Little things

Getting to see friends I haven’t seen in a while made my night. Even if it was just through laggy snapchat video, lol.

I think this is the fifth person in my class that has gotten engaged just this past trimester. Then everyone looks at me and goes, “You’re next!”...

If one more person says that to me, I’m gonna come back with, “YOU’RE next!”

Jk. But seriously.

Seems that I’m a lot more emotional that I would like to be, or how people would imagine me to be... We finally started working on the faces and extracting brains in cadaver lab today, and I couldn't do it. I kind of surprised myself, honestly, cause I didn’t think it would affect me that much but as soon as the door opened and I only saw one of the heads unwrapped, I backed away and stayed outside. I just stood outside the door and told everyone I’d be in there in a bit, but then one of the lab instructors came out and started talking to me cause I seemed hesitant to go it in. And that’s when I started tearing up. (Note: Don’t ask if someone is okay when they don’t seem okay cause that’s pretty much opening a bad of emotions.. Jk, you should be nice and check on people. Just not me.) I find it a bit discomforting that everyone else is so easily able to skin a dead person’s face and not cringe while sawing through skulls. I understand that it’s all for science and it’s a learning opportunity, but it’s hard for me to forget that this once used to be a living person, who had a family, who had a job and contribution to this society. And now, there they are, dismantled, muscles all dry, and I think the worst part is that most of our cadavers are molding. I’m sad because 1) I feel like the families did not imagine this is how their loved ones would be used and 2) I feel like I’m not skilled/deserving to dissect a human being. Idk, maybe I’m feeling too much but that’s what kept running through my head as I kept trying to build up the nerve to go face-to-face (literally) with the cadavers. On the other hand, I’m so grateful to be given this opportunity to learn and understand the human body because at the end of it all, it really is an amazing experience. 

Anywaysss, I’m getting burnt out and I’m so excited to finally come home after finals and this long trimester. I want to see everyone and go play outside and not study! And I’m also craving crawfish, sushi, viet food, and more crawfish. 

The old couple is so cute!!!

i really wanted to come home this weekend but i have to take a cpr/first aid class, and i guess i kinda got over not being able to by telling myself it's only been like a week and a half. but now everyone's sending me snapchats and hanging out, and i'm getting really sad again...... I MISS EVERYONE AND I WANNA COME HOME );

i still have a week left and it's already begun... );