Examining the facts: last legit run was 3 months ago, a late dinner full of cheese and chocolate fondue, 4 hours of sleep, no earphones, brand new running shoes... But finally a race without rain! 🙌 Success. 1:15:40 #run415 #goldengatebridgerun #representrunning #sofit #sojern (at Sausalito, California)

Back to a simpler time. PC: @zeehaychoo #takenwithiphone7plus #oceanbeach #sfnatives #sunset #richmond #spontaneousphotoshoot (at Ocean Beach, San Francisco)

First time running 10k (ran 5k before) in the @chinatown_ymcasf run. First time in Berkeley. First time in Napa. First time beer-tasting. First time wine-tasting. I don't like running, beer, or wine. 😐 #YRun #bornandraisedinsf #ilikedthechocolatemorethanthewine #fomo #socializing #socialdrinker #thankfulforfriends #stacytravelgee

Stacie Orrico, you have never been more relevant to me! This is me at 23.

Homemade #rumchata with Mom. 😍👯💃 #horchatarum #geebistro

Too crowded and cold with too many rides shutting down at #disneyland yet managed to make many memories with the fam. #disneyland60 #diamondcelebration #herdedlikecattle #nevertoooldfordisney #stacytravelgee (at Disneyland)

Two weeks #omahalone. It's been fun but it's time to #gomahome. #stacytravelgee #joselynmuseum #thirsttea #villagepointe #midtowncrossing #pedestrianbridge (at Omaha, Nebraska)

I like my coffee the same shade as my skin. #homealone #daytimefreedomproblems #atleastigotpeets (at Peets)

Never thought I'd go to a theme park for scares...never again. #GAHaunt #nofilter #vip #skeletonkeysscareme #stacytravelgee (at California's Great America)

Feeling Inadequate

Inadequacy is pouring down my face and my pores absorb it right back in my skin.

Today I got rejected from a software engineer position which would be no big deal but I had been thinking the company would be a good place to start at with awesome perks and people my age. Unfortunately, I got rejected. No interview. Just saw my resume and thought I wasn’t the right fit. Too often I associate “right fit” with “good enough” which isn’t always true, but that’s how I take it.

I applied for a new grad position so they won’t expect 10 years of professional experience or anything. I thought I had a good chance at it. So why did I get rejected? It was likely because my resume looks great to my friends but in engineering I look like a n00b. People frequently comment on how cool my experiences in tech have been and they say I’m going to be successful. On my resume, I feel I have technically done little to nothing. It makes me feel like I have nothing to be proud of.

CS education is something I have spent my past two summers doing and I loved it and they were the best summers I’ve ever had. Yet, right now as I am applying for jobs, I really regret spending my summers the way I have. I could’ve interned at a tech company and they could have offered me a job out of college. I’ve seen friends’ LinkedIn experiences. I SHOULDN’T FEEL THIS WAY. I feel regret for spending my summers sharing knowledge with youth and trying to diversify the industry.

I know it’s just the beginning. I haven’t applied to THAT many places. But I’m not going to be a “new grad” forever. What do I do?

Hike Mission Peak once in your life. After that you'll never want to do it again. #howdopeoplehikeforfun #slow #wokeupat5forthis #bonding (at Mission Peak)

Today is August 31, 2015. I am 22 years old and I am starting a new journey in my life. It starts with finding a job.

I have spent about two days (spanned in 1.5 weeks) working on applications and applying to various tech companies in the Bay Area. Some big names have rejected me right away which is fine and it happens. I am trying to stay optimistic. I wish I could start working right now. My frustration is that I am a fast learner and I can solve problems and work well in teams or independently. That’s not enough.

I love computer science and programming.

Programming is fun. I do not program for fun.

I play games with with my family and drink tapioca for fun.

There’s an expectation for software engineers to do a lot of side projects as proof of their technical ability.

I have technical ability but I do not code hundreds of projects in my free time.

I keep work life and home life separate. If I am at work, I my goal is to go above and beyond what is expected. I dedicate myself to whatever I am working on to be productive and effective. If I am at home, no, I will not consume myself in coding when I could be spending precious time with my family and friends or with myself away from technology.

Tomorrow I have a phone interview. I initially thought it was a technical interview, but knowing that it’s only half an hour long, it may be a social interview. Hopefully the company doesn’t shoot me down right away. I am anxious and tired and hopeful yet prepared for whatever happens.

Thank you @ucsbcab for changing my life. I owe my immense growth and gained confidence to CAB. ❤️ Get up. Get out. Volunteer! #fouryearslater #volunteering #ASUCSB

Great run with great people <3 Last undie run thanks to Students Against Sweatshops!! Pizza funded by #ucsbcab #undierun #undierun2015 #seniorgoals (at Storke Plaza)

Final quarter of finals. Time to spread some love and energy. #procrastination #marshmoreos #dattebayo

@ucsbcab So out of my mind happy. I've never gotten an award in college and now I have two BOTH in senior yr spring qtr in the only week I'm in SF??? PC: James #ASUCSB #seniorgoals #stacygoals #ucsbcab