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See you, Space Cowboy

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Archive for Toby, 2012-2017.
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A small essay on things I realize over a decade too late:

When you define Leonard McCoy’s fear in Star Trek 2009, as seen by Jim Kirk, there is one take away: This man recognizes space will kill him if given the opportunity. That is why Jim gloms on.

Think about it.

Leonard McCoy is afraid of space. He knows it can kill him. But at his core, he isn’t a coward. He later proves that when taking command for Dr. Puuri by virtue of simply recognizing a vacuum in the structure and filling it effortlessly and without question. He has a duty, his personal sworn duty to evaluate and treat patients, and he is fine. But in a common transport shuttle where he’s reduced to passenger, when his focus is just his own mortality, he is terrified.

In this timeline they create Kelvin pods, named after George Kirk’s tragedy.

Leonard McCoy fears space. He knows it will kill him. He fears and curses it openly. But if it came to his sworn duty? Wouldn’t see any danger. He is the fascinating case study of why George did what he did. He’s a link of understanding why duty transcends fear of death.

That is why they’re friends. That is why they’re unspokenly important to each other. They’ve been helping each other understand the enigmas within themselves for as long as it matters in their own careers. It’s also why Spock was a welcome turn of events, all things considered.

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After much consideration (and a good night rehashing Beyond with an old friend), I have decided I want to try my hand at Bones again. However, out of respect for this blog, it’s history, and my former partners, I will be remaking him under a different url. Thank you, those who see this, for sticking around. Hopefully I’ll see you soon.

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“There will always be those who mean to do us harm. To stop them, we risk awakening the same evil within ourselves. Our first instinct is to seek revenge when those we love are taken from us. But that’s not who we are.” ~Jim Kirk, Star Trek Into Darkness

I think about this line more than I probably should. Because his statement about the desire to seek revenge might be true of him (just look at the way he lashes out at Khan after Pike’s death), it’s certainly true of both Spock and Uhura (“go get him”), but it’s so inescapably untrue of McCoy.

When he sees Jim’s body, he doesn’t particularly care about getting revenge against Khan; there’s no anger or wrath in his response, only total, utter despair. And what brings him out of that, what brings the life back to his eyes isn’t the thought of revenge, it’s the realization that it might not be too late to save Jim. Bones’ first instinct is to heal—if he can’t do that, for all his temper, he doesn’t see much point in doing further harm.

#I just #even with Khan #who murdered one of his good friends #he had the gentlest hands on the ship #even when his wife took everything #his response is to make /himself/ better #throughout both movies #he’s there in the background #watching with ever increasing concern #speaking up when he can’t keep quiet #defending who he believes deserve to be defended #offering comfort when someone needs it #or reassurance #quick to bring up his own flaws and weaknesses #I mean Carol’s ‘Do you?’ #and Leo’s ‘Yeah.’ #don’t tell me that wasn’t Leo saying ‘It’s okay to be weak.’ #don’t talk to me about my muse #just ugh #this man #will be the death of me (tags via imadoctornotablog )
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He lifts his PADD out of the way immediately, gently guiding Bones's head into his lap. He threads his fingers over and over through Leonard's hair, bending forward to press a kiss against his temple. "Hi you."

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@thewinningscenario

    Nothing.

    Nothing is the key. He has, for all intents and purposes, surrendered himself to nothing for the last two years.And as such, he allows himself this: blunt fingers in his hair. Fair, soft skin making the face he adores.

    Is it the same? For all the years that have passed: does he love the same person?

    Who knows. He feels like he does, though.

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