living one life for the two of us

BUCK AND EDDIE 2x01: Under Pressure

“it was brought to me a long time ago” how long are we talking? was buck in love with eddie when he was clawing at the dirt, screaming eddie’s name until his voice was shot, collapsing in bobby’s arm sobbing in despair? or was it later? was buck in love with eddie when he watched his best friend get shot in front of him, was he in love with him when eddie told him about the will? was “because, evan. you act like you’re expendable, but you’re wrong” the closest he thought he’d ever get to eddie loving him the way he loved him? maybe later, even? breaking down eddie’s door to get to him, leaving his girlfriend behind to take care of his best friend because there’s no world where someone comes before him? maybe it was before all of that. maybe buck’s heart stopped seeing eddie in the locker room and restarted when their hands met, when eddie promised to have his back and then kept his promise. when he chose buck and kept choosing him. when he loved buck and kept loving him. really, what was buck supposed to do besides love him back?

i just think that it is so morally fucking reprehensible to actively stifle and suffocate your cast because you're scared of a bunch of fucking gay people. tbh. like i know my buddie counterparts are squealing over the realization (valid, and i don't blame you) but i'm just sitting here. seething. like. how dare you. how goddamn dare you treat your cast like this. how the hell do you have the gall to suffocate the story, mistreat the people under your charge, all because two men might touch mouths? you fucking cowards. you absolute miserable pieces of shit. i hope everyone involved in literally forcing this cast into suffocation / going rogue / whatever never finds a mattress that's comfortable for their backs ever again. be cursed with insomnia, bitch, have fun. because the idea of silencing your cast, using them as pawns to further your homophobic fucking agenda, torpedoing the one show that's making your miserable asses enough money to keep breathing is actually heinous to me. go to hell and stay there. all the love bitch <3

we should never again wonder why ryan was in pr jail btw. why, when eddie got shot, he said nothing. when eddie had a season-long ptsd arc, he said nothing. like. i know we made jokes to cope with the wtf-factor of it all but none of it was ever really that funny, and to be. completely fucking honest. the fact that we have made it to season seven with this entire original cast in tact, regardless of the absolute fucking hell they've been through behind the scenes, is a testament to their love for the show, their love for the characters, and the work environment they created amongst themselves because fox ain't SHIT and i have never been so fucking proud of people i don't even know for hanging in there and waiting until they reach a point where they can finally breathe and enjoy whatever's coming next. like. god. no wonder. no fucking wonder the energy around this season has been so beautiful and so high. i know we're several months into the abc era but genuinely and truly my deepest congratulations to ryan, oliver, jen, kenny, aisha, angela, and peter because y'all are gods strongest soldiers fr

there is actually nothing more iconic than abc snatching up 911 after fox cancelled it, only for them to immediately have buck dump his girlfriend and then give him a bisexual arc. ✨

everything about this made me fucking squeal by the way. oh my god. oh my GOD.

OLIVER STARK THE MAN THAT YOU ARE ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

Oliver's like MOM SAID IT'S MY TURN TO GO ROGUE IN AN INTERVIEW!

911onabc: Give me all the Tevan content. #911onabc

and if I said buddie was supposed to go canon after the shooting, only for them to be shut down last minute, what then. what fucking then.

this is so fucking funny. oliver stark are you aware of the fact that i am platonically in love with you

bonus:

How long have you been leaning in the other direction?

just obsessed with everything about this

Okay but staring at that gifset and rewatching the coffee scene for the (redacted) time…. I just have a lot of feelings over them….

Buck is SO nervous and fidgety while waiting for Tommy to get there.. sure, Tommy said yes to meeting him, but you can see Buck was thinking “is he just gonna turn me down again no matter what i say? Is he gonna try to protect me still thinking I’m not ready? not knowing that, yea, these new feelings are scary as hell, but I’m ready for something, something with him.”

Then like every cliche ever, he sees Tommy and all of a sudden.. he calms and smiles because he knows, he knows he’s not letting Tommy walk away without getting a second date. He’s not letting Tommy play martyr and say no for ‘bucks own good’. No, he’s not allowing that. These feelings, while scary and new, are also exhilarating and special and he’s not letting them go. He’s not giving up before they are even had a shot.

I mean the instant wave of calm and smile that goes over Bucks face once he sees Tommy? I live there now. I can’t and I won’t ever get over it.