deleting the ol’ bloggo

ive been meaning to make this post for a while but tbh i knew it would be a hard/weird one to make haha. 

for all of u who have been following me for a while, you know i used to post art on here a lot. it was my reason for being on here and was so fulfilling. the way i always got noticed for my work on here was by getting involved in fandoms (as it often is for artists on the internet). i met some amazing people on here through these fandoms, people who had a huge impact on my life (even if they don’t know it). literally ive spoken to so many of you and so it wouldn’t be easy to call you all out for being great but specifically wanna say @batarangst, @mutiemenace, @bestiarivm : thank you guys. i know i havent spoken to any of you in, HOO, a long ass time but just know that you guys have helped significantly in making me feel proud of my work and comfortable with who I am.

I SUPPOSE I SHOULD CUT TO THE CHASE HERE: as per the title, im going to be deactivating this blog in the super near future. the truth is that i just don’t get on here anymore, and while i have a LOT of memories attached to this blog, i am not sure if i’ll ever be back into tumblr like i used to be and i don’t wanna give off the vibe like i will by keeping the blog around. 

the reason i got big into tumblr in the first place was because i loved posting my art on here and getting feedback from people who were so incredibly kind, even when my art Sucked (and early on, It Sucked, believe me haha). i am going to school for computer art and animation and it would be wrong to not contribute some of that to the people on here who encouraged me so much. thank you. for people who have legit been following me since i loved glee and thought i was straight: holy shit, thank you. weirdly enough you kinda witnessed my “evolution”, haha. 

i don’t really make fanart anymore, which is another reason i’m deactivating this blog. if i ever come back to tumblr, i want to be making art again for the internet yknow? but i want it to be my stuff. i want to come back with a solid original project for you guys, something i could really be proud of. my dream was always for that to be a webcomic, but with school it’s unrealistic that i’ll be able to post anything like that for a good while. if i ever end up getting around to that, i’ll hopefully grab this URL again and let some people know. if not, honestly, it was awesome hanging with you guys for the past….damn, 5 years or so.

extra thanks to @marssan, @kurzz, @nikittypaprika, and one more night vale artist whose current url i forget but the url used to be “fashiondisastercecil” FOREVER ago haha: you guys were big big art inspiration for me, and still are. im sorry that we didnt talk as much as i most likely wanted to but you guys are awesome, seriously. 

anyways! sorry this post is so long haha, but i had lots to say. 

i have a vimeo and reddit that i can give out for anyone that im mutuals with and have spoken to over the years and stuff who want to keep in touch/see what work im putting out these days. other than that,

peace out guys ✌ 

reblog if you're far away from someone and you want to hug them SO BAD.

If you’re ever asked by a straight person who is your celebrity crush but you’re not out and your brain decides to take a vacation on lesbian island and you can’t come up with the name of a single man that was ever famous just say Chris. The other person will immediately say the Chris of their choice amongst the 50 that are famous and you just agree with them.

this is so specific but.. so relevant?

The first famous Chris that I thought of was Christopher Walken

do you ever get so annoyed at everything that you start to get pissed off at even little things like a spoon clinking against a bowl or sounds of people talking  

I think it’s called sensory overload. It’s really common in people with anxiety

it can also be a result of sleep deprivation, stress, or ever dehydration !!

thanks i thought i was just a bitch

DRAG THEM NEIL

Harold, it’s tea time

we have a wall of text now

it’s a blank canvas. go write something gay on it.

this thing’s been up for like ten minutes and it fucken exploded

are yall seeing this

OMG this is beautiful =D

Some advice for aspiring animators from Rebecca Sugar:

1. Don’t shy away from finding inspiration for characters in yourself and the people you love.

“If there’s a character that you like in something else, they probably remind of you someone you know or yourself. So if you can zero in on that and then use that to make your own original character that has those qualities, but maybe even more specific to you, then do that.”

2. You can find inspiration through the things you enjoy, especially when you’re facing a creative block.

“I love to just put on music and draw, when I get stuck, sometimes I’ll do that. I like looking at art that’s not the medium of cartoons, and kind of absorbing that, and making cartoons while thinking of that.”

3. Even though it’s not the most exciting work, learn fundamentals and traditional drawing skills.

This is excellent advice Rebecca’s received from comic artists like Eric Larson, Mike Mignola, and Eric Powell.

4. And most importantly: Make. More. Stuff.

“And the ones that are working, you’ll quickly start to see like, This is what I want to do. You might not even know until you just do a lot of things, and then it will just come into focus.”

“be gay. do crimes”

Marseille, France

so straight up, I’m needing some help.

y’all know I’m a recovering addict, and damn it do I struggle with that shit every day. on top of being mentally ill and disabled, it’s been a mad struggle to get to where I am, but I’m moving along in life better than I ever thought before.

about to get a second job, and I’m working my ass off to write this book that I’m hoping will lift me out of the poverty that I’ve been living in my whole life. the thing is, right this second, I’m struggling. I got nowhere stable to live, I sleep in a different place every night, and my car is barely holding together.

I’m asking for help. y’all wanna come on here and give me shit for begging, that’s fine. those that do don’t know what it’s like to live in perpetual poverty, to be chronically homeless, to be disabled and mentally ill and fighting to work two jobs even with the pain that I am dealing with every waking second of my life.

please help me out while I’m moving along. I’m trying so hard to make things work but I need help. all I can ask for is donations. in return, I can to tarot readings, short fanfics of your ship, or editing of papers. I’m a writer and a witch and that’s what I’ve got. all I want to do is get to a safe place, a stable home, and make this book happen so I can finally have the funds to work my ass off in political activism.

bottom line: a dollar to gilted.lavendel@gmail.com is a gift. anything at all will keep gas in the car and food in my stomach. maybe I’ll be able to stop eating just a meal a deal. there’s a donate button on my blog to make things easier.

even just an encouraging messaging is nice, but please reblog this when you see it. I know there’s a lot of these posts out here, but I’m pouring out my heart and putting myself ina state of vulnerability for these posts. thank you for all that can help me get to where I need to be. life is moving forward. I just need your help.

so my squarecash is cash.me/$PhoenixGlass if you want to use that to donate to me as well. thank you so much.