Did I say you can’t be sad? Feel like shit and cry for fucks sake, drinking vampire blood is a completely different story. You’re victimizing yourself right now, for your own choices that people don’t agree with. It’s shit that people broke their promises but welcome to life where promises aren’t worth shit and everyone will leave you at some point or another. Look in the mirror, you’re doing a pretty good job at making a joke out of yourself. If you could stand up and actually look at your face that is. But yeah let’s idolize the man that’s fault this is and the whole “it makes me feel better” shit. Just don’t tell Ivan you were onto some shit while working in the shop.
Like I said, it wasn’t something that developed on purpose. Welcome to life where some people have real fucking issues with that kind of shit, to the point where it terrifies them to even become friends with someone because they can envision them walking out already. I don’t give a fuck what other people think of me. They can think I’m a joke, they can think I’m a god damn trainwreck for al I care. I am done catering to other people’s expectations of me. Ivan already knows. Threatened to make sure I was never employed in this town again.