congrats to them for staying true to form I guess ☹️

inside me there are two wolves

I know a lot of people were sad that Yaz just walked away and there was no kiss etc but I think it was fundamentally a good ending for them and for Yaz.

The Doctor has learnt from experience that they will keep on going in whatever form (the timeless child story has made that even more underlined) but unfortunately, their human companions cannot. In terms of romance, 10 learnt the hard way with Rose. 11 learnt what it was like to loose family in Amy and Rory and 12 lost a soul mate in Clara. In twelves case he lost her despite how desperately he tried to cling onto her, going to the absolute extremes.

13 has shown that she has learnt those lessons. She has clearly learnt not to cling onto those relationships, as demonstrated by the exits of Ryan, Graham and Dan. In Yaz's case, she had fallen for her companion and knows the feelings were reciprocated. In fact, she even subtly admitted to those feelings in Legends of the Sea Devils. However, having learnt the lessons of the past, she asked Yaz to go on as they were and not make that step into a romantic relationship.

Yaz could do nothing but agree to this, but it was clear in the Legend of the Sea Devils that she still didn't 100% understand why. This is were Yaz meeting Ace and Tegen was important to what was to come. The Doctor evolves and regenerates, and perhaps more quickly than Yaz had realised. In Ace and Tegan you have two former companions, with an age difference but not a vast one, who clearly know the Doctor as different regenerations. Having Ace there highlights it quicker because she of course refers to the Doctor as 'Professor'. Yaz already knows the Doctor was a Scotsman in the last regeneration.

The key line was when Yaz said 'where is my Doctor?'. Not THE Doctor. Not THE REAL DOCTOR. My Doctor. Going through a regeneration with the Doctor is hard enough for a companion even when they are just the Doctor's friend. Yaz doesn't feel like that about the Doctor, she is in love with her. She is in love with her mannerisms and her personality. No doubt, she is also physically attracted to her too. It's not just as simple as getting used to a new character to go off galavanting with. Yaz tried to save the woman she loved but despite everything she failed. She saved the Doctor, but not her Doctor. It was poignant that Yaz, having seen regeneration energy before (and now a forced regeneration), was the first to realise what was going on. Instead of panic or histrionics there was just a sad realisation that it was over.

The Doctor knows this and feels for Yaz in return. Imagine regenerating and looking at the person you have come to love, only for them to look back at you like you are a stranger? The Doctor knows that everything has its time and place. Yaz has been with her since she first regenerated until her final moments. She is Yaz's Doctor, but Yaz has been her consistent companion. It made sense for her to go onto her next journey alone and it made sense for Yaz to step away and remember her as 13, but in the knowledge that the Doctor is safe and will go on. The Doctor singled out the fact that she had loved her time with Yaz in their final quite moments together. In the end, it was all very mature from both of them.

Now, if you are a Yaz fan, take heart. There is rumour abound that RTD would like to make an extended Doctor Who world (mini marvel style). If this was to happen, expect to see a revival of Torchwood and its very feasible that an Agents of Sheild style UNIT series will be considered. What did Kate say in the support group? She might try and recruit them! It's very possible that we may see Yaz again and other companions. We may even see an old Doctor or two...

Aziraphale: *defies God's will and gives away his Holy Weapon to protect 2 humans who God Herself literally just cast out of paradise* *has unwavering faith in a demon's kindness* *lies an archangel in the face* *saves Crowley's life* *is ready to fight Satan himself with basically a Stick* *protects the one person in the universe who has probably mistreated him the most at extreme risk to his own life* *ready to fight 71 demons with a candle holder to protect 2 humans and said person who mistreated him all his existence* *gives up literally everything he loves the most in the world for the slim chance that he might make a dent in a system that brings nothing but suffering hoping to make the world a better place for everyone in it*

People out there (nowhere near me, luckily for everyone involved): *talk shit about Aziraphale*

Me: What the FUCK

David Tennant really said if we're gonna do nepotism then he better be the cuntiest gayest messiest bitch in 6000 BC right next to his grandfather and Ty went BET

Today’s Good Omens posting is about *spins wheel*

how Crowley’s self-loathing colors the way he sees Aziraphale’s interactions with him and how we should take that negative bias into account

I’m not even gonna talk about the whole final scene/misunderstanding because we’ve all talked about that one by now. Instead I want to talk about Crowley’s description of the 3 reasons Aziraphale calls him:

(Paraphrasing) “you’re bored; you need to tell someone about something clever you did; something’s wrong”

this is a succinct breakdown and it lowkey paints Aziraphale in a bad light; Aziraphale only calls Crowley when it’s beneficial to him; this is a transactional relationship

but like, I think, to some degree, those 3 reasons are simply the only reasons Crowley can actually imagine Aziraphale being interested in talking to him. The last one is a common song and dance between them, sure, but what about the first 2?

