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remembering we're getting a kh game theoretically next year is uhhh terrifying actually

#* I LOVED YOU IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE. / out of character

and you are atlas, with shoulders not yet broad enough / for all you are to carry. your young heart an altar / for all the suffering yet to pass. and you are icarus, with your wings of wax / flying into a setting sun. you burn / ever in death as in life. and you are achilles, with strength not enough / to protect those you love. your gentle heart / as the knife within it. you will learn this lesson young / and you will learn it quick:

THERE WAS NO HERO FREE OF SUFFERING.

#* QUICK ‚ WET BOY. / promotion #AHHHHHHHHHHHH everyone legally needs to follow silas actually

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❝ do you know how long i’ve waited for you? ❞

do you know how long i’ve waited for you , he says , as if you had not prayed for someone like him in the lonely days of your youth. with his hair like the starlight , cheeks dotted with freckles like the starry expanse above you. he is everything good & everything bright in the world , & you don’t know what you did to deserve him , but he’s here with you now & you couldn’t be more thankful.

you wonder if this what people mean when they talk about the light at the end of the tunnel . but you are not yet out of that tunnel , & yet he’s here , he’s here , he’s here & for the love of everything good in the world , everything good in you , you hope he intends to stay.

you don’t want to think about what will happen to you if he doesn’t.

‘ you didn’t have to. ’

even if you knew , even if you thought you would end up here , like this , you would not have asked him to wait. you were gone too long , missed too much , you are no different than you were then , & he is someone new entirely. you’re afraid sometimes to hold him , you’re afraid that somehow some careless , broken part of you might find him , might hurt him.

at the same time that you want to push him away , you want to keep him closer.

‘ i mean…i really hope you didn’t. ’

the words i’m not something worth waiting for linger behind your teeth , they burn when you swallow them down. he will say you are , & you will not argue with the boy made of light , who loves you in ways you didn’t think you deserved , didn’t think you could know .

it would ruin you to lose him , you think.

you don’t say it , but you love him , you love him like sunshine , love him like daffodils , love him like it’s all you can do , all you were made for. you love him like your hands weren’t made for fighting wars but for holding him , you love him like nothing inside you ever died , like nothing ever hurt you that couldn’t be fixed , you love him like it’s what you were meant for , perhaps because you think it is.

& maybe you don’t have to , maybe he knows. you hope he does , you hope he knows you love him. because , you think , loving him makes you love yourself a little bit , like maybe , just maybe , if someone like him can love someone like you , maybe you’re not so bad. maybe you’re not everything they say about you , that your heart is not soaked in pitch if it beats when he looks at you , when he smiles. that you are not so terrible down to your core if he comes home to you , that your touch doesn’t corrupt like you feared it would when you touch him.

if that’s not love , you would wonder what is.

love like this , you think when you kiss him ( because of course you’ll kiss him when he fixes his eyes on you , you don’t even wait for him to ask because he won’t , he doesn’t have to anymore , you know what that look means , if only because you want to kiss him just as much ) , is the thing people write fairytales about , the thing people fought wars for. although , you think , perhaps you did fight a war for this , but when he smiles at you , you’d fight another if you had to , or more , you would wait a thousand years if it meant you come home to him.

& you know it’d all be worth it when he kisses you again.

#* BUT WHEN HE WALKS IN ‚ I AM LOVED ‚ I AM LOVED. / EARTHWILLED.#* QUICK‚ WET BOY. / saved #i am openly weeping in the club

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#* AND AT ONCE I KNEW ‚ I WAS NOT MAGNIFICENT. / aesthetic

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the keyblade when it sees riku start using darkness:

#* OH MICKEY YOU'RE SO FINE! / crack #hahahahahaha

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i’m glad y’all kept your mouths shut about me accidentally having “riku fair” on my rules doc as if i didn’t copy paste it from my old zack blog

#* I LOVED YOU IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE. / out of character

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i am simply Thinking about the men of crisis core tbqh

#with mybig thinking brain #* I LOVED YOU IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE. / out of character

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❝ i love you. and i know you don’t feel that way about me and that’s okay i just. i wanted to get to say it at least once. ❞ @earthwilled

here !

riku has been in love with terra in some way, shape, or form, for essentially the entirety of his life.

there was the hero worship crush, the puppy crush, whatever you wanted to call it -- that was there from the beginning. he met terra and found out terra could leave the island and all he wanted was to be him. he wanted the strength he had -- so he could take care of himself, take care of sora.

and then when everything happened, when he felt his sense of self torn to pieces over and over only to be stuck back together hastily with craft glue--

well. it was a bittersweet day when terra finally came back. the battle had been hard, after all, and they’d needed him in that final fight to turn the tides.

and then sora was gone. and sure, riku had terra back, but it wasn’t the same. they’d spent more time together, though, and that hero worship had very, very quickly turned into something more. something riku didn’t even want to let himself feel, because he was worried he would push terra away.

even now with terra in front of him saying things he... well. never thought he’d hear terra say. he still can’t quite grasp that the feeling is mutual.

"this sort of changes things,” he finally says, a tiny smile that curls the corners of his lips. “i was waiting to sort of say the same thing to you.”

#joke's on you silas this one's from MAY #but i WROTE IT!!!!#earthwilled #* BUT WHEN HE WALKS IN ‚ I AM LOVED ‚ I AM LOVED. / EARTHWILLED.

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silas and i are discussing terra and riku’s various adventures in kh and i think we’re actually the funniest people on the planet

#* I LOVED YOU IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE. / out of character

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🌿 blows a kiss

there’s mistletoe in the doorway in the front. terra would know , he’s the one who put it there. christmas decorations weren’t something that was usually found in the land of departure , & neither was christmas spirit. but this was nice , it was warm in a way he hadn’t really had before , it was nice .

he’s only just walking in the door , closing it behind him when riku stops as well , & terra grins a bit to himself. he pulls riku over to him by the hand , one arm around his waist before he speaks , tilting his head up just enough to hint at the mistletoe above them.