Mars

I just spent the last hour or so going through my blog archives aka the actual pits of hell (2012-2013) and like.... who let me have un supervised internet???? like i am genuinely shocked and lowkey traumatised from some of the things i was posting??? i'm also a very sentimental person so a lot of the time looking back was spent reminiscing and having a little cry, what a time that was huh i miss having internet friends :( adult life is so hard and mundane to the silly little life of a mentally ill undiagnosed autistic 12 year old that would reblog sherlock, supernatural, dan and phil, doctor who for hours on end, i weirdly miss them times but i'm also glad i'm a somewhat normal human adult ig???????

how can i delete my entire tumblr archive from the ages of 12-16 asking for a friend

tumblr was like my coping mechanism going through a really hard time in my teenage years, then i kinda just forgot about it and started not coping, i wish i could get involved with fandom culture again my autistic little ass would love it but i'm kinda.... traumatised?

getting a tattoo and feeling epic

i shouldnt have been allowed on this app from the age of 12 i feel like it absolutely ruined me growing up lol

i shouldn't have been allowed on this app as a teenager

maybe i should start making personal posts and documenting every thought that crosses my feeble little brain

i'm very mentally ill

my only interest is pokemon i live breathe sleep eat pokemon all i care about is pokemon dont talk to me about anything other than pokemon otherwise i will not respond properly i am autistic and pokemon is my special interest i have every pokemon memorised i know everything there is to know i am god

stranger things 4 volume two has absolutely broke me i cried for 12 hours straight yesterday, duffer bros u owe me compensation idk why i grieved more over a certain character than i did my own nan a bit embarrassing on my part but i am destroyed

i- why did season 3 of the umbrella academy end like that??? like??? hello???