Fondness laced her smile as she shook her head, “Here I thought it was you keeping him alive.”

"I do my best, but sometimes he is just ... very determined to make it as difficult as possible."

“Of course.” And he definitely wasn’t gonna report anything about this. “I’ve been alive for 400 years and that’s the first time I’ve seen someone killed with an appetizer.”

"Clearly you need to stick around then." Food allergies were just so useful when it came to causing 'accidents'.

Red Room

Everyone talks about how Tony was tortured in Afghanistan, and Bruce survived his abusive father. Steve was in the ice for seventy years, and Bucky was under the control of Hydra for so long.

And they all always talk about them and how sad their pasts are, how strong they are for surviving that, and they have PTSD because of it.

But for some reason, Natasha’s time in the Red Room is always glossed over.

To me, that is just so weird, because yes-being kidnapped, living with an abusive parent who murdered your mother, and forever trapped somewhere and your life just slips away because of it-that must be painful, awful, and would scar your life forever. But the Red Room…that must’ve been a living hell.

Natasha’s parents died in a fire created by the Red Room when she was just a little girl-probably between the ages of 6, or 8, and then she was kidnapped and taken away to something awful. Her life was ripped away from her before she even had a chance to live it.

She lived in a place where dreams, hopes, and freewill die. Where she was chained to a bed every night with 27 other girls who were also chained to a bed.

Natasha was trained to kill, to lie, to seduce. And that doesn’t come your own choice. She was brainwashed. They implanted false memories into her head so she wouldn’t even have a choice. For years, Natasha believed she was ballerina, learning to dance; the fact that entire time she thought was learning to pirouette, she was actually learning how to slit throats. Two sets of memories, and of them never even happened. The Red Room warped Natasha’s brain.

Seduce. Natasha learned how to seduce men. I’m guessing that was exactly a simple process either. Which means she was probably raped.

If you didn’t already know this; Natasha is enhanced. A less intense version of the super soldier serum; and if you’ve seen “Captain America” you know that the process isn’t exactly a pleasant process. And she most likely didn’t just have it one time, they probably also used other ways to enhance her, like surgery. To take unnecessary things out of her, to improve performance. For example, the appendix; what if it decided to burst in the middle of a mission, that would compromise her. They made Natasha sterile; something of value has no place in her line of work. Steve was given the super soldier serum to become a better soldier, Natasha was enhanced to becoming a killing machine, she was being dehumanized.

The Red Room is not made up of nice people. Natasha trained under them, but not of her own decision. So not only did they brainwash her, enhance her, and raper her; but they beat her, too. If she failed at something, they punished her; The Red Room literally battered Natasha into submission. They trained her to be the best of the best, the best assassin, the best spy, and that means she was ever kidnapped and someone wanted to get information out of her, they would probably use less friendly measures. The Red Room didn’t want that to happen; which means only one thing, training Natasha to have a higher threshold for pain. They physically tortured her, ever since she was just a little girl.

Natasha is the only Black Widow out of 28 girls. One by one, they all died, only leaving her. She killed some of them, snapped their necks, shot them. Others may have died at the hands of the trainers. Until only a few were left, and the Red Room pitted them against each other-like the Hunger Games-until there was only one left standing. Natasha is the only Black Widow out of 28 girls.

The Red Room is one of the most horrifying things in the MCU. And yes-there are many painful pasts that exist; Bruce’s, Tony’s, Steve’s, Bucky’s. But don’t ever forget Natasha’s.

She’s a freaking warrior with one too many scars for surviving it.

BuckyNat + real places.

Richard Madden on his Instagram stories on October 31st, 2019

I wanted to share this absolute gorgeous Romanogers piece that @butternut-gouache commissioned for me. Thanks once again for the lovely piece of art.

I swear I cry everytime I look at it.

“You don’t have a story, little one. You’re simply a footnote in mine.”

Natasha Romanoff

Any chance Natasha might leave you a message, outside the internet, old-school, spy stuff? There’s some nets I can cast, I’ll find her.

Winter Soldier selfie. (2017)

I tried to draw a “Winter Soldier” version of the selfie Sebastian posted yesterday on Weibo but finally, it ended up as something quite different, particularly the face. ^^;;

Multi-verse literate RP discord server - OC and duplicate friendly - No Thanos AU            Low drama - plot-centric - villains are on the loose 

It is the year 2019. It has been three years since the Sokovia Accords were enacted, a war between the Avengers was fought, and a little over a year since the Sokovia Accords were rendered obsolete. 

In 2018, the Nexus pulsed and with it came an attack that forced the scattered Avengers to band together again. Stark and his team could not contain the villains alone, and he was forced to call in Rogers’ team to help. Differences were set aside as the civilian population was threatened. The survivors of Ragnarok on Asgard landed shortly afterwards and declared they would not submit to these Sokovia Accords. With no way short of war to stop the survivors, the accords were repealed, and New Asgard and Wakanda built embassies in New York City. 

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Due to personal reasons I will be ignoring canon completely and creating my own au

sir this is my emotional support canon divergence

the widow. the russian avenger. the slavic shadow. the red death. they have so many names for you.

So I was planning to come back on the first of December, but real life is being a dick. So... Hopefully I'll be back on Friday. Find me on disco in the meanwhile - notuptoyou#4578

Marvel Studios’ Black Widow - Official Teaser Trailer

FINALLY