I’m...not sure who all even remembers me anymore, but...
So, I know I’ve been away for a few months.
It all started back in November. I had a dear friend of mine pass away from her cancer. All before I got a chance to say goodbye. It was a triple blow because A) Lori was my age and someone I knew since high school, B) I never got a chance to say goodbye, and C) because I feel so guilty not being able to see her sooner.
In January, my old choir director Bob passed away. I didn’t even know he was sick. He moved while I was in high school and left my church, so I was left without a way to contact him for so long. And singing...singing was the one way I’d always been able to express myself, and for a brief moment while I was in middle or high school, I didn’t hate myself. He helped to cultivate that.
And last month, February, we lost a member of my Sunday School class due to a combination of kidney failure and heart complications. She was one of the sweetest people you could ever hope of meeting, and she always believed in me.
And just...it all has hit me pretty hard. That and my job (good news is that I’m now full-time) has been stressful the last couple of weeks because well... Let’s just say we found some monsters that should NEVER be around children...
The Carol hate I kept seeing/receiving just made me want to quit. But...well, thanks to some of the wonderful friends I have on here, I want to come back. I’ve truly missed everyone, and I hope some of you have missed me, too.
For old time’s sake, I’ll finish out the drafts I have and the replies I owed later on this week. Right now, I’ve got a couple more ooc posts I want to make, and a couple of short starters I promised. I’ll do a starter call later. Thank you to everyone who have been so patient and stuck by me. I truly love you all.