Ty: “don't cry..” Me: ok...(Starts crying)

I knew what it'd be aboutimmediately when I opened the app before I even hit the 🔄translation button, because why else would he start a message with “울지마뤄” ᅮᅮI'm happy I decided to check texts first instead of checking Twitter bc this way I heard it from him first instead of seeing it in an article...still it made it even more said when seeing it in simple headline print..It's funny cus I had a dream where I was at a Ty concert....the power went out during Shalala and it was very dark but he kept performing and attendees kept singing along so he wouldn't feel awk about there being no music or lights other than the glow of our light sticks...and so he kept going because he didn't want us to be worried that something was wrong or sad that he couldn't perform until who knows when...so we all kinda cheered on each other. Other things happened in the dream with people I attended with but it was all bg drama and I cared more about helping everyone hype him up. Eventually the lights came back on but he finished the song without the music, just us.

Then afterwards he paused for some water, did a ment, then cued for the next song to start & the energy was as good as before the power went out! Even though I was sorta abruptly awakened I still woke up happy. Confused af, but still happy. Then when I went to see the time on my phone, I saw he'd messaged a few hours before, and I don't always open them right away (bc Depression) but even at 6:44 AM I felt like this time I really just.. should. And I'm glad I did really because even though a wall of text starting off with “Don't cry" told me this was about to be bad news before I even decided not to waste time trying to look for words I know

without help...I steeled myself and ofc didn't not cry and even though I know it was clearly about the e-word, I wanted to see a news report so I went looking for one. I'm glad I saw it from him first, because it took me a sec of scrolling before I came across one because 'randomly' seeing it on my TL would've upset me a great deal more..obviously we knew it was coming eventually in the near future but it doesn't make it feel any lighter to read of course. I'm really glad he'll be in the band & there'll even be new content from him related to his music. And I even saw an edit of him in a Navy uniform which was so nice! Seeing other tyongfs after the article from him related to his music. And I even saw an edit of him in a Navy uniform which was so nice! Seeing other tyongfs after the article made me think of my dream which my mind had pushed to the side some minutes before & it felt like the point of my dream was in front of me!