Some things have to be said....

I have something on my heart again, that I want to share with you all. Some of you wont’t like to hear it, some will show me hate, but I can live with that.

As some of you might know I am not only a huge Johnny Depp fan, but also a Harry Potter nerd. I grew up reading the books and watching the movies. I also love the Fantastic Beasts movies. But what happened these days is unbelievable. As some of you might know, Johnny stepped back from his brillant role as Gelert Grindelwald in the movies. But why? Because a manipulative, sick woman accused him of things that never happend. Instead she abused and hurt him not only verbaly buy also physically. Still our society and all the companies are behind her and supporting domestic violence against men. But the fact is, that men can also be victims. Everyone who is a victim of violence should be protected, no matter witch gender, nationality or skincolor they have. Their voices should be heard. Not only Johnny Depp, but there are thousands of men out there, who can’t find the courage to step up for their rights as human beings, because of bullshit like this. How can they wait for justice if our broken society doesn’t allow them to be the victim? There is evidence that Amber violated him, but still he lost everything and she nothing. The court still blamed him. How can normal men hope for justice, sympathy or just for help, if even a person like Johnny Depp gets not a single one of these? This is not what I want to teach my children. This is not the soceity I want to leave for the next generations.

Everybody can be a victim and everyone should have the right to defent himself. But they should also be heard. I want Johnny Depp back as Grindelwald. I want Amber Heard to be fired and to be treated the same way a man would be treatened after such an abuse. I want the society to see, that this is not okay.  I want to stop this double standards. I want a world, where men can speak openly about getting abused, without fearing teasing or laughing. A world where they are taken as serious as women. A world where they are part of the ‘me too’ community. Is this too much to ask?

NO ONE SHOULD BE HURT! NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO ABUSE ANYBODY!

(Hate DM’s will be deleted immediately. I’m tired of this kind of bullshit.)

Hello there...❤️

I know long time no see 😊 I really wasn’t sure about posting this, because my last post was not very nice. Well a lot happened since then. Not only in my private life, but also with my fan heart.

I finally made my peace with the band. I can listen to the boys again without feeling pain or anger. I guess you never really stop being an Alien completely.

The main reason I am posting this is simply that I want to thank every single one of you out there. Even during my absence here you all didn’t stop sharing my work. I came back a few weeks ago, just to see how many times some of my edits were shared during this time. You all are just so amazing. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Idk if I want to reactivate this site...but seeing this makes me unbelievable happy! If you ever feel like you want to talk, don’t hesitate to DM me ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ 

Lots of Love to you all! XoXo

Let me tell you some stuff about the sumer camp 😉

Now give me just one good reason to go to this camp? And this reason better don’t include the phrase ‘But it’s Tokio Hotel.’ 🙄

The TH story.

For weeks, I’m thinking about Tokio Hotel now. Not able to find the right words to describe anything. Neither there are phrases enough to put it into words, nor enough time. I play the same scenes in my head again and again, trying to understand what happened.

At first there was anger, than sadness and now a numb, empty feeling. As I was a teenage girl, I never thought that anything could replace this boys in my life. I was so addicted, blind and in some kind stupid. I always defended them, against the world. But now I am out of excuses for the very first time.

Maybe it’s because I am growing older with every passing day. Or I can see things clearer now.

Let me explain. It is perfectly fine to become older. Everybody changes in a lifetime over and over again. Some to the good others to the bad. Well... Tokio Hotel reached the bad side of it. At least for me.

I never was the kind of fan who licked their arses. I always tried to be polite and understanding. But I can’t do it anymore. I can perfectly understand that they grew. They are not the same little kids from Magdeburg anymore and this is a good thing. No one of us stays the same. But some stars manage to become good people. Caring, being true to their fans, honest and trustworthy. The more concerts and conventions I visited, the clearer this point became for me. It isn’t all about the money. Or the fame. It’s about the music.

And if you ask me... TH lost their faith into their own music. They try to hide it between expensive VIP upgrades, little deluxe boxes and cheap made merchandise. It’s not that they changed their style. That is perfectly fine, but do you know what I first thought as I listened to DM? I was disappointed because of the lyrics. For the first time I realised that the world of the boys wasn’t mine anymore. In the past I could identify myself with everyt single line Bill wrote.

And it became worse.

On the tour I met four cold boys. Do you know that they didn’t even talk to us during the soundcheck? It was like, we weren’t there. The barely gazed at their fans. Still I tried to go on as nothing happened. I even visited Munich, it was slightly better. For me it looks like, the boys are avoiding the contact to their own fans. I mean ofc beside the times fans pay for it. Do you ever realise that they only answer the same six questions over and over again? And that you can’t talk honestly with them? They are avoiding confrontations by making stupid jokes. In all the interviews since KOS I didn’t learn something new about them. And NO I never wanted to stalk their privacy. There is so much more beside that. I know bands, who never talk about their private life and I don’t care. I love their music and that is it. And the point ‘soon’. It’s not funny, it’s just sad and disrespectful. I know that Bill and Tom had horrible experiences with their so called fans, but it is long over now. I know that there a girls out there who would the same again, but not all of them. So they shouldn’t treat all of us like we were guilty.

The more time past, the clearer it got, that the boys only see money in their fans. The cancelled concerts, the last minute Berlin and Moscow concerts, overly expensive VIP packages and last but not least this horrible stolen idea of the summer camp and deactivating the comments on Instagram. Closing their eyes to the mistakes they made. There will be fans, who will pay thousands of Euros to see them. But for sure not me. Every time they want money they come back with new stupid ideas. I’m so tired of that, so worn out. I don’t think that this will end in a good way, as long as they don’t change.  I think they are aware of the fact, that they are losing fans. And that the whole Heidi Klum thing is for PR. Do you really believe that Tom Kaulitz, who never showed his girlfriends in public, and hides his life behind a thick wall, would live a public love like that? Ridiculous. The twins became ridiculous, desperate for attention. The G’s are at least trying to live a normal, happy life. I love Gustav more with every day, because he is the only tiny string that connects me to Tokio Hotel and the past. In him I can see the little, down-to-earth guy I fell in love with.

I don’t write all this stuff to say that I’m over with Tokio Hotel, because that won’t happen. A little piece of me will wait for them to become normal forever. But I had to get it off my chest, and there is no better place for it than my tumblr. It hurts. Feel free to message me with your thoughts. Spare me with your hate.

Just in case you missed it...

How could anybody doubt their relationship?

Just in the mood for this two I guess...

© the.gonz

Do you know what is hard about being strong?        Nobody might care to ask if you are hurt...

A few frames from this evenings FOCUS Dinner ♥ © Focus Magazine Instagram

This two... without words! This pic makes me incredible happy ♥ How Bill is looking at his brother! © Focus Magazin Instagram

So the documentary about Tokio Hotel will be part of the cologne film festival this year! Can’t wait to see it! I’m pretty sure I’ll cry! As I can’t go to cologne I hope it will be in the theaters all over Germany soon!