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Bella's Artbook

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A blog to share Bella's artwork with fellow artists everywhere.
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It’s back

I CANT STOP LAUGHING

this will always be my favorite

The day I don’t reblog this is the day I have lost all sense of humour.

If i don’t reblog this assume I’m dead.

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bedjacket

My parents live in this town and the city legally can’t tear the tree down to build or anything because the tree has its own legal rights and they can’t do anything about it.

how does. how does this happen. how DID this happen

I love this story because this guy in the early 1800’s had so many great childhood memories of this tree and wanted to make sure it was protected no matter what. So he deeded the ownership of the tree to itself and everyone just went with it.

Then in 1942 this intense windstorm came and knocked the tree over. And people were bummed. But someone had saved an acorn from the original tree, so they planted that and now Son of the Tree That Owns Itself is over 50 feet tall.

And since this new tree is technically the offspring of the original tree it’s considered to have legally inherited the plot of land it’s inhabiting.

Two generations of trees owning land is amazing and if you don’t think this is the coolest thing get right out of my face.

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In light of the bullshit the xkit guy went through, I needed to get my feelings out about callout culture via a wordy comic. I am so, so tired of the culture of fear Tumblr raises - if you don’t take literally everything the underdog victim says 100% as truth, then you are horrible trash? It’s bullshit.

It’s good to believe a victim! But it’s also good to exercise a bit of scrutiny, and to make sure you understand the other side of the story. People take advantage of and manipulate the willingness to believe victims, and that leads to a lot of misinformation spread at lightning speed with social media. Caution absolutely needs to be undertaken when serious claims are presented. Do you really want to be responsible for ruining someone’s life before you couldn’t take half a fucking second to try to verify the information? Verifying it doesn’t automatically mean you’re taking the side of a potential abuser! It means that you care about the truth - which, to me at least, is pretty important. 

When callouts happen, especially ones made in spite, what people rely on is for the subject of the callout to be ostracized and for people to revoke their support. That was explicitly asked for in my case.  In the community of artists I have worked so hard to make myself known in, well-known artists encouraged people to not even talk to me, to not ask “what the fuck is the deal with this huge callout, can you actually explain this or what’s going on”. They encouraged accepting it without question, and if you didn’t? You’d be picked off next, as an “abuse apologist” - because that’s it, isn’t it? Once you got half the story, that’s all you need on Tumblr if it sounds bad enough. Even better if it’s about someone “popular”.

Instantly, the subject of the callout is dehumanized, and people treat it like it’s A-OK to send tons of horrible messages in the person’s inbox, to spread the gossip as far as they can– because it’s deserved, right?

And once people breach that threshold, there’s not often any coming back. People don’t often apologize for being a piece of shit to someone they think deserves it. Which, you know, means they don’t actually want to find out what might have really happened in a situation where they’ve already made some very polarizing statements.  Because then they’d have attacked a person who didn’t deserve that, and that’s… why, that’s abusive, isn’t it? But it’s definitely not abusive if the person deserves it. (That’s sarcasm.)

I’m just tired of seeing it. I’m tired of existing around people who do this. I’m tired of moderately known artists abusing their own power and their own audience for the sake of making their followers too afraid to try to think for themselves. A question like “was there actually any abuse?” becomes unthinkable, and so a bunch of young people suddenly are finding themselves encouraged to not rock the boat. Or they’ll be next.

It’s all fucked up. Sometimes I’m kind of bad at communicating, but I try very hard. Sometimes it takes me a while to get a message across. I’d like to think I try as hard as most people at being a good friend and a good person. I like learning ways in which I can do better, as a friend, and as a person. I expect a lot of others around me because I expect even more of myself.

So it killed a lot off inside of me that’s taken months to cultivate again, months ago. Artists I admired, people I was friends with - in an instant, they decided the thing to do was go “yep this must be true, sounds horrifying and once I had a bad vibe”. Very few people actually asked me about what happened. A lot of people were too scared to even say anything because they didn’t want to be labeled a fucking abuse apologist.

And that’s pretty fucked up. This is why callouts are not to be thrown around, especially with regards to abuse. I was so angry about it at the time because I had tried so hard to be as supportive as I could during that relationship. You can ask the other two people who I’m still dating about how much I cared about that person. They were around every step of the way, through all of my happiness and sadness over the situation. My big fucking mistake was venting in a public place about all of my feelings to do with the breakup. That was my huge “communication error”, but I couldn’t even talk to my ex at that point anyway because I’d been blocked, so I had no way of communicating it to him. Regardless, writing post-breakup feelings, no matter how true I find them still, is a really bad idea to stick anywhere public. Even on my side blog I didn’t realize anyone read.

I don’t know. Finally I feel strong enough as a person to talk about this. I’m so tired of people hiding behind anon to spread the same tired “PK is an abuser” line - heaven fucking forbid they attach their words to a name that can be held accountable for its actions.

I don’t really know what more can be expected of me than I already give. I am pretty blunt and literal and I like being that way because it means I’m putting all of my feelings out there - so what’s really hard for me to deal with is people reading my words with insincerity. Please don’t - nothing riles me up more than insincerity.

