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⛌ indemniify​ ;

      she’s taken place in his cot, fingers drumming against the metal frame and gaze lost somewhere far from either of them. sharing little more than SILENCE in his tent has become a routine raven has been trying to find comfort in, seeking bellamy out once she knew he’d neither pry nor refuse to LISTEN if needed; and while she hadn’t found much to say in the past couple of weeks, raven is the first one to break the silence, her words tumbling out in a STRANGLED tone that takes even her by surprise.

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      ❛ it’s all bullshit, you know. ❜  she clears her throat, attempting to talk through the knot that is already forming so he can have some clarification.   ❛ people talk about how... there’s this moment every time you wake up, and you just forget they’re gone, and then... then you’re hit with the crushing realization, and it’s bullshit.  ❜  raven knows there is very little she can teach a BLAKE about loss and grief, but something in the way she talks makes it clear this isn’t educational as much as it is cathartic.  ❛ there isn’t a single moment where i forget he is gone. ❜

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marry me

gladly tbh i feel like you’d be an incredible life partner

bab

i’ve missed you all so terribly oh g od

ahhhh, you’re so beautiful gdi

u compliment me too much my ego is gonna inflate and become out of control

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i love you ok

i love u too ok you’re awesome

i try to be as soothing as i can be. i don’t like being in uncomfortable positions and i want everyone to be as comfortable as possible. love you. xoxo

you’re so cute let me kiss ur forehead

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faithevebee
#317: he calls me a “maneater.” i study a crack in the wall until it blinks. he wants me to be sorry for not loving him and i want to be sorry for not loving him because good people are supposed to love other good people and he is a good man and this is the only way to prove my own goodness, even if loving him just means unpacking all my suitcases and making my eyes look like i’m listening. but i’ve spent months tamping down the sky trapped inside my body, months sitting with my hands in my lap. and for that i say, i cannot allow myself to believe that love is nothing but a reward for good behavior. for that i say, i don’t want to eat you, little boy. you are not my brand of firewood.

Safia Elhillo (aka susie knuckles aka ethnic bethanie aka nosering nancy aka delilah aka phyllis aka jawn coltrane aka frida cashflow aka susan switchblade aka elusive lucy aka gilderoy glockhart aka dobby digital aka carmen sand diego aka anita maneater aka apricot jones aka cruella el hill. )

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kiss meme. status: accepting if ily. forehead kiss. 

           the walk back to camp jaha is a long one and the entire time, she floats               from her spot to check on people. she talks to jasper for a bit, sticks to               bellamy’s side throughout most of it, but her gaze keeps falling on raven.              she looks horrible & it makes anger swell in her chest. of all the people for              them to put on the table, they picked raven. a part of her feels guilty because               of an unspoken promise she made to herself. after raven lost finn, after what               happened to her in tondc, she promised herself that she’d look out for her. 

                       by the time they make it back to camp, her and lincoln are side by side.                       her fingers are laced with his as they walk and he tells her about cage.                        she tells him about the guards and about maya. they don’t talk about how                      he got away from lexa or what it means for them. she doesn’t want to think                       about how he chose her. again. how she somehow managed to make him                       lose everything twice. she’d rather ignore it for now. 

              she watches them take raven to medical and she’s following after them,               letting go of lincoln’s hand without a word and pressing a kiss to bellamy’s               cheek. she could see them later. she ignores the way people look at her as              she settles in the spot next to raven. of course, she just looks angry.  

                               ❛ you’ll be out of here soon.  ❜ 

                     there’s an unspoken i promise at the end of it. 

              her hand settles on raven’s forehead, pushing the hair out of her face.               even if she’s silently complaining, octavia doesn’t care. they made it               out of the mountain with most of their people. 

                             she sits in medical for what feels like hours, talking to raven about                             anything & everything she can think of. anything to get raven’s mind                              off of what happened to her. raven mentions something about her brace                             being ruined and she makes a mental note to help her fix it. 

                    they were healing. slowly. 

             eventually raven stops talking and it’s a comfortable silence that leads to her             falling asleep. a sigh of relief leaves her lips as she stands, moving to press a              gentle kiss to her forehead. it’s nurturing in a way that feels weird, but she doesn’t             think a lot about it. raven wouldn’t know she did it anyway.

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