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best night of my life

the journey taylor took me on that night will never be forgotten. i held my breath as i pushed open the doors to the concert, it was the only way i could keep in my tears in. naturally, i didnt get far before i semi burst into tears. i was about to watch my role model, my “big sister”, perform on stage, live, right fucking in front of me. maybe i was crazy for crying, but i was about to lose my concert virginity to taylor swift. TAYLOR SWIFT! 

the moment i saw taylor walk upon the stage that night is a moment i will forever have on replay; my heart stopped, my eyes rapidly began producing tears, and my breathing came to a sudden halt. there she was, taylor, my role model, my “big sister”, for real, on stage, less than 10 feet in front of me. 

as taylor walked closer, closer, even closer to me, my body snapped out of the, “holy shit, it’s taylor swift” mode, and went into, “HOLY SHIT, IT’S TAYLOR SWIFT” mode. i’ve never screamed louder, especially when she said she loved to perform in des moines. she loves to perfrom in iowa! holy crap! (p.s. taylor, come to iowa city, it’s very artsy, especially in writing, you’d love it. i highly recommend visiting during art fest) 

the concert hit a note that was personal to me, she talked to me, to the crowd, but it felt like she was talking to me. she told us (me), that it’s okay to fall down, its even better to get up, have a group of friends that make you smile, and to write out songs that make you feel AMAZING! i cried once more, what i got from her talk was that it’s okay to be bipolar, i’m not weird for being bipolar, i’m just katharin. 

at the end of the day, i felt like a whole new woman. i walked out with my head high, my heart was full of hope, and my self-confidence was at a level that it had never been. 

thank you, taylor, for making me into the woman i am today, for being my best friend even though you have no idea who i am, you’ve always been there. also know that throughout your life journey, i’ve always been there, cheering you on, even if you fall, i’ll always help you up. what are best friends for?

with all of my love,

katharin

a good video that shows just how much i love taylor. @taylorswift

This is probably one of the only times ive ever been this happy and its thanks to you. Thank you

@taylorswift TAYLOR This year has been the best year of my life because it brought me closer to you! This year you GAVE ME LOVE ADVICE and taught me that the most important thing is loving yourself and surrounding yourself with people who love you, your friends and family. You were always there for me and made my dark days bright. You’re my T and I’m your C. I’m so eternally grateful and I can’t imagine how it can get better than this. But like you quoted, “there are far better things ahead than any we leave behind” so I’m beyond excited to see what 2016 can offer. I love you endlessly. 

This video perfectly shows how I was feeling when Taylor brought out Charli Xcx to sing Boom Clap.

Throughout the video you see me crying, singing, dancing, gasping for air, and screaming a few piercing screams.

I don’t think I’ve ever been happier than I have in this moment.

Thank you for this @taylorswift you made me so extremely emotional in the best way, you and charli are my two favorite people and I adore and idolize you both so much. 💖

also, the other person in this video( the one recording) is one of my best friends named Taylor ( @gotthat-goodgirlfaith ) thanks for giving me a friend who could experience this with me :)

Dear Taylor,

Hi. My name is Caitlin. I’m 18 years old and the best decision I have ever made was in 2006 when I told my dad I liked that cool song on the radio, “Our Song,” and he bought me the album that had it on it.

I don’t know where I would be if I hadn’t told him about that song. It scares me, to think that these smallest of choices can ripple out and affect an entire lifetime. I’m so endlessly happy that I started that ripple. Your music has grown with me, Taylor. As you have developed into a magnificent young lady I’ve been following, trying to model myself into a person I am proud of. A person like you.

I’m not always the happiest person, I’ll admit. But I would be so much worse than I am if I did not have you in my life. The first song that ever made a significant impact on me was Tied Together With A Smile. When I listen to it, it feels like you wrote it just for me. Like you’re telling me to keep going. The second song that’s made a significant impact on me is Innocent. I have plans to get a tattoo with lyrics from that song, I never want to forget the message. 

I think of you as a friend, a lot of the time. Because sometimes I feel so incredibly alone, and I know I can rely on you to make me feel better. Whether that’s through your music, or watching your interviews, or, more recently, watching how you interact with your fans. With people like me.

