✍I have not forgotten

Hello All,

I know it has been a millennia since I have written to all of you and I apologize for that. Life sometimes takes the helm. I have thought about this blog so many times and have always been nervous to write something since I have been absent for so long. I decided to fight my nerves and finally muster up a post for a change. 

I have been working on myself for the past couple of years. Self-healing, per say. I am still on that journey. I have been focusing a lot lately on self care because before, I would not practice it. For example, I have lost over 100 pounds. My weight was out of control beforehand. I was not taking care of myself until I had a health scare about a year and a half ago.

You all are probably wondering about my abilities. My abilities are still in tact. Since I have been on my journey, I noticed my abilities coming and going. I believe I have just been blocking them out since I had lost so much over the years. The trauma from the lost deeply wounded me and it was much deeper than I thought possible. You don’t really know how much weight is on your shoulders until you take a moment to analyze everything. 

I know my abilities are still in tact because I have had incidents. For example, I am very good at reading people. I was able to weed out negative people in my life because of the vibes they had. I was able to hear spirits when I allowed myself to. I was even able to see visions from them as a form of communication. I thought I had lost all this, but it turned out, these are things that I was suppressing. 

My abilities had always overwhelmed me so much in the past. I wouldn’t want that to happen again any time soon. Spirits are stubborn though, they like to get their messages across at times.  It’s understandable given that I am a telephone to the living. This thought does not disturb me though at all. If you had only one way to communicate to your love ones, wouldn’t you take the chance to try? That is how I see it.

The whispers are coming back more frequent. I can hear spirits more often than I did before. Sometimes I would misplace something and I would ask myself where it was. The spirits would answer for me and there it was. It almost seems like my abilities never left me at times. I still ponder on the idea if I could return to how I was or if that is what I wanted.  I do not know at this point in time.

I just want to thank you all for being here still, listening and caring. I absolutely appreciate you all and hope you are all doing good.  

My inbox is open for those who wish to message me or just to say hello.

✍ I have missed you all...

Hello everyone,

I’ve been meaning to write this post for a very long time, but every time I would get distracted with something else. Life has been extremely busy for me for the past two years. I know I haven’t been there for you all, but I have not forgotten you. Life had simply been taking a lot of my time and a lot of my focus. So forgive me if I haven’t written. 

My abilities have been blocked out by myself. After the trauma of losing my grandmother, I had somehow mysteriously had shut myself off to the spirit world. I had even struggled trying to hear spirits and this has been happening on and off. At times it feels like my abilities were taken away from me and I had lost hope, but sometimes I see them peak through.

I came on here to tell you all what has happened lately. As some of you know, I tend to wear crystal bracelets. I had now been wearing this red bracelet with a sliver medallion with Hebrew letters. I bought it because it was beautiful and I had a strange attraction to it. I don’t even know Hebrew, but someone told me a while after that it helps protect against evil spirits. Which was interesting because I was attracted to it and I had no idea what it had meant.

 Anyways, last month I went to the mall and there was a booth there with the evil eye and the hamsa hand and things like that. I believe in a lot of these things, I really don’t subject myself to one belief or one religion. 

Anyhoo, There was another brown bracelet, with a sliver medallion with Hebrew letters and I was attracted to it as well. The sales lady comes up to me and she notices that i’m looking at the bracelet. She tells me its really nice and that it’s for a good price. I decide to buy it not because of what she was saying but because I was drawn to it. 

After I purchase it, that’s when the truth comes out about the bracelet. She tells me that the bracelet invokes protection from all the angels. That the angels will always watch over me as long as I wore the bracelet. I’m a skeptic by nature, so I laugh it off and go about my way. Naturally, I tend to have a hard time believing things until things go down. 

One ability that has never let me was sometimes I have dreams, dreams with spirits and other things. Some nights, I forget to put my bracelets on after I shower. Usually these dreams are never good. Most of the time the dreams are not as pleasant when i’m not wearing the bracelets. It took me a while to realize this because well I barely ever forget my bracelets. Apparently, spirits still like to attack me in my dreams still. 

