mood
WHEN THE THING HAPPENS
Please love me I’m so lonely
I smoke
Not because I think it's cool, Or because I think i look edgy doing it I do it because it helps. It helps my stress and lowers my anxiety, and yes; I know it's killing me. I know it's slowly killing me, destroying my lung and wrinkling my skin and rotting my teeth. But I'm dying. And maybe you don't know, hell; maybe you just don't care. But I want to die. I'm suicidal. I look around my body, waiting to notice a new lump or start to feel pain wherever. I don't smoke because it makes me feel alive. I smoke because I know I'll die.
Halloween Asks
When the art mood strikes you @ 3 am but you got work/school in the morning and need a healthy amount of sleep
Reblog In 5 seconds for good luck
this worked last night lets go for round two
I’m off my medications
Yeah, my parents stopped paying for my medications and I NEED HELP I don’t have a therapist and without my medications I go borderline psychotic sometimes. My meds are covered by insurance but that still leaves me paying around $80 for them. I need help now more than ever, I can take from my money I currently have for helping my girlfriend out with moving, but that’s only $96. I’m seriously begging you for money. I have a redbubble, etsy, my donation box is open, I’ll paint you some canvas shoes if needed. Just please… I need my medication…
Please, guys. I’m fucking begging you.
aesthetic themed ask list
flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?
fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?
daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?
1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?
matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?
black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?
pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.
moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?
stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?
plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.
converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?
lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?
handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?
cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?
sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.
oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?
overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?
combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?
winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.
pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?
tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.
piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?
bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.
messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.
cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.
grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?
space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?
white bed sheets: what is your night time routine?
old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?
beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?
eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?
11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.
painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.
lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?
thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?
storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?
love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love.
clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?
coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?
marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?
fin.
ANYONE? IVE BEEN UP SINCE 430
i hate this fucking myth that going through a trauma makes you a better human being???? like i told a friend about how i was abused as kid and she was like ‘well yeah but didnt that make you be a kinder person?’ like no???? it fucked me up thats what it did??? stop fucking romanticizing this shit or im coming for your ass?????
Had a dream last night where I was putting on mascara before work and I got my lashes perfect. They looked like freaking fake eyelashes they were so perfect. But as I went to do the other eye the first one started to clump together so I immediately grabbed my hairspray and sprayed myself. in the eye. For perfect eyelashes.
lmaoooo
This 2016 i will:
- Realize stuff
- Realize things
*gets hit by a car*
Passerby: “ARE YOU OKAY?”
Me: “Please… I need my… phone”
*opens TUMBLR*
Me: “LMFAOOOOOOO YALL GUESS WHAT”
r.i.d (via inkskinned)
Concept: I finish school. The job I work isn’t my dream job but I enjoy doing it greatly still. It pays enough to cover everything I might need. My bills are never overdue. Money is not a thought in my head. I have a place to live. So do my dogs. It is nice and warm, I have some plants, my bookshelves are full, my sheets are always clean. There is time to read at the end of a day. I read a lot. Thinking is a good thing. I meet up with friends regularly, old and new. They love me. We make memories. I have nothing to be ashamed of. I travel a few times a year, always different places. The places I see steal my breath away. The people I meet teach me of life. They are good. There is no war. The sea calls to me and pay visit. I am independent. I am content.