Writing poetry, much like you with writing music, is my passion. It’s all I want to do in my life. A lot of the time I want to give up on it completely, but you remind me to keep going with it. You remind me to not give up. One of the first real poems I wrote was to you. While the writing itself makes me cringe, as my style has developed a lot since I wrote it, the feelings are all still there. I made a video of myself reading this poem aloud to you, but unfortunately it doesn’t always play on mobile :( It always plays on a computer, however, so if you ever feel like watching thirteen minutes of me reading an old poem, here is the link. I also wrote the words out, if you just wanted to read it, and you can find that here on my other blog.

I really want to meet you someday, Taylor. I really hope that ends up happening. I want to hug you, and say thank you in person for teaching me so much. For teaching me that love is beautiful, and can be found in places other than a significant other. For teaching me that in order to survive you have to shake it off. For teaching me that there are so many good things in this world, so many happy moments to experience, if you just look around.

Thank you for everything, Taylor. I’m so excited to see you on October 3rd in Toronto, section 125, for the 1989 tour. You deserve the entire world and I wish that I could give it to you. I hope this letter gives you a piece of it.

Love, Caitlin

@taylorswift I love you so much

Hey @taylorswift, I’m writing this cause I’m having a really really hard time right now. This is a video of my grandpa trying to make me laugh while I was in the hospital for my surgery last November. Your album just came out so we were listening to it together. He really was the greatest man and he loved how happy you made me. He always would tell me that we would meet and I’d be able to thank you. He was just great and supportive like that. He was a dad to me. I don’t really speak to mine much so he was my father figure. Everyone he met instantly fell in love with his personality and spirit. He was my best friend and my hero. This morning cancer took him and I’m an absolute mess. I’m taking this really hard cause he was the one who raised me. He’s the one who taught me everything. He’s the one who came to all my performances. He’s the one who showed me how men should really treat their wives and daughters. Anyways my birthday is tomorrow and I’m really struggling. I just wanted to show you this video cause I thought maybe it would make you smile. I don’t know.

But I guess I just want to thank you for helping me through this. I played your music to him on one of his last days and it made him smile so thank you. Your music and you are helping me so much right now and I just love you a lot. Endlessly.

Xo, Sammy

Hey Tay. So it’s been two months and I’m still struggling so much. I really don’t know when this will get easier…or if it will. I guess the holidays are making it harder cause I used to spend them all with him. It’s so hard for me to believe that I’m never going to get to see one of my heroes and best friends again. I keep remembering all the little things he used to do to make me smile. He’d cut out newspaper articles of you and bring them to the hospital to make me smile or he’d call you sailor twift to make me laugh. There wasn’t a time I can remember that he didn’t ask me how you were doing, like I was your best friend or something. :’) I have a lot of performances coming up and this will be the first time he won’t see them. As I said before, he came to every single one. I don’t know why but somehow that’s one of the hardest things for me. He’s never going to get to see the most important show that I’m in. I’ll never be able to hear him say that he’s proud….it’s just all so strange.

Anyways Tay, the reason I’m writing this is to thank you because I honestly don’t think I would’ve been able to get through these past few months without you and your music cheering me on. I love you more than you will ever know. If you read this…thank you! If not that’s cool too. Xoxo

taylorswift one thing I really admire about you is how optimistic and carefree you are. how do you do it? I try so hard to not let the whispers/glares behind my back affect me and I know I shouldn’t care but it just hurts sometimes you know? I mean how and when do you get to the point where you just don’t care what people think anymore?

taylorswift love this photo we took together with some fellow people in the crowd in Detroit!!

best night of my life

the journey taylor took me on that night will never be forgotten. i held my breath as i pushed open the doors to the concert, it was the only way i could keep in my tears in. naturally, i didnt get far before i semi burst into tears. i was about to watch my role model, my “big sister”, perform on stage, live, right fucking in front of me. maybe i was crazy for crying, but i was about to lose my concert virginity to taylor swift. TAYLOR SWIFT! 

the moment i saw taylor walk upon the stage that night is a moment i will forever have on replay; my heart stopped, my eyes rapidly began producing tears, and my breathing came to a sudden halt. there she was, taylor, my role model, my “big sister”, for real, on stage, less than 10 feet in front of me. 

