Honey

I hadn't

tasted

love

until I had

your kiss

you taste

sweet

like honey

dripping

from my

lips

Endless

Very soon it was clear to me 

You and I were meant to be 

And I can't comprehend- 

Where you begin and I end- 

Like the horizon hugging the sea

Sanctuary

I hope that when

You're in my arms

You find refuge

From your troubles

I hope I am a haven

Where you feel safe

From judgement

I hope I am

Your sanctuary

Because that is what

You are to me

I'm Sorry

I’m sorry I hid you

When I saw stretch marks on my hips

How could I be so ashamed

Of something that meant

I was growing

I’m sorry I deprived you

Until there was almost nothing left

Why would I want to make myself

Less than what I am

I’m sorry I tried to tear you down

Like you were

A vacant building

I didn’t realize

That you’re my home

Home

Finding my way to you

Was quite strange

I had to travel many highs and lows

Through frightening places

I never thought I'd find my way out of

It was confusing

And many times I felt lost

But somehow

Through all of that

I ended up

Home

I was sad

Even when I was happy

And that was the hardest part

You were mean

Even when you were nice

And that was what hurt the most

Things were bad

Even when they were good

And that was the most fucked up thing about it

Fate is funny

Fate is honest

She is clever

And precise

Fate is patient

Fate is thoughtful

She is careful

And concise

Fate remembers everything

As long as she may live

Fate can conquer any fight

But she does not forgive

I am not something

to be had or taken

when pleased

I am mine

and I am greedy

So don't ever

try to steal

from me

again

I went through hell with you

Thinking maybe we would make it to heaven

A promised land

A safe haven

But those aren't real

And neither were we

If there's a storm

that tears me down

If there's a moment

I'm filled with doubt

If there's a time

I fall apart

If I can't shake

my heavy heart

If there's a day

I can't get through

It's all okay

if it's with

you

Tell me

If I had room for you in my arms

Tell me, would you claim it?

If I gave you a brand new feeling

Tell me, would you name it?

If I showed you hidden parts of me

Tell me, would you shame it?

If I handed you my heart

Tell me, would you tame it?

If you fell in love with me

Tell me, would you exclaim it?

The sun comes out everyday

Without ever knowing why

And birds just seem to know

Which direction they should fly

Sea turtles find the ocean

Without ever having a clue

So there's something in me saying

That I'll find my way to you

Sometimes I don't know how

We got so lost

I thought I had you mapped out

On the back of my hand

But you changed some street signs

And took a few too many wrong turns

And now

We are

So far apart

I am; I am

I am

Here

Valued

Warm

Cold

Sincere

Happy

Driven

Bold

New

Gentle

Right

Wrong

True

Lovely

Powerful

Strong

I am