE FAMILY AND U KNOW WHITE FOLKS CRAZY SO DEY DONT FEAR ROLLER COASTERS OR DEATH IN GENERAL. AFTER ABOUT 10 MINUTES OF TELLIN DEM DAT I DIDNT WANNA GET ON I FINALLY SAID YES CUZ I AINT NEVER BEEN NO BITCH AND I DIDNT PLAN ON STARTING THAT DAY. WHEN DA ENGINEER SAID “PLS LEAN BACK AND KEEP THE BACK OF UR HEAD PRESSED AGAINST YOUR SEAT” AND I SAW EVERYBODY STICK DA BACK OF THEIR HEADS TO THE CHAIR I KNEW DAT I MADE DA WORST DECISION OF MY LIFE CUZ I EVEN SAW SOME BLACK FOLKS LISTEN AND U KNOW DAT WHEN BLACK PEOPLE LISTEN A WHITE LADY’S ADVICE , ITS DA REAL DEAL. SO MY FIRST MISTAKE WAS REFUSING TO PRESS MY HEAD AGAINST THE SEAT… THE RIDE TAKES OFF AND MY DOME SLAMS AGAINST THE CHAIR WHILE MY NECK SNAPPED… UNCONSCIOUS INSTANTLY.. WHEN I AWOKE FROM MY 3 SECOND SLUMBER WE HAD REACHED DA VERY TOP OF THE RIDE WHERE THE RIDE MAKES A QUICK PAUSE… WHEN THE RIDE MADE THAT PAUSE I OPENED MY EYES CAUSE I THOUGHT THE RIDE WAS OVER AND WE ALL MADE IT SAFELY. BOY WAS I WRONG… I OPENED MY EYES AND DA ONLY THING I SAW WAS A 300 FOOT DROP STRAIGHT TO DA GROUND SO I SAID “GOD YOU CANT LET ME DIE LIKE DIS”. I THINK I SUFFERED A HEART CONTUSION CUZ MY HEART JUST COMPLETELY STOPPED BEATING… AND THAN THE RIDE TAKES OFF AGAIN… WE MAKE THE 300 FOOT DROP AND I SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT AS IM SCARED TO DEATH BECAUSE DA ONLY TIME A HUMAN SHOULD BE DAT HIGH IN DA AIR IS WHEN THEIR SPIRIT IS BEING SUCKED INTO HEAVEN BY DA GRACE OF GOD.. SO WE SAFELY MAKE IT TO DA END OF DA RIDE AND WHEN WE GET OFF I STUMBLE OUT OF THE SEAT CUZ MY LEGS WENT NUMB AND ALL THE AIR WAS SUCKED OUT OF MY BODY SO I COULDNT TALK EITHER.. DA FIRST THING THESE CRAZY MOTHERFUCKERS TELL ME IS “HEY MAN LETS DO THAT AGAIN THAT WAS WICKED”. I LOOKED AT DEM AND I REALIZED DAT DIS WHITE KID DAT I BEFRIENDED WAS ACTUALLY SATAN. I NO LONGER HAVE ANY WHITE FRIENDS.
please read this whole thing.
reblog while u still can
I want to go to bed so I can wake up and just find out who won but also if we derail I’ve got to watch this train wreck happen.
they ain’t dead but they bout to be
Today I learned German Shepherds are a lie made up by lazy people who own filthy dogs
did they just whitewash this dog???
Yes. Yes they did.
After nearly a year on AndroDerm 4mg, on 3-10-16 I am switching over to AndroGel 1.62%.
That’s what I wanted when I switched off of injections (and my endocrinologist wanted it as well) and now that I have insurance through my employment they cover it.
I want to establish that I’m not going off of it for negative reasons. I do have skin reactions to the patch; in the grand scheme of things, it’s just mild irritation.
While on AndroDerm I have seen a vast improvement regarding my over all health in relation to HRT. We worked out my hot flashes, cramps, headaches, fatigue, etc....; AndroDerm helped bring my levels down to safer ranges.
I’m immensely grateful to have had the opportunity to use it and urge others to not be afraid to give it a try if injections for what ever reason just aren’t working out.
Is never knowing the horror of accidentally letting the tip of your penis touch the bowl of a public toilet.
There is this wonderful RT Animated Adventure about Gavin accidentally touching his knob on a trough after being kicked in the butt by Burnie and it is perfection.
boredwhitedude said: congrats on your $$$$$$$$$$$
Strippin’ ain’t easy.
theycallmefw replied to your post:voice meme: you slice the ginger.
I would fuck that voice. Just saying.