as taylor walked closer, closer, even closer to me, my body snapped out of the, “holy shit, it’s taylor swift” mode, and went into, “HOLY SHIT, IT’S TAYLOR SWIFT” mode. i’ve never screamed louder, especially when she said she loved to perform in des moines. she loves to perfrom in iowa! holy crap! (p.s. taylor, come to iowa city, it’s very artsy, especially in writing, you’d love it. i highly recommend visiting during art fest) 

the concert hit a note that was personal to me, she talked to me, to the crowd, but it felt like she was talking to me. she told us (me), that it’s okay to fall down, its even better to get up, have a group of friends that make you smile, and to write out songs that make you feel AMAZING! i cried once more, what i got from her talk was that it’s okay to be bipolar, i’m not weird for being bipolar, i’m just katharin. 

at the end of the day, i felt like a whole new woman. i walked out with my head high, my heart was full of hope, and my self-confidence was at a level that it had never been. 

thank you, taylor, for making me into the woman i am today, for being my best friend even though you have no idea who i am, you’ve always been there. also know that throughout your life journey, i’ve always been there, cheering you on, even if you fall, i’ll always help you up. what are best friends for?

with all of my love,

katharin

a good video that shows just how much i love taylor. @taylorswift

This is probably one of the only times ive ever been this happy and its thanks to you. Thank you

@taylorswift TAYLOR This year has been the best year of my life because it brought me closer to you! This year you GAVE ME LOVE ADVICE and taught me that the most important thing is loving yourself and surrounding yourself with people who love you, your friends and family. You were always there for me and made my dark days bright. You’re my T and I’m your C. I’m so eternally grateful and I can’t imagine how it can get better than this. But like you quoted, “there are far better things ahead than any we leave behind” so I’m beyond excited to see what 2016 can offer. I love you endlessly. 

This video perfectly shows how I was feeling when Taylor brought out Charli Xcx to sing Boom Clap.

Throughout the video you see me crying, singing, dancing, gasping for air, and screaming a few piercing screams.

I don’t think I’ve ever been happier than I have in this moment.

Thank you for this @taylorswift you made me so extremely emotional in the best way, you and charli are my two favorite people and I adore and idolize you both so much. 💖

also, the other person in this video( the one recording) is one of my best friends named Taylor ( @gotthat-goodgirlfaith ) thanks for giving me a friend who could experience this with me :)

Hey @taylorswift, I’m writing this cause I’m having a really really hard time right now. This is a video of my grandpa trying to make me laugh while I was in the hospital for my surgery last November. Your album just came out so we were listening to it together. He really was the greatest man and he loved how happy you made me. He always would tell me that we would meet and I’d be able to thank you. He was just great and supportive like that. He was a dad to me. I don’t really speak to mine much so he was my father figure. Everyone he met instantly fell in love with his personality and spirit. He was my best friend and my hero. This morning cancer took him and I’m an absolute mess. I’m taking this really hard cause he was the one who raised me. He’s the one who taught me everything. He’s the one who came to all my performances. He’s the one who showed me how men should really treat their wives and daughters. Anyways my birthday is tomorrow and I’m really struggling. I just wanted to show you this video cause I thought maybe it would make you smile. I don’t know.

But I guess I just want to thank you for helping me through this. I played your music to him on one of his last days and it made him smile so thank you. Your music and you are helping me so much right now and I just love you a lot. Endlessly.

Xo, Sammy

Hey Tay. So it’s been two months and I’m still struggling so much. I really don’t know when this will get easier…or if it will. I guess the holidays are making it harder cause I used to spend them all with him. It’s so hard for me to believe that I’m never going to get to see one of my heroes and best friends again. I keep remembering all the little things he used to do to make me smile. He’d cut out newspaper articles of you and bring them to the hospital to make me smile or he’d call you sailor twift to make me laugh. There wasn’t a time I can remember that he didn’t ask me how you were doing, like I was your best friend or something. :’) I have a lot of performances coming up and this will be the first time he won’t see them. As I said before, he came to every single one. I don’t know why but somehow that’s one of the hardest things for me. He’s never going to get to see the most important show that I’m in. I’ll never be able to hear him say that he’s proud….it’s just all so strange.

Anyways Tay, the reason I’m writing this is to thank you because I honestly don’t think I would’ve been able to get through these past few months without you and your music cheering me on. I love you more than you will ever know. If you read this…thank you! If not that’s cool too. Xoxo

Dear Taylor,

Hi. My name is Caitlin. I’m 18 years old and the best decision I have ever made was in 2006 when I told my dad I liked that cool song on the radio, “Our Song,” and he bought me the album that had it on it.

