family update. triggers for warning.
i might be gone for a while until i can cope with this.
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i might be gone for a while until i can cope with this.
So hello you guys, just a little explanation on why I’ve been gone for a bit. Real life while having been taken in strides I’m proud of, has also been very hard on my family of late. We’re having a bit of a family emergency right now and it’s really made it hard to write for my muses? Particularly dear Ella who is so tied to her family. If you don’t want to read the cut that’s totally fine but I’m asking you as the followers I love so dearly, please keep them in your thoughts & prayers.
“Warm,safe, home.”
This was my mother’s and I’d like to wear it when I go to the palace. It’s almost like taking her with me.
“Young, innocent and earnest.”
“Elegant, unfortunate and cruel.”
Orin (via purplebuddhaproject)
Historically Accurate Cinderella, by @shoomlah
5 Things I Have In Common With My Muse.Wow this is one of those muses where I have so much in common with them not to the degree nor level of goodness that Ella possesses but I really do connect with her !
1. Ella and I both are pretty gentle, nice people? Yet gentle does not translate to ‘weak’ and boy does Ella show that. Like I went into the movie and my goal in life and I told my Dad this, was if I could be anything or remembered for anything it was that I was ‘brave and kind’. I walk into the movie and literally the motto of the entire film is ‘have courage and be kind’. safe to say I immediately connected with Cinderella the minute she appeared and started talking to the animals and considering them people. We both have the same goal in life despite her suffering drastic circumstances and it really felt like the movie was for me (and so many others) to feel encouraged – like seeing it lived out by someone so humble and so powerful a character really hit home for me that this was my idea of true strength. I came out feeling spoken for in a lot of ways.
2. We both are extremely close to our parents/family? Like I grew up with a Father that like hers, was in business, and she’d wait tirelessly for hers to come home. It was often just my mother and my two elder sisters until they left for college and for as long as I can remember my Father was always abroad, out of the country and he’d bring me back these beautiful gifts, like dolls and blankets. I remember one birthday I refused to have my cake until ‘Daddy’ came home nor open my presents because I wanted him to be there with me. We also would do the same kind of games where you test your mind, like for ex: Ella and her Father do trivia on plays and book quotes (in the novel), and I grew up reading the classics and playing brain games with my Dad and only my Dad. He’d quiz me on the countries and names, and tell me all sorts of things and like hers, really made me feel like I was a Princess.
3. I have a horse named King Arthur, he’s a huge draft-horse like hers, half-Percheron so he would be considered that, with a long mane. In the book, the horse’s name was Galahad though for the 1950′s continuum, my Ella’s horse’s name remains Major! Although guess what was my other option among Tristan, Gawain & for Arthur? Galahad ! It was a little strange but I was delighted since I’m very fond of Arthurian legend so I like to think that’s among the many she loves to read about.
4. I tend to be very quiet and diplomatic on most things, as Ella is, as she’s shown distaste for war and conflict, both in the novel and in some deleted scenes of the film, also in the way she doesn’t condone violence with the Stag’s hunt. However when there is something that I think should be spoken up for or to speak out on something I believe to be universally wrong, I’m much like Ella in that it’s often a surprise when I do speak up. I really want to adhere to my principles and Ella lives as her best self every day so I really want to do the same? I tend not to change who I am so seeing her put to the test as she was and still being true to herself was really inspiring for me because I’d like to reach such a point in my life someday.
5. While I have by no means have suffered an experience like Ella’s, I do know what it means to suffer terribly and for a long time (again no extent as hers) and from that suffering Ella has only gained more compassion and insight to people around her. Because I would rather not treat others as I have been treated in the past I tend to put a friendly step forward regardless of a situation, or forgive as best I can when it’s not something I can fix. I am hardly a saint! But I do think that suffering while not an aesthetic or something to be ‘beautiful’ only made Ella’s heart stronger and kinder. She endured and enduring is something I’ve also done in my life because it hasn’t been an easy one! So I derive so much comfort and strength on how she handles her own challenges. She is such a fighter.
‘no cinders could hide her glow. no rags, even the shadow of tears. she was radiant, as beautiful things are, and her strength came from knowing terrible weakness. her courage came from being afraid at the cusp of loss. her kindness came from a heart meant to hold love. to give love. there is always a prince. there is always a slipper. there is always forgiveness to those who thought to scar her butterfly wings. there is always her choice in the wellspring of her own suffering —- to hate or to love. she chooses the latter. in breaking her chains of sorrow, she has for time immemorial saved herself, as surely as the moon shines bright.
this is the tale of the unconquerable dreamer.’
Don’t underestimate the lengths I’d go to
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Just to proтecт those I care about
‘no cinders could hide her glow. no rags, even the shadow of tears. she was radiant, as beautiful things are, and her strength came from knowing terrible weakness. her courage came from being afraid at the cusp of loss. her kindness came from a heart meant to hold love. to give love. there is always a prince. there is always a slipper. there is always forgiveness to those who thought to scar her butterfly wings. there is always her choice in the wellspring of her own suffering —- to hate or to love. she chooses the latter. in breaking her chains of sorrow, she has for time immemorial saved herself, as surely as the moon shines bright.
this is the tale of the unconquerable dreamer.’