I was still in denial but it had been days and I had to do something, had to take some step to push myself towards the “Move On” bridge. I dragged myself in the washroom and stood under the shower. I washed away your smell off my hoodie. Hoping eventually I would forget how you smelled. It worked. I don’t remember how you smelled anymore but only how broken I was.
Istighfar when you're mad. Istighfar when you're annoyed. Istighfar when you're sad and stress. Istighfar no matter what will happen. Istighfar.
The people I no longer speak are still a part of my life.
You’re birthday is still my password/ I still have the pendant you gave me/ I pressed your flowers into a book and bagged them/ the pen that I ‘borrowed’ from you but didn’t return still sits on my pile of stationaries (and although the ink has run out, I don’t think I’ll ever discard it )/ the birthday card you gave me when I was twelve, I have it/ I kept behind the book we passed notes in back In School/ your number is still saved in my contacts/ I’ve got a folder filled with your pictures/ there’s still a heart besides your name on Snapchat/ I think about you when I make cookies
I miss when things used to be a bit ugly…. That’s when people had so much fun… now everyone is beautiful and untouchable and boring and sterilized…. Maybe fashion was weird back in the day and no one took proper care of their skin n whatever but at least people were having fun, at least people tried to be original and weird and fun instead of just being online . Maybe Sumtimes U have 2 go out on a summer day and have so much fun that u forgot to reapply sunscreen…. Maybe that’s what life is about ! Hmm….
Ibn Uthaymin رحمه الله said:
"The test gets harder when the relief is close."
- [Sharh al-Bulugh, pg. 376]
“Promise me not to hide yourself when you’re in pain, it’s unfair that we laughed together but you cried alone”
— Unknown
Grown ups also get sad, they want hugs as well that can warm up their frizzy heart, a supportive pat on the head that they will make it, a reassuring look that they are doing great, but then why..? Why did they decide that despite all of this, they will keep everything inside, all the kindness all the care and all the sadness, they will just still keep it bottled up. Yup still don’t get it.
trust Him.
Tawhalna 3ala Allah
In'sha'Allah
We won't always understand Allah's plan but we need to trust Him completely and instead of questioning everything we need to be patient and wait for the events to unfold and In'Sha'Allah things will fall into perfection. [ Via @exascribbles ]
Sometimes when things are not going well, we loose our patience, we feel sad and depressed, anxiety takes over and we start doubting everything. While this is a very natural reaction to worries, the best time to observe patience and sabr is this one. The best time to show our faith and strength of Eman is to have sabr in the toughest of times. And In'Sha'Allah Allah will bless us with peace and recovery soon. [ Via @exascribbles ]
We worry and stress about certain scenarios while Allah is planning the best way to resolve them for us already. All we have to do is sabr and Allah pak makes the way. SubhanAllah. [via@exascribbles]
Unconsciously/Dreaming while sleeping I was ill wishing for people who have made my life hell deliberately knowing very well and also secretly wishes that they don't get accepted but that somehow Allah pak will know how hurt I am because of them. What kind of traumatic stuff is my mind on yar?
Nahi chahiye mujhe hamdardian, nai chahiye mujhe apka taras, mein udass zaroor hun per tooti nai abhi.
About 90% of young Muslims are only alive because suicide is haram in Islam.
Reposting becayse truth.
sukoon kisi khaas jagah ya aab o hawa ka mohtaaj nahi. iska rishta tehrao se hai. jo sirf tab mehsoos hota hai jab rooh dil aur deemagh se itifaaq karti hai k acha ho ya bura sab faani hai. aur jo aane wala hai woh guzre hue se behtar hai. rooh ka true north isi sachai se jura hai.
Sleep schedule pisses me off so much. Why do i have to follow a stupid timetable to wake up and go to sleep. I WANT TO SLEEP ON MY OWN TIME AND WAKE UP ON MY OWN TIME. I HATE FOLLOWING SOMEONE ELSE'S PRESCRIBED TIME. uggh.