Little life update 03/27/23

Official 1 month until my birthday. It's been some time, guys and here's an update for anyone that was following my maniac posting a few months ago. Sorry about that.

I had a bad health episode that later resulted in a bad period of mental health. I worked myself too hard last year and didn't listen to my body. I display pain differently (that's on trauma, bb!), and it took some time to return to my doctor for tests. It was hard listening to how my body was impacted by both working/studying and the end of my relationship.

I think I mentioned here that I was going on a uni-sponsored trip to Italy in July '22. According to my doc, I was flying on pure adrenaline the entire time, and if covid didn't knock me out for a week, then let's just say it would have been bad. I'll post some good things about that time since I haven't even looked at the photos and memories I made yet.

Right now, I'm just dealing with emotional regulation (I get teary really quickly now wtf).

It's been strange processing the emotions I was feeling when I got sick. It's like things went on pause for me. But not others. Two months ago, I woke up like breaking from a fever and everything reset. I owe it to keeping to a schedule, taking care of my health and dedicating time to things I loved to do in my teens, like making short videos.

I got into several master's programs across Canada and also (!) an English-language program in Dhaka in case my ex felt a call home. Ride or die, bb. Quite literally. Yep.

Going on a lot of solo dates, and I HATE them. I'm a social person, and this shit only flies in Europe.

But, oh my goodness, If I could tell younger myself that one day you will have so many acquaintances that you will forget what you told who and where and that your schedule would be so booked with the amazing things you are doing and that you wear your heart on your sleeve and that you LOVED and were LOVED.

I graduate in June. see you on the flip side.

#roj