I don’t know where I would be if I hadn’t told him about that song. It scares me, to think that these smallest of choices can ripple out and affect an entire lifetime. I’m so endlessly happy that I started that ripple. Your music has grown with me, Taylor. As you have developed into a magnificent young lady I’ve been following, trying to model myself into a person I am proud of. A person like you.

I’m not always the happiest person, I’ll admit. But I would be so much worse than I am if I did not have you in my life. The first song that ever made a significant impact on me was Tied Together With A Smile. When I listen to it, it feels like you wrote it just for me. Like you’re telling me to keep going. The second song that’s made a significant impact on me is Innocent. I have plans to get a tattoo with lyrics from that song, I never want to forget the message. 

I think of you as a friend, a lot of the time. Because sometimes I feel so incredibly alone, and I know I can rely on you to make me feel better. Whether that’s through your music, or watching your interviews, or, more recently, watching how you interact with your fans. With people like me.

Writing poetry, much like you with writing music, is my passion. It’s all I want to do in my life. A lot of the time I want to give up on it completely, but you remind me to keep going with it. You remind me to not give up. One of the first real poems I wrote was to you. While the writing itself makes me cringe, as my style has developed a lot since I wrote it, the feelings are all still there. I made a video of myself reading this poem aloud to you, but unfortunately it doesn’t always play on mobile :( It always plays on a computer, however, so if you ever feel like watching thirteen minutes of me reading an old poem, here is the link. I also wrote the words out, if you just wanted to read it, and you can find that here on my other blog.

I really want to meet you someday, Taylor. I really hope that ends up happening. I want to hug you, and say thank you in person for teaching me so much. For teaching me that love is beautiful, and can be found in places other than a significant other. For teaching me that in order to survive you have to shake it off. For teaching me that there are so many good things in this world, so many happy moments to experience, if you just look around.

Thank you for everything, Taylor. I’m so excited to see you on October 3rd in Toronto, section 125, for the 1989 tour. You deserve the entire world and I wish that I could give it to you. I hope this letter gives you a piece of it.

Love, Caitlin

@taylorswift I love you so much

taylorswift one thing I really admire about you is how optimistic and carefree you are. how do you do it? I try so hard to not let the whispers/glares behind my back affect me and I know I shouldn’t care but it just hurts sometimes you know? I mean how and when do you get to the point where you just don’t care what people think anymore?

taylorswift love this photo we took together with some fellow people in the crowd in Detroit!!

best night of my life

the journey taylor took me on that night will never be forgotten. i held my breath as i pushed open the doors to the concert, it was the only way i could keep in my tears in. naturally, i didnt get far before i semi burst into tears. i was about to watch my role model, my “big sister”, perform on stage, live, right fucking in front of me. maybe i was crazy for crying, but i was about to lose my concert virginity to taylor swift. TAYLOR SWIFT! 

the moment i saw taylor walk upon the stage that night is a moment i will forever have on replay; my heart stopped, my eyes rapidly began producing tears, and my breathing came to a sudden halt. there she was, taylor, my role model, my “big sister”, for real, on stage, less than 10 feet in front of me. 

as taylor walked closer, closer, even closer to me, my body snapped out of the, “holy shit, it’s taylor swift” mode, and went into, “HOLY SHIT, IT’S TAYLOR SWIFT” mode. i’ve never screamed louder, especially when she said she loved to perform in des moines. she loves to perfrom in iowa! holy crap! (p.s. taylor, come to iowa city, it’s very artsy, especially in writing, you’d love it. i highly recommend visiting during art fest) 

the concert hit a note that was personal to me, she talked to me, to the crowd, but it felt like she was talking to me. she told us (me), that it’s okay to fall down, its even better to get up, have a group of friends that make you smile, and to write out songs that make you feel AMAZING! i cried once more, what i got from her talk was that it’s okay to be bipolar, i’m not weird for being bipolar, i’m just katharin. 

at the end of the day, i felt like a whole new woman. i walked out with my head high, my heart was full of hope, and my self-confidence was at a level that it had never been. 

thank you, taylor, for making me into the woman i am today, for being my best friend even though you have no idea who i am, you’ve always been there. also know that throughout your life journey, i’ve always been there, cheering you on, even if you fall, i’ll always help you up. what are best friends for?

with all of my love,

katharin