okay i’m back

hi! i hope you’re doing well. I’m stephanie and if you follow me on twitter then you probably already know that I got laid off 2 months ago and still haven’t been able to find a new job because everything is closed.‬

I really didn’t want to make this post but this has been keeping awake at night for weeks and I don’t think I have any other option. I was supposed to move to another country in september to work and study. I decided to do that for the sake of my own mental health. the past 3 years were really difficult and awful so I decided to take a year off and instead of enrolling at university again I started working full time to save money instead. ‬

‪right now I’m using the money I had saved to help my family considering we’re all currently at home. I’m living with my mom, my stepfather and my two younger siblings. I had to stop seeing my therapist and I won’t be able to afford to leave when all of this is over because most of the money I had is gone and I don’t know when things will get back to “normal” or when I’ll be able to get another job.‬

‪I want to keep helping my family, to finish my degree and I absolutely need to get my own place because my mental health is deteriorating by the second. I like my family but we have a complicated relationship and being here is not good for me.

‪I would be eternally grateful if you could donate something and/or share this post. I hate having to ask for this I feel embarrassed but I could really use some help right now. thank you guys ❤️‬

here’s my paypal email: ‬stephaniem-@hotmail.com

or: ‪https://www.paypal.me/stephmorais‬

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A little womp rat.

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Hi @taylorswift! It’s me! Bailey!

After the bloodbath that was buying tickets and thanks to my absolute queen and mother @eyesopen, I managed to snag no views for Jingleball on your birthday :-) After sleeping on the street for both GMA and Fallon, the knowledge that I have a real seat to see you is a real gamechanger. My 23rd birthday is 13 (hehe) days after yours, so seeing you is going to be the best birthday gift. Well, not seeing you because I have no views. So I’ll be hearing you.

Unless you want to see me. Maybe even hug me, hehe.

@taylornation

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@taylorswift @taylornation !!!!

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lover music video is one of her best.........

i feel so soft

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hi @taylorswift, i can’t wait <3

i hope this makes you laugh.

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#taylor swift #tswiftedit

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for taylor -

my name is millie, i’m 19 and i live in the uk.

i’ve been a fan of yours for 10 years now, so i decided to write a long-winded, slightly cringy, and (very) personal year-by-year recap to sum up what you’ve done for me in that time. i’ve assigned a song of yours to each year, one that i either feel sums up the way i was feeling or one that was particularly significant to me at that point in my life. i hope you like it.

love story

i am 9 years old, and i am sitting on the sofa at home watching disney channel. during the ad breaks, a whole bunch of new music videos premiere - and one of them is about to change my life forever. a song called love story, by the country-pop breakthrough artist taylor swift - a song and name that will end up being incredibly important in the next 10 years of my life. i google the singer on what can now only be described as a brick computer, finding a gold mine in her debut album and sophomore release fearless. i don’t realise it yet, but i’ve found something special.

mine

i am 10 years old. i’ve been obsessing over taylor swift for a year, driving everyone in my school mad with my incessant talking, trying to get everyone else to listen to her. no one else in my tiny primary school has heard of her, and i am determined to change that. i know her new album, speak now, is coming out this year, and i am SO excited. as soon as the lead single is released, i spend hours sitting in my conservatory at home, listening to it on repeat, trying to learn it as quickly as i can. she is becoming the soundtrack to my life.

enchanted

i am 11 years old, and i have no idea what’s going on around me. following an argument between my brother and mum, i am told something that no 11 year old particularly understands, and i am no exception. my dad sits me down and tells me that my mum is an alcoholic - this is a word i have only ever heard in the media, and never in the comfort of my own home. it’s a word i’ve only ever heard to describe something dark and evil. fundamentally, i know what it means, but i don’t really know what it means for me. a lot of my childhood begins to make sense. i bury my head in the sand. it’s not for me to worry about. i take solace in music, both metaphorically and literally putting my earphones in and ignoring the rest of the world. i’m still annoying everyone around me, getting branded as “the taylor swift girl”. i’m proud of my label, stubbornly proud, adding all of my facebook friends to a group i call “swift society” and not letting them leave it when they ask me to remove them (whoops). my mum takes me to see taylor on her speak now world tour in manchester, which is my first ever concert. i write about it for a school project, completely starstruck by the whole experience. at this point, taylor has become so special to me. she’s getting me through my first year of high school, my first real crush, and growing up. seeing her in person means so much, and it’s the first of so many incredible experiences she will make happen for me.

