Callum Turner as Joe Rantz

THE BOYS IN THE BOAT (2024) dir. George Clooney

Mary Oliver, from “Hum Hum”, A Thousand Mornings

Andrea Gibson, Birthday

Ellen Bass, "The Thing Is"

going mad thinking about robb being born in the riverlands in the midst of a war, and him leaving the world in the same circumstances that he entered it.... did he ever have a chance.... sobbing

CALLUM TURNER as Joe Rantz in THE BOYS IN THE BOAT (dir. George Clooney, 2023)

Bucky & Buck in 1x01 vs 1x09 – requested by @paratrooper56 💛

newt: when's the last time you slept?

theseus: uh...a few days ago, i think

newt: a few- how many?!

theseus: uh...*starts counting on fingers* i need more fingers...

newt: what you need is sleep!

Someone has to leave first. This is a very old story. There is no other version of the story.

Not to John Egan. Not after the war.

(PLEASE read the content warning in the first note before reading)

"You're a Brit?" The question comes from Curt, and Bucky bites the inside of his cheek.

"Parents were." Bucky says simply turning back to his drink, but Curt's three drinks deep and knows Bucky too well by now to let him get away with that answer.

"But you said you're from Wisconsin?"

"I am," Bucky nods. Curt gives him a look, and Bucky can feel Buck staring at him. "I was raised there after I turned 3. Came here for a few years for boarding school, but my aunt and uncle brought me back before I turned 18."

"How come?" Croz joins in setting down a tray of drinks, and Bucky wishes they'd let this go. There's a reason he doesn't talk about all this.

"I asked." Bucky smiles. "The weather sucks, and I was bored."

"Sorry chaps, did you just say you went to boarding school here?" One of the RAF pilots that likes to stick their nose into Bucky's conversations butts in. Bucky resists the urge to bang his head against the table.

"This fella, right here." Curt smacks Bucky's shoulder, and Bucky sends him a look to cut it out. He catches Buck's eye and sees the questions building in his blue eyes. Bucky turns away. He can't answer those questions.

"Where abouts?" The RAF pilot clearly doesn't see how done with this topic Bucky is.

"Scotland." Bucky answers with a sharp grin. "Old school, but you won't know it."

"Bloody hell," The man stares at Bucky wide-eyed, and he can feel Buck tensing, whether it's to defend Bucky or to stop him from doing something stupid that's still unclear. "You didn't go to Hogwarts, did you?"

Bucky freezes. He stares up at the Brit, grin sharp and eyes a bit dangerous. Most wizards know not to talk too loudly about magic around Muggles and No-Majs, but this guy's deeper in his cups than half the bar.

"For a few years." Bucky confirms sounding like he was pulling out teeth with each word. "You go there too?"

"Of course! Sorted right into Gryffindor!" The man straightens up suddenly affronted that Bucky would dare even think the opposite. "It's the finest school!"

"This side of the Atlantic sure." Bucky leans back, trying to distance himself.

"If you went to Hogwarts, what are you doing palling around with this bunch?"

"Cause I want to." Bucky watches Curt glare at the Brit, but he's calling over more Brits before any of them can stop him.

"Reginald! Listen to this, this chap here says he went to Hogwarts!" The shocked looks on the faces of the gathered British pilots makes Bucky question how the hell they've kept magic secret for centuries. If a few drunk flyboys can talk this openly, what the hell are they doing to keep the secret?

"Preposterous," Bucky thinks it's Reginald who says that, but he doesn't care. "Hogwarts doesn't allow Americans. You, what family are you from?"

"Family?" Croz murmurs looking lost. Buck's gaze is still sitting heavy on Bucky's shoulders. Bucky sighs, truly over these idiots.

"Why do you wanna know all that?" Curt glares up at Reginald. He doesn't understand what the man's on about, but he knows he's insulting Bucky.

"Only the most noble houses could pull an American into Hogwarts." Reginald sniffs, and out of the corner of his eye, Bucky sees Buck finally turn his attention away to place a calming hand on Curt's shoulder. Curt settles back unhappily. "Riffraff doesn't make the cut."

"Right, riffraff," Bucky murmurs. Buck swings his focus back to him now.

"So, out with it!" One of the other Brits urges.

"Out with what?" Bucky says with a laugh. "You boys know my name."

"Yes, but what Noble House do you come from?" The original Brit rolls his eyes at him obviously over Bucky's stalling.

"Is this really that important?" Croz tries to intervene, but the RAF boys steamroll over him.

"Unless of course, you're lying about attending Hogwarts." One of the flyboys grins mockingly. Bucky grits his teeth. This is why he doesn't talk about his family. Brits always going on and on about blood and prestige. He hates it. "Trying to fit in, are we?"

Bucky stares up at them. There's a reason he'd kept his old name quiet. He doesn't want the fuss. But it looks like he has no choice here. These boys won't leave him alone until he coughs it up.

"Scamander, got it?" Bucky grins up at the idiots surrounding him. His hands twitch, a phantom weight in his palm that he ignores. "Now beat it."

"Great Scott, don't tell me you're related to Theseus Scamander?"

Bucky sucks at his teeth.

"That's my cousin." He admits, hoping this will be enough to sate their curiosity. He's wrong. The boys explode, some asking questions, others denying that he's related to such an esteemed gentleman.

Buck's gaze has never felt so heavy.

