GraTsu + 'please don't cry' and 'why are you awake right now?'

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Gray woke up as the mattress shifted under him. The warm body that was pressed next to his moved away, leaving him suddenly cold.

As he opens his eves he sees the silhouettes of his lover passing the door of their bedroom, disappearing in the corridor. Gray only sighed as he glanced at the alarm. It’s barely 3 am, so he guessed Natsu is only going to use the bathroom and will be back in a few minutes. He lets himself be lulled back to sleep.

The next time he wakes, it’s 4 am and he is alone in the bed. He frowned as he sits up. This is unusual. He pressed his hands to his face, trying to waking up a little more before going after his boyfriend. He doesn’t have to search for long, since the boy is laying down the couch. Gray makes his way toward him and crouches to have a better look at his lover’s face. Natsu is awake but his gaze is focused on the ground, and he didn’t seem to notice that Gray is right next to him.

The ice mage brings a hand to Natsu’s cheek, giving him a little caress. It seems to startle Natsu as he finally lifted his eyes up to meet Gray’s. He looks scared, and Gray is not sure he understands why.

“Hey…it’s 4 am, why are you awake right now?” Gray’s voice is calm and low, no judgement in it, only curiosity and concern.

“I..I just couldn’t sleep,“ Natsu says, voice hoarse.

Gray only hums and urges Natsu to make some place for him. A few seconds later, Gray is lying on his back, with Natsu on top of him, head resting above his heart.

“Did you had a nightmare?” Gray asks.

“No.”

“Then what is keeping you awake love?” Gray let his fingers run along Natsu’s back, and it’s only then that he realises that Natsu is shaking, as he sniffles against his shirt.

“Are you crying?” Gray moves a bit, so he can pull Natsu’s head toward him, and his heart misses a beat when he sees the tears already drying on his cheeks. “Natsu…” Gray breathes “What’s wrong? Please don’t cry sweetheart.”

Instead of calming the Dragon Slayer, this only make matters worse. Natsu is openly sobbing now, and Gray is not entirely sure what to do. He slides his arms around Natsu’s back, keeping him close, murmuring gently kind words to him.

After what seems to be an hour passes, Natsu is finally calm against him, only a few small tremors remaining. Gray chose this moment to let his concern show. “Talk to me… what happened?”

He’s met with silence at first and Gray accepts that, because he knows all to well that the right words to express how you feel are sometimes impossible to find, but Natsu ends up opening himself up not long after.

“I was just thinking about Zeref…and why all of this had happened and…it’s all my fault isn’t it? If I hadn’t been there, if I hadn’t lived none of this would have happen. None of you would have been in danger, I mean you could still live with your parents. I’m not supposed to be here Gray… and you should hate me for that but you’re … here.”

Gray took a moment to register all of this. He knew for a long time that Natsu kept a lot of things inside of him, and Gray had tried to make him talk before. It never worked. Until now, Natsu has always brushed off the subject.

“Where else should I be?” Gray answered softly. “You can’t blame yourself for everything that happens in this world Natsu. Zeref was behind it all, and you didn’t take part of it knowingly. You are a victim just like the rest of us. I can’t deny the fact that if Zeref hadn’t done anything, things would probably be slightly different. You might be right, I could be with my parents right now and the rest of my family but… in that case, I wouldn’t have met Ur, Lyon and Ultear. I wouldn’t have ended up in Fairy Tail, and Erza, Lucy and Happy wouldn’t be part of my life. I wouldn’t have met you. Which is probably the only thing I’m truly happy about. I’m right where I should be. So stop beating yourself up, because I love you and there’s no point to think about all the ‘if’.”

Gray feels Natsu shift over him, until he was straddling the Ice Mage. His hands were flat against his chest, and his eyes bore into Gray’s. He looks so young and vulnerable, all Gray wants to do is to hide him and protect him from the world.

“Do you mean that?”

"When have I ever lie to you about those kind of things flame brain?”

Natsu lets out a watery laugh as he leans down, to give Gray a kiss. “I love you too..thank you.”

Thank you to @jinx13gxa for doing the beta work for me ! You’re amazing as always !

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