state of grace

i am 12 years old, counting down the days until taylor’s new album, red, comes out. things aren’t good at home, and some days i dread returning from school. i spend a lot of time online, running a fan page on facebook for taylor, watching her interviews and listening to her music, which serve as a comfort blanket in a dark and unsure time. i know that she is always going to make things feel better.

the best day

i am 13 years old, and i sign up for twitter with the embarrassingly cutesy nickname “bunnyswift”. i’m totally unaware of how much this decision is going to impact my life. very quickly i begin to connect with other taylor fans, meeting some people i am even still in touch with to this day. on the 27th july 2013, after a tumultuous few months, my mum gets sober. life begins to look up.

shake it off

a month before i turn 14 years old, i see taylor on the red tour in london. i am in the gods, right at the very back of the o2 arena, but i have an incredible time regardless. the first single from 1989 is released while i am in france on holiday, and i spend the whole rest of the time there listening to it on repeat.

holy ground ♡

i am 15 years old, counting down the days until i see taylor in manchester and london on the 1989 tour. i have a wonderful time. things are really beginning to improve for me, and my relationship with my mum goes from strength to strength. taylor continues to be my light in the darkness. it’s this year that i come to the conclusion that my favourite song she’s ever released is holy ground. the idea of looking back on something or someone you’ve lost as a positive, hoping they do the same, is something that resonates with me, and will continue to do so.

fearless

i am 16 years old, experiencing a lot of things for the first time, learning about my own strengths and weaknesses. i learn that i struggle with codependency, and badly. i finish high school with good grades, and go on to pursue a-levels at college. when the dreaded summer of 2016 happens, i defend taylor, as i always have. the fact that people are so quick to turn on someone who has made my life for the past 7 years so good, who has cultivated so many friendships and memories for me, is of course unsurprising - but it still sucks. the same people who teased me in high school for loving taylor happily tell me about how she’s been “exposed”. (jokes on them tho, hehe)

new year’s day

i am 17 years old and this year has been a tough one. someone incredibly important to me decides to leave my life due to my own mistakes and i have to deal with the consequences of my actions. reputation comes out just when i need it, tour dates following in suit. i have something to look forward to again.

dancing with our hands tied

i am 18 years old. i start therapy, which i’ve been needing for many years, but never had the courage to ask for help. i see so many of my friends, and taylor, on the rep tour, watching so many incredibly special people finally get their moments with her. i have 4 wonderful nights in manchester, dublin and london. we get our 15 minutes of fame when people recognise our costumes from tumblr and twitter, which is honestly really fun (people recognised us at the tube station, long before we got to the stadium, which was so cool)

the archer

i am 19 years old.

@taylorswift - throughout the past 10 years, i have looked to you as a source of inspiration, hope, light and courage. you have been the reason for so many of my happiest moments, and you’ve been there for me for so many of my darkest. i couldn’t be happier to have grown up with you. i can’t wait to hear lover, and i cannot wait to see you again on tour soon (hopefully). thank you for being there for me throughout everything, taylor. i don’t know where i would be without you.

admittedly, i’m still not great at tumblr, despite having this blog for 7 years. you can find me at twitter.com/swiftsuncharted, if you’re so inclined 💛

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@taylorswift ❣️

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Zarathustra the cat with his life size portrait by Claude Monet

#oh my god #cats

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The Archer // Taylor Swift

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”it left a pearl in my head and i roll it around every night, just to watch it glow / every night baby, that's where i go”.

#taylor swift #tswiftedit #mine

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Just an idea . . .

Wouldn’t it be cool if all we reblogged for the next 13 days is … LOVE YOU, @taylorswift. Nothing more. Nothing less. Just those 3 words and her tag. If anyone else participates, feel free to reblog their “LOVE YOU” message to Taylor. I’ll start …

lover music video is one of her best.........

Just an idea . . .

💙 🐑@taylorswift