They liked to scare the crap out of me, usually it doesn’t work because I have always been able to wake up. They don’t scare me much in the dreams so they really don’t have a hold on me. Anyways, the last dream I had I was trapped in a huge mansion and there was an older lady, a bad spirit, trying to kill me and other people. Of course, I eventually woke up, but this weird feeling had washed over me. I felt like I had to put the bracelets on and so I did. For the rest of the night, I slept soundly. 

Although my abilities have been on and off, I still struggle with the block I have on me. The block I have put over myself is pretty strong. Although some things are slipping through the cracks, it is hard to try and do things on command. If there are anymore updates, I will let you know. 

My inbox is open for any comments you have. My readings are remaining closed.

✍It has been such a long time...

Hello everyone,

I know it has been such a long time. But I thought I would give you all an update on how things are.

I am doing good. I am okay. My abilities still have not returned. I have tried here and there to get them back but still they had not surfaced. I have even tried to astral travel, but I get disconnected rather quickly. During all these attempts, I feel like I have failed you all because I know you are all waiting to have your questions answered. It seems as though my block is strong.

Then last night happened. I typically wasn't having too many dreams. I dreamed I was outside of my grandmother’s apartment. My parents, and even my dog was there. We went inside and my uncle was there. He told us he was moving. I thought about how my grandmother was missing from here, but it was never brought up in the conversion. 

I was the first one to step outside the apartment and walk down the street to the SUV. My dog followed me down the street, I pop open the hatch of the SUV so that I could sit on the back of it. I didn't want to sit inside the car, because of how hot that would be. I picked up my dog and he sat next to me. 

This is where the dream gets weird, but I will explain it in a moment. Ducks came out of nowhere and started to fly into the SUV. I would pick them out of the SUV and simply put them back outside. Many attempts the ducks would fly in, but I would place them outside. I didn't care about the car getting dirty or the fact that they could mess them up. I just didn't want them there.

Ducks represent your spiritual freedom when they are flying. They are the connection between the physical and the spiritual world. A parked car means that I have to put my effort and energy into something else. That I need to stop and enjoy life. Seeing a dog in a dream can mean lots of things, but one of those things stood out, seeing a dog could mean that you had a skill that is ignored or forgotten. 

I was ignoring my skill. In return it had effected my connection with the spiritual side. I was so worried about my abilities being gone, that I was trying to get them back, yet in the process of that I forgot to stop and enjoy life. 

Maybe this is what the dream was trying to tell me. That I should stop and live life and not worry so much about my abilities. Maybe this was the break I needed. 

After the dream, I woke up and couldn't fall back asleep. I tossed and turned. That’s when I heard a voice. “You’re tired. Sleep”. After hearing that voice, I just fell asleep. 

So today, my mom tells my dad in the afternoon that there were baby ducks stuck in the sewer. Apparently they fell down the hole and we’re calling out to their mom. Their mom disappeared. I guess she was in such distressed that she left.

Anyways, my dad goes outside and so do I. We hear them calling out. My dad pulls the grate from the drain. There are like 7 babies down there. So at first we tried a net but they would fall right through the holes.

So then we tried a basket with strings and we made sure it went right below the waterline. We threw bread. I went online and found the breed of duck then I found the mother calls. So I played it on repeat. They started coming out and my dad caught them with the basket.

So we caught all of them. Then I wanted to go to the park because it’s across the street from my house. Usually there are a lot of ducks there. So we went looking for a duck that is all black with like two or three babies. I put them in a small pet crate.

I looked for about 30 minutes and then I found the mother with another mother and her own set of babies. The babies were calling out. The mother would turn her head and look right at me and the crate. I let them out. I backed away and the mother came towards them. She wagged her tail. She seemed excited to have her babies. She went and smelled them. She didn’t attack them or anything of that sort. So they must have been her babies because they would follow her.

So I’m glad I saved them and found their mom. Thanks to my dad, my neighbor, and myself!

🎄🎁Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays❄☃

Sorry for the lack of posts...

I’ve been busy dealing with personal issues. My grandmother passed away last night. I’m trying to be very supportive for my family. Hopefully when I’m feeling better I will post again. Happy holidays!