Aziraphale calling out of the blue, rambling about how things have been slow and quiet in the neighborhood of late and wanting to take that time to catch up - Crowley can’t fathom ‘Aziraphale missed my voice and wanted to make sure I was doing okay’ and turns it into ‘Aziraphale is just bored obviously’

Aziraphale calling, absolutely giddy, talking a mile a minute about something clever he’s done can’t possibly be ‘I’m the first person he wants to share his victories with, the person whose opinion matters the most to him now and always’ so instead it’s ‘Aziraphale just needed someone to tell this to before he popped’

(There’s an interesting thing implied here as well, which is that it’s Aziraphale calling Crowley regularly and yet we talk about how Aziraphale isn’t taking initiative in the relationship but I digress)

Point is, I think Crowley knows that Aziraphale likes him, it’s part of what makes everything so heartbreaking - the way he ends up being rejected in spite of that - but just like I think he misunderstands Aziraphale’s heaven proposal because he can’t see that Aziraphale thinks he is better than heaven already, he misunderstands any reason Aziraphale would possibly reach out to him as some level of wanting something rather than… just wanting to talk to him. He doesn’t recognize that he is Enough for Aziraphale, no strings or acts of service attached.

We just need one amazing kiss conversation to set this straight

Good Omens 2 + Text Posts

"He is not a very good demon. He's good at sort of snarl and the swagger and pretending that he's terribly cynical, but actually his problem is that he's a bit too...too much heart, really." - DAVID TENNANT

We just need Nina to do the love thing with Maggie. One fabulous kiss and we're good. I have a plan.

Aziraphale’s Choice, the Job Connection, and Michael Sheen’s Morality

I’ve had time to process Aziraphale’s choice at the end of Season 2. And I think only blaming the religious trauma misses something important in Aziraphale’s character. I think what happened was also Aziraphale’s own conscious choice––as a growth from his trauma, in fact. Hear me out.

Since November 2022 I’ve been haunted by something Michael Sheen said at the MCM London Comic Con. At the Q&A, someone asked him about which fantasy creature he enjoyed playing most and Michael (bless him, truly) veered on a tangent about angels and goodness and how, specifically,

I was looking forward to BAMF!Aziraphale all season long, and I think that’s what we got in the end. Remember Neil said that the Job minisode was important for Aziraphale’s story. Remember how Aziraphale sat on that rock and reconciled to himself that he MUST go to Hell, because he lied and thwarted the will of God. He believed that––truly, honestly, with the faith of a child, but the bravery of a soldier.

Aziraphale, a being of love with more goodness than all of Heaven combined, believed he needed to walk through the Gates of Hell because it was the Right Thing to do. (Like Job, he didn’t understand his sin but believed he needed to sacrifice his happiness to do the Right Thing.)

That’s why we saw Aziraphale as a soldier this season: the bookshop battle, the halo. But yes, the ending as well.

Because Aziraphale never wanted to go to Heaven, and he never wanted to go there without Crowley.

But it was Crowley who taught him that he could, even SHOULD, act when his moral heart told him something was wrong. While Crowley was willing to run away and let the world burn, it was Aziraphale (in that bandstand at the end of the world) who stood his ground and said No. We can make a difference. We can save everyone.

And Aziraphale knew he could not give up the ace up his sleeve (his position as an angel) to talk to God and make them see the truth in his heart.

I was messed up by Ineffable Bureaucracy (Boxfly) getting their happy ending when our Ineffable Husbands didn’t, but I see now that them running away served to prove something to Aziraphale. (And I am fully convinced that Gabriel and Beelzebub saw the example of the Ineffables at the Not-pocalypse and took inspiration from them for choosing to ditch their respective sides)

But my point is that Aziraphale saw them, and in some ways, they looked like him and Crowley. And he saw how Gabriel, the biggest bully in Heaven, was also like him in a way (a being capable of love) and also just a child when he wasn’t influenced by the poison of Heaven. Muriel, too, wasn’t a bad person. The Metatron also seemed to have grown more flexible with his morality (from Aziraphale's perspective). Like Earth, Heaven was shades of (light?) gray.

Aziraphale is too good an angel not to believe in hope. Or forgiveness (something he’s very good at it).

