The Next Chapeter - MMFD FanFic
I’ve never written a fan fic before, so be easy on me. Hope you all like it. The next chapter is almost finished. <3
Rae tugs down on the bottom of her favorite Oasis shirt, adjusts her headphones and leans back against the wall. Lost in her thoughts she’s watched two trains go bye, but can’t muster up the strength to get on one. She knows time is running out. The next train will be the last one to Stamford tonight, question is will she have the courage to get on it?
Rae doesn’t know if she will even be welcomed back home after ignoring everyone’s calls for the last five months. Yeah she sent her mom a few emails to let her know she is alive and well, but she has never responded to the replies or the relentless calls from everyone she loves. She has shut herself off from her support system at a time when she needed them the most. But for Rae, it’s what she needed to do.
Thing is, she hasn’t been ignoring them to hurt them, She’s been ignoring them because she doesn’t want to disappoint them. She doesn’t know how to tell them that she’s left Bristol. Rae knows how important college is to her Mom and Kareem. Hell, it was even really important to her at one time, or so she thought. It wasn’t until she got there and met her friend Raven that she realized that her dream wasn’t college, her dream was being strong enough to go to college. To make the choice to be alone, to venture out, to not get stuck. Thing is, being at Bristol made her feel more stuck than ever.
The train pulls into the station with a screech. My God is it 10 already? How is that even possible? Rae grabs her two bags clumsily and heads towards the doors. “It’s now or never Rae”, she mumbles quietly to herself. Although never is preferable at the moment, truth is she misses her family, her friends, her home. She hadn’t seen the gang since she left nine months ago and the longing just never quite went away. Phone calls could only fill the void so much.
After traveling to Tunisia to visit her Mom, Kareem and her little sister Jazz during the holidays, Rae started to feel even more trapped by Bristol. Kareem’s contract ended after the first of the year and her family had moved back to Stamford. They had lived with Kareem’s sister while in Tunisia, and rented out the house in Stamford while they were away. With Kareem’s job and not paying rent they managed to save enough money to open up their own business. She had not seen her mom so excited about anything in a long time. They turned their home into a cute bed and breakfast which Rae can tell was doing well by the 100£ her mom sent her last week. She was missing them more than she thought she ever could. And having not spoken to them since she left Tunisia left her feeling Rancid, especially lately.
It’s been torture listening to all their messages and the constant questions about where she was and how she was getting on. Chloe’s messages were the worst. They started out with “i miss you’s” and ended with “I hate you right now’s”. Rae doesn’t blame her. She’s missed Chloe’s first job at the printing firm, she’s missed her promotion, she’s missed her meeting Eddie, she’s missed her moving into her own flat. She has missed a lot and the regret is enough to make her want to cry.
Rae just had to prove to herself that she could handle Jack before she came clean to everyone about having left Bristol. She had to make sure that she was making the right decision before anyone could talk her out of it. She had to make sure that the decision was hers and that it didn’t belong to anyone but her. Because Jack was what she loved, what she needed and what she couldn’t wait to share with the gang.
The only person she has been able to talk to about Jack is Kester. A smile spreads across her face when she thinks about the last thing he told her as she was packing up this afternoon. “Own it Rae. Own the decision you made and be proud of Jack. Because if your friends and your family are who you say they are, they will love Jack just as much as you do. I know I already do.”
Dear God, she hoped so. Because Rae wasn’t sure what they would all think. Kester’s opinion mattered, but so did the gang’s. Especially Finn’s. Because she was coming home for good now, and the last they spoke, he wasn’t too happy with Rae.
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“I know Finn. I get that you want to come see me, but It just can’t be right now. I’ve got a lot going on.” Rae said wincing.
Truth be told she didn’t think she could see Finn again so soon after he broke her heart, or they broke each others. No matter how it happened she wasn’t ready. It was Christmas time and she was leaving in a week to visit her parents in Tunisia. She just needed to focus on that. And focus on telling them she was finished with Bristol. One semester was all she could take.
“But it’s been months, girl. You told me the night you left that we could be friends. We’ve talked on the phone every week since you left. Well, now I want to come visit my friend. I miss my friend.”
He wasn’t fighting fair. Just picturing him saying that made Rae want to reach through the tele and pull Finn’s fine ass right through.
“I miss you too Finn, I do. It’s just not a great time.”
She exhaled loudly when she hear him sigh but remain silent. Where is the sudden urge to see her coming from. They had been fine talking on the phone once a week and things have been really pleasant. There was no talk about their relationship or Finn’s kiss with Katie. They’ve just spoke about music and life and school and his Job at the auto shop. It’s been nice, but all of a sudden it isn’t enough?
“Listen, I want to see you also, but truth is, I don’t think it’s a great idea. I think it would be another step backward, Finn. You know what coming here would mean, I know you do. I don’t see you calling Izzy and begging to go see her.”, she huffed.
“Rae, why are you being a dickhead? I’d just like to come see ya is all. It’s not complicated”
“Don’t call me a dickhead, you’re the dickhead Finn Nelson”
“Oh so now I’m a dickhead for wanting to come see ya. I just wanted to talk to you about something”
“Then go ahead and talk, I’m right here listening”
Of course he would say that. NOT HAPPENING
“Look, I’ve got to go, I have class”
No she didn’t but what does he know, he can’t have memorized her schedule.
“Since when do you have class on Friday’s Rae?”
Shit maybe he did memorize it.
“Finn, truth is I’ve got a date”
It was the first thing that came to her mind, but was the farthest thing from the truth. She just had to make him stop before asking before she gave in.
Oh shit, he sounded royally pissed.
“I’ve got a date and It’s non of your business now is it?”
Two can play that game. If she decided to have a date then who was he to care. They were just friends and she had made it very clear that she was not interested in starting a new relationship with Finn“I Kissed Katie”Nelson when she was 200 miles away and unsure about her future.
“Alright girl, phone me later then”
Whew, that shut him up. She’d have to make something up later about how she was joking.
“No, wait.” he said before she could hang up.
Oh Shit, she had a feeling this was gonna be bad.
“I changed my mind, don’t phone me at all. Because while I’m sat here trying to come and visit my best friend, you are telling me you are too busy and that you don’t have the time. But, you have the time to date do ya? Fine, then I won’t take anymore of your time.”
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So yeah, the last conversation she had with Finn didn’t go too well. Never mind that she fibbed a bit about a date, just to shut him up. Funny how before leaving Stamford she could never have imagined wanting to shut Finn up. You could hardly get that boy to talk. Life had changed and it was scary and now things with Finn were messed up. He had called, no doubt to apologize, but she didn’t answer. She couldn’t. It was three weeks later and she had left school. She was living with Raven with all thought on Jack. Finn never left a message and after the tenth call, he stopped ringing. Rae didn’t know if that made her happy or sad. It just made her love Jack even more.
All thoughts off Finn were gone from her mind. Okay that was a lie. Most thought of Finn were gone. She doubted thoughts of his Peachy ass would ever leave for more than a few moments at a time. Five whole months from January to May, Jack was her main focus. She had put every single ounce of energy she had into making sure Jack was ready for the world. But before she put him out there for the world to view, she had to show him to the ones who inspired him. She had to show him to her family, her gang and her Finn.
