Sardonic Squish

Sanders Sides fandom restarting the clock after the new Asides episode

OH BOY. THAT VIDEO. OH BOY!!! Me talking about it under the cut!

The moment when they knew they messed up… Creds: This video/the characters are not mine!

Have you fallen in love with me yet or do I need to post more nonsense

I deserve a dark haired lover with soft eyes and a heart full of love

Rolf Ohst

Amnesia, 2016

Oil on canvas

Look at what you did, you gave a dog an existential crisis 

THE LONG, FORLORN STARE OUT OF THE WINDOW AT THE WATER IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWED BY THE “HELP” SENT ME

Yet another reminder that faking is a conscious choice that you make.

It is not something you can do accidentally, regards of what you're talking about.

You can't accidentally fake depression, or anxiety, or bipolar disorder, or schizophrenia, or any other mental illness.

You can't accidentally fake Borderline Personality Disorder, Histrionic Personality Disorder, personality disorders.

You can't accidentally fake ADHD, autism, Tourette's Syndrome, auditory processing disorder, aphasia or any other neurodivergence

You can't accidentally fake being trans or ace-spec or aro-spec or any other LGBTQIA+ identity.

You can't accidentally fake chronic illnesses like CFS, fibromyalgia or any chronic illness.

You also can't accidentally fake being good/intelligent at something. You didn't fool your peers into reaching your position.

You can't accidentally fake trauma, PTSD/cPTSD, DID/OSDD/DDNOS or any other trauma-based disorder.

Tldr:

Faking is a conscious choice.

You cannot do it by accident.

If you are worried that you are faking, that in itself is proof that you are not.

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I’m gonna go ahead and be a film snob and talk about why this is one of my favorite shots from TOS. (I could also say that it’s one of my favorite scenes, because the entire scene actually consists of a single shot.)

We don’t see a lot of bald expressions of emotion in film and television, especially if that emotion is fear or sadness or vulnerability. Dramas will give us some tears, but they always cut a way after a few seconds because a closeup of someone crying is deeply uncomfortable and most movies and TV shows aren’t in the business of making their audiences uncomfortable. It just doesn’t sell well.

But in this scene the camera never looks away. It follows Spock as he sits down at the table, and it circles him as he cries. But there are no cuts. We don’t even get music to create some distance, make it all a little more palatable; we just hear sobs and mumbled math equations.

It’s absolutely excrutiating. It would be excruciating no matter who we were watching, because we are so unaccustomed to seeing unadulterated emotion. And then there’s the fact that it’s a man. And that it’s Spock.

Fifty years later and this is still one of the most daring filmmaking decisions I’ve ever seen on TV (I of course can’t be exactly sure who made it, but I’m assuming it was the director of the episode, Marc Daniels). This shot lasts 1 minute and 45 seconds. We’re in the middle of space and in the middle of a high-stakes episode where the crew is going crazy and the ship is going to blow up or some shit and everyone’s lives are in danger, but we pause 1 minute and 45 seconds to have an uncomfortably human moment with an alien who doesn’t even want to be human, and it’s so awful and amazing.

#this is one of the things that makes me love TOS infinitely more than AOS #because when AOS wants to show that Spock is a deeply emotional being #they make him angry #angry and violent #macho bullshit that doesnt even come close to the raw vulnerability #of Spock sobbing to himself because he never told his mother he loved her #and that was a spock whose mother was still alive!! #it is so much more meaningful to show spock weep than to show him angry #and the thing is #in this episode the virus is supposed to strip them down to their core #and at his core spock is not angry or violent #spock is a terribly vulnerable man #lost and unsure and feeling so strongly and loving so deeply that it moves him to tears THESE TAGS HOLY SHIT @galaxydorks

Logan’s room, but instead of the ceiling you can see thousands of millions of neurons connected with each other and sparkling brightly when the impulses carry the important information from one part of the brain to the other.

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Logan knows which sections belong to which side and what they probably say about their mood or current activities. If Remus’ part becomes too flared up he can pay him a visit and calm him down a little, so the insistent thoughts invading his mind become less exhausting. Sometimes they focus on just one of the thoughts working on it long enough so the other ones dissipate, forgotten.

Similar with Virgil, who still has no idea, how Logan’s able to appear at his doorstep every time the fears and cognitive distortions start to be a little bit too much. But Logan’s presence is pleasantly distracting, so who is he to complain?

If Roman’s section becomes quiet, it probably means that he’s resting, but when there’s no activity in his area for too long Logan can go to him and offer his help with brainstorming. Most of the time Roman is brimming with ideas, but needs a little encouragement to voice them and feel that they’re good enough to be worked on. The romantic part of Roman’s function is still extremely confusing to Logan, but he’s working on that.

Patton’s part is the most difficult for Logan to understand. The emotions seem to make no sense and create impulses out of nowhere. But Logan’s slowly learning, how to read between the lines and see some hidden, less obvious reasons that could have led to a given feeling. (Just like he learnt to spot tiny sparkles indicating that Patton’s about to make a pun and create a neurological connection where, logically, there should be none.)

Janus’ signal is probably the most rare out of all of them, but very intense once it appears, desperately trying to reach deeper into memory and connect less used sections, to find perfect, believable lies. Most of the time, however, it’s just a silent undercurrent, quietly overseeing others’ work and patiently noticing patterns in their behaviour for later. Logan can admire that.

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The lights of impulses are colour-coded, so when everyone is working throughout a day Logan’s entire room is flooded with the rainbow lights travelling from one part of the ceiling to the other, making connections and exchanging information over Logan’s head.

The backdrop for this show is very dark, but not entirely black. If you look closely it’s a deep shade of blue encompassing the entire thing like the depths of cosmos allowing the light to travel between separate stars and celestial bodies.

One of my favourite moments from FwSA. This moment pretty much broke me and then Virgil did a Big Bravery™ and everything was beautiful.

(From Thomas’s Twitter:  F**k it, the Sides’ workout attire using only  clothes I had in my apartment.  (Roman, Patton, Logan, and then Virgil))

Imagine if you could adopt mini crewmates once someone dies.

@galaxy-lilies 🥺🥺🥺

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you know what the w o r s t thing about adhd is? (at least i think this one is the adhd, could be one of the 429432 other things i have)

time is meaningless.

which means if i have one (1) thing that i need to do, my brain has to block the entire day out for it.

which means that even if it’s technically a “day off” if i have one (1) important obligation–even if it’s only gonna take like 2 hours out of hte day–my brain doesn’t count it as a “day off” so i don’t actually get to use it to decompress from everything else

which is how i end up going weeks or months without having a “day off” that my brain will register as such so my stress levels just keep compounding, and my energy levels keep plummeting, and it’s hell on earth is what it is