whispers i rly miss being over here
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i am accused. i dream of massacres. i am a garden of black & red agonies. i drink them, hating myself, hating & fearing. & now the world conceives its end & runs toward it, arms held out in love.
montereymonster-blog reblogged
i am accused. i dream of massacres. i am a garden of black & red agonies. i drink them, hating myself, hating & fearing. & now the world conceives its end & runs toward it, arms held out in love.
montereymonster-blog reblogged
i am accused. i dream of massacres. i am a garden of black & red agonies. i drink them, hating myself, hating & fearing. & now the world conceives its end & runs toward it, arms held out in love.
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hiatus notice !!
so ok i think it’s become pretty obvious that stefan & i aren’t really getting along right now. he’s being the stubborn piece of shit that he is, & every time i open drafts i kinda wanna shoot myself in the face or s/t, so i’ve been avoiding being here for a while now. that’s not to say that i don’t love being here, or that i don’t treasure all the threads i have w/ u weirdos, bcos i absolutely do – it’s just not rly working for me rn ?? you can probably find me on my very tentative bucky most of the time, but for now, peace out motherfuckers i’m outtie
montereymonster-blog reblogged
i am accused. i dream of massacres. i am a garden of black & red agonies. i drink them, hating myself, hating & fearing. & now the world conceives its end & runs toward it, arms held out in love.
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hiatus notice !!
so ok i think it’s become pretty obvious that stefan & i aren’t really getting along right now. he’s being the stubborn piece of shit that he is, & every time i open drafts i kinda wanna shoot myself in the face or s/t, so i’ve been avoiding being here for a while now. that’s not to say that i don’t love being here, or that i don’t treasure all the threads i have w/ u weirdos, bcos i absolutely do – it’s just not rly working for me rn ?? you can probably find me on my very tentative bucky most of the time, but for now, peace out motherfuckers i’m outtie
montereymonster-blog reblogged
i am accused. i dream of massacres. i am a garden of black & red agonies. i drink them, hating myself, hating & fearing. & now the world conceives its end & runs toward it, arms held out in love.
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hiatus notice !!
so ok i think it’s become pretty obvious that stefan & i aren’t really getting along right now. he’s being the stubborn piece of shit that he is, & every time i open drafts i kinda wanna shoot myself in the face or s/t, so i’ve been avoiding being here for a while now. that’s not to say that i don’t love being here, or that i don’t treasure all the threads i have w/ u weirdos, bcos i absolutely do – it’s just not rly working for me rn ?? you can probably find me on my very tentative bucky most of the time, but for now, peace out motherfuckers i’m outtie
hiatus notice !!
so ok i think it’s become pretty obvious that stefan & i aren’t really getting along right now. he’s being the stubborn piece of shit that he is, & every time i open drafts i kinda wanna shoot myself in the face or s/t, so i’ve been avoiding being here for a while now. that’s not to say that i don’t love being here, or that i don’t treasure all the threads i have w/ u weirdos, bcos i absolutely do -- it’s just not rly working for me rn ?? you can probably find me on my very tentative bucky most of the time, but for now, peace out motherfuckers i’m outtie
HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY, ASHLI !!!!! (otherwise known as: ashli is rly fuckin young)
so this is the part where i get rly fuckin gay abt u & recite a speech that’s probably better suited for our swamp wedding than ur birthday gift, but ok here we go: ive said this to you like fifty times but it feels like i’ve known u for all my life, even tho we only met like ??? in december ?? maybe ?? or something like that. idk. it feels like a while so just a cERTAIN AMOUNT OF TIME. anyway we haven’t known each other that long ( though with the amount of indies we’ve both burnt through in that time you’d think we’d known each other YEARS jfc ) but ur like my incredibly lame cute lil sister and ilysm ok. & even though ur like, 12, ur rly cool. your writing is so amazing it’s insane ( even if you don’t believe me, which you probably don’t bcos you’re you, in which case: suck my fat ass ) & the amazing amount of life you breathe into every muse you pick up is so incredible that im jealous. i hate u for it. then, of course, there’s the fact that your elena is literally so on point that it hurts me, & all our plots and threads give me such joy even if they’re ripping me apart inside, & ur the only elena that im ever gonna need. love ur lame lena ass.
i’d also like to just take a minute out of my day to say how amazing u urself are outside of your writing, which, lbr, is pretty fuckin amazing. even when ur sending me shrek porn. you’re always so good at cheering me up & making me laugh, which is something you’re always doing, & our convos mean the world to me, whether they’re srs or such total shit that our sanity could be in question. plus ur always complimenting me and lifting me up when im down ( i told u this was gonna get gaaaaay ) & ilysm for it, okay ??
