I'm her madly, she's my completely.

We are well. I've had many messages like this. I know I disappeared. We are doing very well. I however was not for a while. The last few years I really pushed a lot down and didn't deal with things from my mother passing, to my doubts as a parent, and so on, when we lost our second pregnancy I didn't bounce back very well. So with the support of my loving wife and mother-in-law I spent 21 days at an inpatient program really dealing with things that I had pushed aside instead of facing. I was diagnosed bi-polar and since starting a new medication regimen and continuing my therapy I am doing better than I have in years. Thank you for checking in. I'm slowly dipping my toes in the internet again. It can be such a triggering and toxic place I've not been on line much. Slowly. Wilder is doing great and is growing like a weed. He got his first big boy hair cut and I can't believe how much he is talking. Victoria is also well and I am so thankful for her support while I did what I had to do to get myself better. As for me I will be starting to give private music lessons, and have been playing around with composing. I'm not sure where I'll end up or what I'll end up doing forever but right now this is perfect for me.

End of the school year is very busy. One more week and I'm unemployed for the near future. Sorry to be AWOL, life has been a bit chaotic.

I'm glad to help and more than that I'm glad that your dad is going to help with a sit down. Good luck. Remember to keep your head about you and understand the processing a change is one thing and understandable try not to take her need to process personally. Cruelty and bigotry are not ok however and if she can't see that you have to do what is best for you. Best wishes.

Oh no. Don't lose your tits. You need those. I mean I guess need is a strong word. Just keep your body parts. I'm starting slowly. Mama needs an outlet.

If being current on lesbian TV has been added I'm screwed. Little man doesn't allow for much tv watching.

I know that feeling. Congratulations. Be good to her and she will go get you ice cream after dinner when you sprain your ankle. 

If I say I've never seen The 100, do I still get to be a lesbian?

I do follow USWNT, Krashlyn couldn't BE more canon I just don't know if I know their personalities well enough to write anything worthwhile I could try.

Got it. I know I started as a trinity blog but I am open to all kinds of pairings, tv, etc. 

I don’t think anything is “wrong” with you but there is a possibility that your loneliness is something more, perhaps an imbalance of the chemicals in your brain that may lead to you feeling isolated and depressed. It is certainly something I would try to talk to a professional about, even if it is just your regular doctor, they can help with meds or other ways to cope. 

Sometimes loneliness comes from not feeling understood or accepted take a step back and see if there is something that is weighing on you that you might not realize. If you can put your thumb on it, take steps to remedy the situation. 

I know you’ll be happy. Sometimes happy takes time. 

It’s hard, but you have to realize this is your girlfriends issue. Your girlfriend will have to deal with her in the way she feels is best. It is super annoying and upsetting for a pushy ex to pop in to the picture when you are with someone but it happens. It is touchy and hard to deal with but you either trust your girl or you don’t and if she has made it clear to the ex, then that is that. You can’t control other people and as long as it isn’t like stalking or dangerous there isn’t a lot to be done. Encourage her to be firm and clear with the ex, often when people inch back it is because they believe there is still a chance to reconcile. If your girl doesn’t want to do that, I am afraid the ex might not be wrong about that. 

Noted. I’m kicking a few things around. I’m about to have a LOT of time on my hands. 

Remember to breath. 

Watch your aim, no one likes their chin or nose getting all slobbed up. 

Watch the slob as a general rule. 

Close your eyes, it’s super freaky when you kiss someone with their eyes open. 

Don’t just jam your tongue in someones mouth and let it lay there. 

Sometimes a little nibble is nice. 

Get feed back, along the way, it can be super sexy. 

One of the hardest things about coming out is wondering what others with think, often that gets harder when instead of wondering, you now know. The thing that I want you to realize is that while you may have known this thing about yourself for a very long time, this very likely is completely new. While you’ve had the time to process the feelings you have about it and come to terms with who you are as a person, they have only had since the moment you told them. 

Give both parents the benefit of understanding that. They have to process the information, in some cases with parents that maybe aren’t as exposed to or accepting of the LGBTQ+ community this can often take a while. For many people they still see being gay as a hardship that you now have in your life. They may see it as something that will keep you from the life they imagined for you. Your mom may very will just need time, and exposure to knew ideas about what it means to be a queer person today. 

That said, the homophobic comments and barbs cannot stand. As hard as it is you should try to tackle that head on and in the moment it is said, express how it is offensive and how it makes you feel. Hopefully that will make her think twice. If dad is dealing better maybe talk to him about it, so he can be a mediator when you talk to her about it. 

I have hope that with time and a chance to process that your mother will come around and one day this will be a moment in time that she is embarrassed by and hopefully will apologize for. If that day doesn’t come, or if she really remains a toxic person in your life you have to reexamine the relationship and how you want it to look going forward. I would keep her involved in knowing what your plans are. Be honest. “Mom I don’t think I can spend time with you until you are able to talk to me with some respect and civility. I love you, but I have to look out for myself.” Sadly sometimes you just have to save yourself.