Not to like emotionally destroy anyone on this the day of Bucky's release, but here are my thoughts on a Bucky Amnesia AU:

Getting hit on the head fucks you up, particularly if you get hit hard enough it knocks you out for a significant amount of time. And maybe, maybe if you go see a doctor pretty quickly for help and get some rest, you'll luck out with no real issues. Bucky is not lucky.

In my head there are two ways this goes (both hurt)

First way, Bucky arrives at the camp and finally reunites with Buck. The grief that's sat heavy on his shoulders, dragging him to the ground every second since he'd been told, finally lifts off of him. He smiles, sunshine after days of clouds and thunderstorms. Except now that he's so relieved, the days of pain and exhaustion finally overwhelm him, and he faints, knocking his already smashed head on the ground because no one's close enough to catch him.

Bucky wakes up in a room he doesn't recognize surrounded by faces he can't place. A blond man kneels at his side, staring down at him with tired eyes.

"Sorry, what's your name?"

And those tired eyes shatter.

Second way, Bucky shows up to the camp having already lost his memory. He knows his name, rank, and a few other details, but the faces that scream and yell, seemingly so happy to see him draw only a blank.

He hears a voice calling out to him, and something instinctive and innate tells him to follow that voice. The face that greets him is another one he doesn't know, but his heart suddenly feels light as a bird. He breathes just a bit easier, and he doesn't know why.

Something must show on his face because the person he doesn't recognize but somehow can't not know doesn't look so relieved anymore. There's a hint of panic in those eyes, and a clenched jaw that Bucky somehow knows means the man is close to screaming.

The guards usher Bucky and the other soldiers through the gates, and Bucky's surrounded. Voices overlap. His head hurts. Blond hair enters his vision. Bucky stares.

"You know me, don't you?"

Gale's laboured breathing is the only thing he hears apart from the rush of blood to his ears. It sounds like being back in his Fort, the winds rushing through and flak exploding every which way. The stress is the same, the fight or flight is the same, the fear.

He tries to channel the steady, sure pilot that has his boys calm and focused in the air. He tries.

"Bucky?" His hands flutter uselessly over Bucky's swaying body - he doesn't know where to touch, doesn't know if he still has that right. He searches Bucky's eyes instead. "You know me, don't you?"

He is not ashamed to say he can hear the strangled desperation in his voice. What is there to hide, anyway. Benny, Brady, Crank, Hammie, they all know what is at stake - they're awfully quiet as they hover over his shoulders.

"John," Gale steps closer. His hands rests on dirtied collar, reservation flown out the window. "John, please."

Gale watches as Bucky blink. Once, twice. Mouth working soundlessly. Hands with bloodied knuckles reach up to gently pry Gale's hands from leather jacket.

Gale's breath hitched. There is a lump in his throat and warmth behind his eyes.

"I don't," soft words hit like a shotgun to Gale's chest. He hears Brady curse. "I'm sorry."

"Do we know each other?"

you're telling me theseus scamander and john bucky egan are the same person? you're telling me bucky's a hufflepuff? you're telling me bucky works as an auror at the british ministry of magic? you're telling me bucky's late fiance was the beautiful leta lestrange?

The "What do you mean Bucky is a Hufflepuff" energy from this post is hilarious because now, as I'm in the school of Gale-Is-The-Feral-One, all I think about is how Gale is the Slytherin standing behind Hufflepuff Bucky and mouthing "I'll kill you" to whoever he's squaring up against

A missing scene from Masters of the Air, part 8; in which DeMarco and Brady were (unwillingly) wondering what the score is

“Think he's finally cracked?” Brady asks with a slow exhale of smoke as they watch whatever it is Bucky's doing out there in the yard by himself. Benny shifts next to him where they're sat in what little shade is offered by the entryway of their barrack and thinks carefully about what to say.

“He's something.” Benny eventually settles on, an uneasy knot forming in his gut as Bucky jerks with sudden movement. “It's just this place. It's getting to all of us.” 

The Dichotomy of a Friend

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Ted Lasso (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings Characters: Colin Hughes, Isaac McAdoo, Trent Crimm, Roy Kent, Trent Crimm's Daughter, Trent Crimm's Ex-Wife, AFC Richmond Players (Ted Lasso), Ted Lasso Additional Tags: Character Study, Canon Compliant, Missing Scene, Episode: s03e09 La Locker Room Aux Folles (Ted Lasso), Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Hurt/Comfort, Homophobia, Coming Out, Internalized Homophobia, sorta, Homophobic Language, More Homophobic Language Than in Canon, Homophobic Violence (past), LGBTQ Themes, Friendship, Team as Family, The Author is a Lesbian Your Honor, I have to say it this time, Because I wanna fuck Trent's Ex-Wife, Trent Crimm's Crush on Ted Lasso, It features heavily

Summary:

Colin was adamant about maintaining his well-crafted disguise, and Trent couldn’t begrudge him that. So there were no rendezvous or late-night text messages or even casual hangouts. Just because Colin now had someone who saw him in the closet didn’t mean he was keen to crack the door open any wider. He’d been doing just fine without Trent, and he could be fine for longer with him.

Which is why Colin’s presence in the office, clearly to talk to Trent individually, is so alarming. The blinds are open, his teammates are feet away, and yet Colin is breaking every rule he has to talk to Trent right now. ________ Or, Trent's perspective on Colin and Isaac's fraying friendship.

SEE NOTES FOR RATING AND WARNING-RELATED INFORMATION

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It took me over a month extra to write it, so I more than doubled the word count for what I expected -- seemed fair. For real, though, I really hope you enjoy this, it's a huge labor of love for me, so let me know what you think!