back to basics.

since the last time we spoke,

i've gone back to cutting. i was nine months clean, and now i have to start completely over. 

i don't know, i hate the feeling and the rush of emotions, but i love the end result. i love the scars and the way it appears on my body. i hate having to hide it all. i feel so proud of it, i wish it all wasn't so wrong.

it's been a long journey. the yellow are bones i've either broken intentionally or bones that I've broken from accidents/bullying circumstances.

cutting blogs

there are so many self-harm blogs out there, and they make me so sad.

i don't understand how anyone can take time out of their day and dedicate it to posting countless gifs and images of beautiful, sad young women who are slicing their skin and veins open with a sharp object. watching it even for a second makes me grab my wrists and scream.

please. i don't want you to do this to yourself. i haven't cut since december. i feel in control and capable. sometimes things get rough, but i know it will all turn out okay in the end. cutting is a very dangerous thing that almost killed me and has the capacity to take your life. when people tell you not to do it, they're telling you for your safety.

i will gladly talk to you and we can be friends and i'll help you out anytime you're down. let's do something positive together. (: send me an ask.

-desc

to all of you,

who have been with me so far during this journey,

we are entering the dark ages of body-acceptance.

and that is the remnants of pro-ana and self harm that are slowly creeping back.

you may ask me any questions, or even get mad, or even stop following me,

but i am not a perfect person, and i need to use this space to express how i feel.

i will always encourage all of you to be the very best that you can possibly be.

-desc

trying to be healthy!

i've been jogging and dancing and lightly working out and watching (most of) what i eat.

i've lost some weight!

i'm starting a new pill for my tourettes that should help me to lose weight, too.

looking to follow some NON-NUDE curvy(or any body type)/confidence blogs!

whether it's your personal photo diary, or a compilation,

i'm looking to follow blogs that inspire others to feel confident.

i'm not aiming to turn people on.

i'd love to reblog your photos of body confidence of ALL types, shapes and forms,

but i will NOT follow if you carry nudity, partial nudity, or porn.

SFW, please!

meds

i take meds that i absolutely need to be on for my life's sake that make me hungry all the time and make me gain weight, regardless of how much or how little i eat. i have to work around this and still try to be the very best i can be. 

i hope you can strive for the same. goodnight!

good morning, everyone

i'm sorry i haven't been all that active.

my parents are bullying me into losing weight, so i've been moping around and crying a lot.

i will be more active from now on,

if you would like to talk to me about anything, message me.

i will continue to promote body positivity!

always remember to be the very best YOU that YOU can be!

have a lovely morning!

-des

depression sinks in.

i haven't been posting much because i've been completely depressed.