& then ofc there’s how beautiful ur graphics are, which i know u don’t believe, but i absolutely love love love how you texture & edit, & ur such huge inspiration to me it’s insane.
tl;dr ur rly cool & i hope u have an amazing day & thank u for bein my wife ily <33
i know my activity on here has been total horse shit lately & im so so sorry !! stef’s muse has been so fuckin uncooperative recently & my craptastic friends are all tempting me into a new muse so im !! kinda crappy now but im gonna try & get on here soon & do shit ok ok
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it still manages to LINGER. cold, nonthreatening, lifeless against her gums. like toxic water poisoning her mentality, allowing the lurking insanity to seep through her cracks. HE’S so casual. casually malicious. casually fatal. it’s the high crackheads only dream about. switches angle down, & they’re suspended without emotion.
’i’ll let you have the first bite. ’
HIS GRIN IS SOMETHING TO BE FEARFUL OF, the kind of smile that reaches past the mouth & coils silver around the insides, presses knives against organs & slips poison into bloodstreams. the glint of his teeth, the feral emotion --- or lack thereof --- laid there something beyond a mere KILLER’S ; something cruel & cold & callous. this is what it means to be a p r e d a t o r. this is what it is to corrupt. ❛ you’ll let me, huh? ------ should i THANK you? ❜
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important ship tropes:
- fake dating
- SECRET dating
- being locked in a room or trapped in a small space
- huDDLING FOR WARMTH
- BEING ON THE BRINK OF ADMITTING THEIR FEELINGS FOR EACH OTHER BUT THEN GETTING INTERRUPTED
- finishing each other’s sentences, KNOWING WHAT THE OTHER IS ABOUT TO SAY
- tou chi NG!!!! FOr eheA DS!!!!!!11!!
- wearing each other’s clothes
- doing that thing where they accidentally get real close and, like, stare meaningfully at each other for a few seconds too long
- channeling the inner romcom and having an epiphany about how much they care about each other and RACING TO CONFESS THEIR LOVE
- fucking. Now or Never Kiss
- HEIGHT DIFFERENCES
- defending each other to scathing tertiary or otherwise minor characters but ONLY WHEN THE OTHER ISN’T AROUND
- reincarnation or time loop or OOOOH TIME TRAVEL SCENARIOS
- dramatically saving each other from certain death or barely surviving something that almost makes the other break down and just smirking wearily and mumbling flippant smartass remarks to HIDE THE DEPTH OF THEIR FEELINGS
- undercover as lovers, the classic
- ALMOST KISSING. like getting so close that they start to close their eyes and hold their breath and then SOMETHING HAPPENS and they jump apart, that is MORE VALUABLE THAN ANY ACTUAL KISSING
- casually sitting on each other’s laps during ensemble cast conversations or scenes
- did i mention F AKE DATinG
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You moved to touch my leg that day but you stopped yourself and I asked you why. You said, “It’s so small,” then you looked up at me like I was something precious you didn’t want to break. I wanted to tell you that I’ve never been broken and that I never will, but then I realised that you could. You could break me. I did feel small then, vulnerable, heart in the palm of your hand. I don’t even know how you got it because I don’t remember giving it. Maybe I don’t even remember having it. The point is, you told me to feel the rise and fall of your chest and I breathed in time to it. The world didn’t shatter around us, but I felt different, somehow. Like an earthquake had taken place inside of me and yet, I was still standing, and you were still there with me.
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GET TO KNOW ME ◊ tvd edition ◊ favourite friendships » Lexi Branson & Stefan Salvatore “You wasted your whole life taking care of me. Now you’re dead and you still have nothing better to do.”
#﹠ ✝ ┊ ❛ A STORY WHERE ARIADNE LOVED HER BULL-BROTHER.#someone make a lexi for the love of g o d#look @ this shit#look @ stefan and his sister#(bcos lexi // is // his sister she is the closest thing to a sister he is ever going to have)#all that sibling teasing and laughter and affection and banter#all of that is everything he should have had in his relationship w/ damon but didnt#(which is one of the reasons why it hurt so much that // damon // was the one who killed her)#oh look i made myself sad again#queued.
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I’ve been fighting that part of myself. Thinking that if I repress it, it would go away. But it won’t. And now that I’ve accepted it, it can’t control me. And neither can you.