omg i hope there isn't a word limit on these things otherwise i'll die but these two have been ruining my life since 2012 help me
I like to think of myself as a realistic person: I'm a k-pop fan, but unconsciously, I constantly remind myself of the almost torture these idols go through both during their trainee days (especially so for the chinese trainees) and during their 7 or whatever years in an idol group. This is their job; the more popular they are, the better. They know fanservice will make the fans go crazy about them, and bring popularity to them, so they do it all the time. And as you can see from the xiuhan tag (lol this isnt going public so i can bag them all i like), fangirls get sucked in so easily (it's hilarious to watch actually). But despite 2 years of watching ships come and float away, layhan have always been there, side by side, telling little jokes into each others' ears, throwing knowing faces to eachother across tables; standing a little ways behind the group on stage; quietly together. yixing suffers in this industry. he hurts his knees, waist, ankles, back, and he'll keep hurting himself as long as he can stand up on stage. but luhan will gently pick him up every time. apparently lu piggy-backed him all the way to hospital when dumbxing insisted on staying back till 3 am. also according to a nurse, lu spoon-fed him porridge whilst he was recovering (internally cries a bit). so it's the fact that, in this horrible industry, i know as a worrying xingmi that our yixing has a genuine best friend that is almost always a couple of meters away, that comforts me. perhaps by a common feeling of homesickness or endearment, they gravitated together, and i really hope both of them are aware of the weight of the pull. because when you look at them individually, they really do seem to be opposites. luhan is nervous in front of the camera, like a deer. he hides his feelings. he's always active, as if he's waiting for a heavenly signal to fly away at any instant. yixing is slow (except on the dancefloor (((and in bed probably)))), gets sad easily, but is as gentle and patient as a bamboo plant. they're exactly opposite eachother on the horoscope wheel (if you're into that stuff). yet they are not oil and water, or liquid unable to penetrate a bird's feathers, falling without touching. they are ying and yang, fitting together perfectly. even the north and south poles are held together by the force of gravity. there is a pull. yixing keeps luhan from flying off into nowhere, a solid anchor, and luhan keeps yixing's heart up in the clouds. they are soulmates in the most basic sense. i'm not falling into the 'ship' delusion here: their souls genuinely compliment each other, and that's the most important thing. that's why when i see them doing dumb things together, i feel a new wave of relief wash over me every time, because i think yes, good, they're still best friends. they still have each other.ohmy god i have so much to say but i need
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yes i will stop now (ill just quickly say that luhan and yixing also seem to purposely not touch eachother / do fanservice with eachother on stage because they are aware of how fans jump to the 'they're dating!!' ideology, and by not being all touchy-feely on stage they're preserving the solidity of their friendship as much as possible with each other which is really beautiful SERIOUSLY IF YOU NOTICE THE NUANCES YOU WILL SEE IT TOO)
i hope that link works im sorry, these are weibo gifs so they might be too big
just look at that gif i cant even i
IVE WATCHED THIS GIF IN SLOW MOTION AND THE INSTANT YIXING STOPS SPINNING, WATCH HOW LUHAN QUICKLY BRINGS HIS HAND OUT TO ASSIST HIM LIKE. ITS AN ABSOLUTE, AUTOMATIC REACTION. AND WHEN YIXING STOPS HE DOESN'T EVEN BOTHER TO BEGIN WALKING, THE VERY FIRST THING HE DOES IS STILL HIMSELF, AND HOLD OUT HIS LEFT HAND FOR LUHAN TO TAKE. ITS JUST UGH,THE UNDERLYING TRUST BETWEEN THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEM