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im still not sure on deleting but maybe ill just leave this here for an archive indefinitely and see if i can rustle up anikkir or kurt and try to force my way back in??
i dunno????
i feel a bit better than i did last night tho so thats good, maybe it was just me being stupid but i still get that heavy feeling in my gut about this
gonna drink the rest of this wine and get high and cry like a little bitch some more
if any of you ever enjoyed threads with jack, anikkir, kurt, silas, any of my beebs: i recommend you save em
going to download a backup app and give it a test before i just delete them all probably
the silence is deafening and its a pretty good sign that i should just quit for good.
im such a m e s s im sitting here in my room alone crying about rp characters ive had over the years and how dear they are to me and how much i’d miss them if i deleted them but they’ve pretty much been in a coma for so long anyways and like
why are they so replaceable and forgettable bc they never will be to me and it hurts a lot
note this is NOT me crying for sympathy rp (but if u want to w/e) but honestly im just miserable and my roommate p much ditched me for the night and pretty much all my skype rp partners are Done With Rp so i just feel
really alone and kinda lost and really upset that rp isnt fun anymore bc its always ALWAYS been such a great outlet for me with such great people and idk i just wish i felt like a PART of it again instead of just watching from the sidelines while everyone has fun and the 1 to 2 threads i have running are both lost in the ether and it seems nobody’s that invested anyways
i just feel like im wasting everyone’s time. and just making myself more upset in the process...i dont know what to do and i dont know if it will even matter to anyone but me if i deleted all my blogs right now
the only reason im not yet is bc i dont wanna cry and be miserable all night
maybe im just fucking Depressed idk
i dont wanna delete bc i love my bbys and my partners but honestly im just gonna keep coming back and getting Sad again bc idk im not Squad(tm) enough or something? idk i ditch rp so often but its mostly because every time i try to come on i get miserable bc i’ll start a thread and it ALWAYS gets lost or discontinued or the other person seems way more interested in other rpers and i just feel like filler...i get so disillusioned so quick. i miss rp but it feels like rp doesnt miss me
idk idk maybe ill just archive this and come back to it when i want to cry
im actually crying and i didnt even cry when trump won what the fuck
why are my characters so dear to me
just let me kill them
i dont know if i should even bother rping anymore you guys
i really dont
i haven’t felt like my characters are worth anyones time in…well…a long time.
idk idk shoot me in the damn head why cant i just delete all my blogs and not feel so sad about it
the worst part is im feeling jack, anikkir, AND kurt right now but i feel like i would just be wasting my time trying to kick them back into gear
i’ll get some rp for like 2 seconds before my reply gets lost (ALWAYS MY REPLIES GET LOST??? WHY???) or my rp partner moves on to other people and forgets about me
i want to get to threads i owe but i feel like there’s no point bc there’s not gonna be a response anyways, the person’s already moved on.
honestly i feel like crying????
i know i go thru this all the time but idk maybe its time to put myself out of my own misery
i love yall but i’ve always felt on the fringe and maybe that’s a hint for me to just cut my losses
i dont know if i should even bother rping anymore you guys
i really dont
i haven’t felt like my characters are worth anyones time in…well…a long time.
idk idk shoot me in the damn head why cant i just delete all my blogs and not feel so sad about it
the worst part is im feeling jack, anikkir, AND kurt right now but i feel like i would just be wasting my time trying to kick them back into gear
i’ll get some rp for like 2 seconds before my reply gets lost (ALWAYS MY REPLIES GET LOST??? WHY???) or my rp partner moves on to other people and forgets about me
i want to get to threads i owe but i feel like there’s no point bc there’s not gonna be a response anyways, the person’s already moved on.
honestly i feel like crying????
i dont know if i should even bother rping anymore you guys
i really dont
i haven’t felt like my characters are worth anyones time in...well...a long time.
idk idk shoot me in the damn head why cant i just delete all my blogs and not feel so sad about it
tfw you have one thread and it’s in unreplied limbo and you stare at the “delete blog” button for a long time wondering if its worth it to keep the dream alive
tfw u also have so many ideas for new characters but this happens within the first few weeks of making new blogs so you just
dont
tfw you have one thread and it’s in unreplied limbo and you stare at the “delete blog” button for a long time wondering if its worth it to keep the dream alive
sevenhomesweknow replied to your post: omfg BIG shootout just happened down the street...
Stay safe my guy
thank, am huddled in and avoiding all association
omfg BIG shootout just happened down the street holy shit
Well cut that out, we need you
LMAO pff i dont think im really “needed” but ty
the drywallers tho, they are everywhere and i hate them
