me after loosening up on the routine that keeps me functioning as a person: why am I not functioning as a person
TAYLOR SWIFT The Eras Tour - Los Angeles, CA - August 8th, 2023. Photographed by elainetantra on Instagram.
Let it be known that this tumblr user loved 1989 before Taylor’s version came out
it’s crazy how half the fandom ranks 1989 so lowly and hate on her for having “bad lyrics” etc etc when she’s literally a perfect album and taylor’s most ICONIC album (next to folklore). anyone who was a fan in 2014 remembers how 1989 totally changed the game, propelled taylor to superstardom, she was in many ways the it girl in 2014 and she completely reinvented her image… what a time
is the world really such a terrible place? yesterday i asked if oat milk was extra and the barista said yes so i said ok just regular milk then and when she gave me my chai latte she whispered “i used oat milk ;)” doesnt that make u want to live another day?
here is my life philosophy: next week there might be someone ahead of you in line at the store who’s short a quarter and you have a quarter and you can give it to them. if you weren’t there, they’d have to put something back. the week after that you could be getting lunch and the waiter might ask if you want some pancakes someone else ordered and never picked up. you could find someone’s lost cat. you could watch someone’s bag while they go to the restroom. there are so many ways you are going to touch other people’s lives and they are going to touch yours and there’s no way to know when it’s going to happen. so you have to keep living!!! i wouldn’t want to die knowing that tomorrow the barista will give me free oat milk just to be nice.
When I was 11 years old - we went to Sea World for my birthday. This was to avoid the realization I had no friends, and no one to come to a birthday party and probably because someone gave my mother free tickets at work. It was kinda a shitty day despite being at a theme park full of cute animals. There was a new roller coaster there that had just opened so we decided to go on. I was nervous. I’d never been on a roller coaster.
A group of 6 college kids were ahead of us in line and started chatting with me. Full on just having a fun conversation with someone literally going through the beginning of a very awkward middle school period. I was so shocked they wanted to talk to me. I think my mom mentioned it was my birthday. They were very nice about it. When we got on the ride they told us to go ahead of them so we could sit at the front of the car since it held 8 people.
Now the ride (called Journey to Atlantis - I believe it is sadly no longer there) started with a slow ride of beautiful visuals of dolphins and oceans and computerized images of this imaginary Atlantis before going up the hill to the beginning of the coaster, where it paused for about 30 seconds, and then the ride started. The college kids must have known there would be a pause. Maybe they’d ridden it before I’m not sure.
But as we sat there on that peak, 6 people I’ve never known, and will never know again, sang a very very lonely 11 year old happy birthday. Loudly. And with gusto. They were happy and laughing and joyful. And it made me feel less alone in the world.
I am 29 years old this year, and I still remember them. I still remember that kindness. It is so important. It doesn’t go into a vacuum. It exists beside me in my daily life. And I love the idea that I have been that person to someone else too.
It’s stunningly lovely to be human when we’re kind to each other.
OH THIS CAN’T BE LEFT IN THE NOTES
i refuse to join more social media websites. if all the ones i’m on die, i hope i can recover my teenage self’s ability to read a book a day instead
and yes I do wish literally anything other than the cw's supernatural had provided me with a lifeline during the darkest years of my life. in case you were wondering. thanks for asking yeah. no I really wish it had been like lispector or dostoyevsky or something too. yeah. so
TAYLOR SWIFT - “THE ANTI-HERO” EP (1977)
“It’s me, hi. I’m the problem. It’s me.”
i feel like i’m constantly relearning to love the world again after very painful experiences and grief but sometimes it’s as simple as stepping outside and seeing a flower with a bright yellow centre and thinking “oh, how stunning!”
ohhh my god oh my g oh gomm ohhh ghhh
yeah ive got experience in handling international relations. ive got mutuals from all over the world and they even reblog posts from me
TOP TEN TELEVISiON SHOWS (as chosen by me) 10) Queen Charlotte (2023 - ) ↳ "I will make do, and fill my days, and survive. All on my own. I will do that. But first, you have to say that you do not love me. You have to tell me that I am utterly alone in this world."
media you can't touch because you interacted with it during a really bad and dark time in your life and the entire media is coated in gross drippy bad-touch depression gunk vs media you can't touch because you interacted with it during a really good time in your life and trying to touch it zaps your brain with pangs of longing and grief for what you no longer have, fight
AMY & KARMA FAKING IT | 2.10