i’m actually hollering...
going through my messages, i just realized that i actually talked to a shit ton of ppl here...............
i legitimately talk to absolutely no one on my other tumblr now omg
but its weird bc most of yall just wanted me to update my (terrible - really why did yall ever read those) fics, or write a prompt
yall i was also so damn pressed about zayns life i really just did not let him live! and that gori bachi i really just destroyed her sometimes yeeeeeesh i was so dumb lmao i shouldve just realized moc can be colorist yt-ass-kissin trash (this is projection, i admit). so, really, to any females i disrespected (excluding yall racists), im sorry, i was ignorant and dumb, and reeeeeally up 1d’s ass.
idk why i’m even here lol i just wanted to check up again on this account
maybe say an official goodbye
yall were always so cute and loving tho, so thanks for making my time here so much fun, i really did develop my writing skills thru here and now im actually pretty damn good at it, at least according to my teachers
i started writing bc i had... so many fantasies and ideas and, when i would read, i just wanted to find plots that went along with the stories in my head, and then i realized that i could just create them... i loved having that creativity, and expanding on it. i realize i never finished a damn fic, and thats all on me bc i actually had a life outside that demanded my attention, and i realized that writing something you want to be excellent is fucking HARD, and i respect writers x97842 more because of this whole experience! but it was so much fun to just write about whatever the hell i wanted and have other people actually tell me its not trash. i also proved to myself that i have so many other doors i can open for myself, just through my own creative mind, and that feeling and confidence wouldn’t have come without this damn tumblr. so really, thank you guys for being a part of my journey.
but, i just wanted to clarify -
i don’t write fanfics anymore bc (1)not in this fandom anymore (2)im old as hell now (not really lmao, but old enough to have a lil bit of a life) and (3)i wrote about love and shit because i wanted it so badly, but now that kind of desire has grown into something else that there’s no more motivation to write like this. i still read from time to time, usually when im bored and feel horribly alone, but i don’t ever see myself returning to finish any of my stories, i’m sorry
if it helps, in UTM, she would obviously end up with zayn after working out a heeeeeell of a lot of issues. what can i say, i like happy endings where the lead gets to end up with who they love lol
anyways yall, it was a wild ride. ill never forget you guys, even tho i am damn sure yall forgot about me bc its been legit years, but im always late so, officially....
goodbye and thank you <3
love, rubina (that was never actually my name, what can i say, im paranoid whoops)