Aziraphale has been scarred by Heaven all his life. But with the cracks in Heaven’s armor (cracks he and Crowley helped create), Aziraphale is seeing something else. A chance to change them. They did terrible things to him, but he is better than them, and because of Crowley, he feels ready to face them.

(Will it work? Can Heaven change, institutionally? Probably not, but I can't blame Aziraphale for trying.)

At the cafe, the Metatron said something big was coming in the Great Plan. Aziraphale knows how trapped he had felt when he didn’t have God’s ear the first time something huge happened in the Big Plan. He can’t take a chance again to risk the world by not having a foot in the door of Heaven. That’s why we saw individual human deaths (or the threat of death) so much more this season: Elspeth, Wee Morag, Job’s children, the 1940s magician. Aziraphale almost killed a child when he couldn’t get through to God, and he’s not going through that again.

“We could make a difference.” We could save everyone.

Remember what Michael Sheen said about courage and doing good––and having to “look the dark in the face to be truly good.” That’s what happened when Aziraphale was willing to go to Hell for his actions. That’s what happened when he decided he had to go to Heaven, where he had been abused and belittled and made to feel small. He decided to willingly go into the Lion’s Den, to face his abusers and his anxiety, to make them better so that they would not try to destroy the world again.

Him, just one angel. He needed Crowley to be there with him, to help him be brave, to ask the questions that Heaven needed to hear, to tell them God was wrong. Crowley is the inspiration that drives Aziraphale’s change, Crowley is the engine that fuels Aziraphale’s courage.

But then Crowley tells him that going to Heaven is stupid. That they don’t need Heaven. And he’s right. Aziraphale knows he’s right.

Aziraphale doesn’t need Heaven; Heaven needs him. They just don’t know how much they need him, or how much humanity needs him there, too. (If everyone who ran for office was corrupt, how can the system change?)

Terry Pratchett (in the Discworld book, Small Gods) is scathing of God, organized religion, and the corrupt people religion empowers, but he is sympathetic to the individual who has real, pure faith and a good heart. In fact, the everyman protagonist of Small Gods is a better person than the god he serves, and in the end, he ends up changing the church to be better, more open-minded, and more humanist than god could ever do alone.

Aziraphale is willing to go to the darkest places to do the Right Thing, and Heaven is no exception. When Crowley says that Heaven is toxic, that’s exactly why Aziraphale knows he needs to go there. “You’re exactly is different from my exactly.”

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In the aftermath of Trump's election in the US, Brexit happened in 2018. Michael Sheen felt compelled to figure out what was going on in his country after this shock. But he was living in Los Angeles with Sarah Silverman at the time, and she also wanted to become more politically active in the US.

Sheen: “I felt a responsibility to do something, but it [meant] coming back [to Britain] – which was difficult for us, because we were very important to each other. But we both acknowledge that each of us had to do what we needed to do.” In the end, they split up and Michael moved back to the UK.

Sometimes doing the Right Thing means sacrificing your own happiness. Sometimes it means going to Hell. Sometimes it means going to Heaven. Sometimes it means losing a relationship.

And that’s why what happened in the end was so difficult for Aziraphale. Because he loves Crowley desperately. He wants to be together. He wanted that kiss for thousands of years. He knows that taking command of Heaven means they would never again have to bow to the demands of a God they couldn’t understand, or run from a Hell who still came after them. They could change the rules of the game.

And he’s still going to do that. But it hurts him that he has to do that alone.

Piss off!!! Thanks!!!!!!!!!! :)))))

Michael Sheen and David Tennant React to THAT Finale Twist (TVLine)

We're at the low point of a three-part narrative. The South Downs is STILL the endgame. Let's just hang in there. ✊

we could have been… us.

the thing about good omens 2 is that i have never felt so loved by a piece of media before.

like, ofmd came fairly close, but neil literally knows us, he lives here with us and says hi in the halls and overhears us talking about what matters to us and trading theories and fantasizing about what we’d like to see. and he wrote this for us.

like, this could not more obviously be written for us. for us weird little queers who care so much about these two idiots.

every minute of this was written and crafted and performed to say we love you back. it wasn’t made to be a hip tv show or to impress or entertain anyone except us, and you can see that everyone involved had a blast in the process, because they love these characters too.

it is just so kind, cliffhanger notwithstanding. this show grabbed me by the shoulders, looked me in the eye, and said i see you and i love you too. and that is so fucking extraordinary.

thank you, neil. thank you so much.

if i had a nickel for every time a gay show gave me a gay kiss before ruining my gay life…

id have two nickels. which isn’t alot but its FUCKING DEVASTATING THAT ITS HAPPENED TWICE