Anyway, for the sake of everyone in the future, don’t fucking mash reblog on a post calling someone out without putting time and effort into research. Seriously. It takes literal seconds to start the snowball of ruining someone’s life, so please hold back from an instant reblog.

Please don’t rebuke people for trying to figure out the truth of a situation, either. It’s always a good thing to get both sides of a story. Sometimes you’ll find that the other half of the story only confirms what you originally thought, but sometimes you’ll find you would have been acting like a complete fucking jackass if it had been wrong.

Please be kind to others.

This is all stuff that pretty much echoes what I’ve been thinking for a little over a year now, after I was fortunately able to catch wind that someone was planning to write a callout post (about a 1.5 year-old situation) on me, and had already been spreading stuff to people in my social circle. 

The post ended up being 90% bullshit i could refute with logs and 10% stuff I already apologized for or was told wasn’t a problem before. The icing on the cake was they literally called me an abuser despite us making amends 3-4 months earlier and them telling me nothing that happened between us was abuse. The callout post itself wasnt even the worst part. What happened in my social circle the night before was even more fucked up.

The whole fiasco started when I checked twitter to find the person telling their followers to ask them about shit I supposedly did to them (apparently having forgot to block me before doing so), and that they talked to someone who shared a lot of mutual friends with me about it. I logged onto skype to see if I could find out what was going on, only to find at least 8 or so contacts had already blocked or removed me, and one of them had kindly left me a message saying “scum” before taking their leave. Most of them had already blocked me on twitter too, so literally all I could do was reach out to people who hadn’t fucking cut me off yet, hope they didnt immediately block me upon being reminded that they hadn’t yet, and try to find out what was going on. (Keep in mind that this person and I had made amends already and they told me nothing I did was abusive, so I had no idea what they could have been saying about me)

The fucked up thing is, I had to dig to even find out what sort of shit was being said about me. People were removing any way i had to contact them without even saying a word to me. They were actively trying to keep me out of the loop so I couldn’t defend myself. Either they didnt want to give an “abuser” a chance to convince them they were innocent, or they felt like even talking to me to get both sides of the story would make them an Abuse Apologist™ in the eyes of their friends. 

And once someone frames you as a bad person, you constantly doubt yourself, like every action you take is under scrutiny and could potentially be used as “proof” that you’re bad. I felt guilty as hell just talking to people who hadn’t blocked me yet, like I was overstepping comfort lines when I was just trying to find out what was going ON. When I saw this person tweet that they were planning to write a callout post the next day, all I could think of to do was defend myself as best i could on my public twitter. And even THEN people used “you went public about it first” (no?) or “you tried to silence them” (???) as testament that Buyo Is Bad.

And y’know, I was one of those people who was like “why would anyone lie about that stuff” until it happened to me. But I can’t confidently say that they LIED, since from what i could tell, they firmly believed what they were saying. Like, I was accused of doing things to them during a time where neither of us were even in contact with each other. I try not to assume the worst of people so all I could say was that they were telling THEIR truth, but it was a truth that didn’t match up with what I experienced, or any evidence I had of what happened.

There are a lot of parallels between mine and PK’s experiences, and the only thing I can really chalk it up to is like, an unfortunate series of events: Two people have a miscommunication, they get hurt, they part ways without closure, one person keeps having the wound poked and it hurts more and more, they revisit memories of the situation and settle for versions of events that would rationalize the increased hurt, they dont revisit old logs w/ the person out of fear of more hurt, eventually the wound is worse off than it was to begin with, and the person’s memories of the original situation have been altered due to a combination of an increase in sore feelings due to a lack of closure, and not consulting logs

And then they learn they can just type up a post and tell the world about how hurt they were by the other person. And someone hurting you automatically constitutes abuse, right? So that makes you a victim and them an abuser. Like, not only is callout culture harmful because it can ruin someone’s life when it doesn’t need to be, but discussion on when a callout post is ok, or on what actually constitutes abuse, is actively discouraged. So people think a weekend of bad communication is someone being inherently abusive, and that a callout post over a year later with no discussion beforehand is the correct course of action. PLEASE just talk about problems you have and dont bottle it up cuz it ain’t healthy, and shit like this isn’t good for anybody.

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trackgirlno1

this is so important stop making girls feel like they have to look like a model to work out????? that is so stupid it makes no sense but it’s so harmful u go girl no matter what u look like

Wow I needed to see this

I loveee this!

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i feel bad for people who use sai but dont know about stabilizer, transparent brushes and clipping groups

this is where you find stabilizer:

i personally prefer to use S-4 for default drawing and S-7 when i need to draw really long smooth lines. this is what it does:

this is where you find transparent brush:

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when you enable it, you can use your currently selected brush as eraser. this is what it does:

this is where you find clipping group:

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you have to have at least two layers, the base layer and the one for the colors. when you draw on the layer with little red bar on side, the stuff you put on the layer appears only on top of the things you have on the base layer. the effect is p much same as preserving opacity except you dont change anything about the base layer and you can still use layer textures and effects. this is what it does:

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THIS IS PERFECT, THANK YOU FOR TAGGING ME IN THIS

seriously, I just clicked on the kitten cam and two were play fighting xD just do it ok!

EDIT: THE PUPPIES ARE LAYING ON EACH OTHER SLEEPING

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