Love is the beauty of the soul

my last polaroid of 2020

just truly bonkers how much i love lying down..........like being horizontal? unparalleled

Me, lying on my bed, face down, desperately trying to get up: come on body yip yip

I’m very excited for my latest craft experiment, where I rhythmically slap sale rank oil paint onto a canvas and I see how long it takes to dry so that I can finally touch the paint textures I stare at so longingly in museums. 12 hours in, still wet. I am beginning to think this might take longer than I thought which you can imagine is quite a burden, as I am absolutely horned up to rub this paint.

You guys sound like you know what you’re talking about but I’m gonna touch it every twenty minutes just to be sure

I’ve put this canvas to age in the basement like a fine wine, along another recent masterpiece of mine “I put the paint on me hand and I slap the canvas like a bongo”

Paint slapped on 6/9, as of 6/22 (I mean actually it was a couple days ago but I didn’t fully check the dryness then so I can’t be sure):

It is rubbery feeling and the peaks of paint move when you flick them. The texture is not at ALL what I expected tbh and it makes me excited to try a different experiment, thick brush strokes, you know, those mad thicc ones that swirl real good

Here’s an additional shot with my coffee cup for a further sense of scale so people will understand that these canvases are small and therefore stop sending me asks about my supposedly gorilla sized hands, you bastards, you rotten bastards scared of the hands your minds gave me

I don’t know shit about art but isn’t this like a great example of art that pushes the boundaries of what art is? Like you’ve got your canvas with paint on it, but your reason for putting the paint there is totally different than why most people put paint on stuff. It’s like a study on texture or something.

Agreed, this is really cool and also I love the fact that you really wanted to touch some paint, so you just went out and bought a bunch of paint and made your own painting for touching purposes. That’s striking me as really really cool right now for reasons I can’t entirely articulate. 

For reference: Really thick paint on a piece of art is called impasto. Another really fun way to do it is with a painting knife: you can make each stroke SUPER SMOOTH like cake icing, but with visible, touchable texture between the strokes.

More impasto:

art by Jan Ironside, who does THICK IMPASTO FLOWERS THAT I SO WANT TO TOUCH

You LITERALLY sat down to watch paint dry…

Museums should have stuff like this on display JUST so you can touch it. With a sign like, “Feel me up! I won’t alarm!”

make good art

Only thing about thick impasto is that the paint can get a bit sharp sometimes. Like, I’ve cut my hand on dried impasto paint because the paint stroke was that pointed. -.-;

Every reply on this post is delightful

“I put the paint on me hand and I slap the canvas like a bongo”

“it makes me excited to try a different experiment, thick brush strokes, you know, those mad thicc ones that swirl real good“

I love your experimental approach to this, it’s very direct. like…”I have questions about the texture of this medium. I guess I could ask youtube…or I could put my hands right in it.”

candles are how we keep fires as pets

this is unnecessarily adorable

Get to the point in life where being alone doesn’t mean being lonely.

O. Leary

on purpose!!! love people on purpose!!! find someone wonderful and love them and tell them it wasn’t an accident, you had a choice, you saw who they were and realized how lovely it would be to love them, and it is!!! i made a good decision! i love you on purpose!!!

We’re no longer lovers but I’ll always love you.

O. Leary

you are very loved and you are very appreciated. i hope you are able to realize this regardless of what your mind tells you. you were made to believe that you were a burden and that you were unlovable but you’re not. the right people will come eventually, you’ll be in the right place in due time. stay patient and learn to love the person you were always meant to be.

don’t be so hard on yourself, okay? 

you’re doing a really good job. 

you’re going to be okay. 

“We don’t even ask for happiness, just a little less pain.” - Charles Bukowski

Earn her heart. That’s how you win her body.

O. Leary

stop feeling guilty for wanting to better yourself. better lifestyle, better friendships, better relationships, better income, better home, better eating habits, better routine, better everything.

if you try to wake up early but still sleep in late sometimes, make big lists but can’t seem to complete many things, make art even though you have a habit of comparing yourself, study very hard because you want good grades, workout despite hating your body, try to be positive even though you’re going through a tough time, or try to change your ways and improve yourself even though you failed many times before…I see you. I know you’re doing your best and i’m proud of you. here’s a sign to keep going, it will be worth it.

I get scared, but I am also brave. Sometimes I wonder how I will get through something, but I have also survived so many things that I never thought I could. I stumble, but I also persevere. I will get through this. And you can too.

I don’t know who needs to hear this but you’re neither lazy nor useless, fatigue is a symptom of your illness(es) and it’s completely reasonable that a fatigued person would struggle with the things you’re struggling with