DALL·E 2022-10-04 - “painting of native american folklore legend deerwoman standing on the side of an quiet oklahoma road in the middle of the night”
i follow tumblr on twitter now and was curious what was going on over here. it’s been almost 5 years since i posted anything. i’m 34 and life is moving fast. here are the tabs i currently have open right now
- todoist (to do list app)
- google calendar
- gmail
- tumblr
- dall-e
- google sheets
if you see this post, will you let me know? i’d just like a headcount of who’s still roaming around this wasteland
I popped out of bed this morning and managed a SHOWER (usually an evening task) and just felt completely rested and alive for the first time in a while. We have been so busy lately. We took a trip to Boston last week, this week featured a 24 overnight jaunt to Fayetteville to see I’m With Her, and basically every spare minute has been spent on the Zillow app or touring homes with our realtor. Meanwhile I’m trying to stay as active as possible on Poshmark because I’ve seen a lot of success recently, but the engagement required to be successful is not just overwhelming but also just annoys me because it seems like the payoff for activity comes from Poshmark’s algorithm deeming me active enough to warrant sales, rather than my activity actually creating the sales itself if that makes sense? In some ways I love the app and I like the community around it but I’m also annoyed by it half the time and that feels like a poor expense of energy right now. So, while I focus on this house hunt, the side hustle is taking a backseat.
I’m like two weeks away from my trip to Hawaii too. And then a week after that I’m doing a weekend trip to Denver. I’m very excited for both of these things but also I always struggle when I have more Big Plans on the horizon than I do easy weekends to relax and recharge. Which is dumb!! Hawaii will 100% be a recharge and not at all a stressful go go go type of trip. But I know it’s likely that I will FEEL stressed just because of having body and people seeing it and all that jazz.
On the bright side— we have started using our Y membership! We went to a yoga class on a Saturday MORNING which is basically me living my very best life. And last night we went and just did a 45 minute cardio workout. Alex’s acid reflux has been bothering him more and he’s wanting to try changing his diet and exercise to see if that helps rather than staying on multiple medications that are also hard on the bod. I’m 100% supportive of this approach and also grateful to have a reason outside of myself to go to the gym and eat more healthily.
I guess this is just a little Thursday morning brain dump. I felt so light and free and rested this morning that I sort of wanted to put all of my thoughts and worries down and just walk away from them and keep floating around today with this positive energy. Bye!
today i
- figured out a bunch of stuff at work i had been stuck on
- tried a new face mask that looks like liquid pearls and i am INTO IT
- ordered 2 jumpsuits (in TALLS!!!!), overall shorts, a swim coverup, and a night shirt. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let just ONE of the jumpsuits fit and suit me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- ate italian food with my fam
- finished my third day of the 30 minute method with my poshmark stuff and saw a lot of success from it! 8 sales in 72 hours! excited to jump into the analytics of this whole thing!
- did 3 loads of laundry
- procrastinated on packing for my boston trip
- felt proud of oklahoma teachers and most of her entire facebook feed for also supporting those teachers
- sat beside alex while he filed our taxes just under the deadline
- had a doctor appointment to discuss my labwork and how the last 30 days on phentermine have been going for me. i wanted to skip because i’ve done horribly at eating well and exercising this past month even though i’ve been taking the medication, and i was embarrassed and scared i’d actually gained weight. but i went because i paid for the labwork and felt i should at least make sure that everything else was in order. so i showed up and they weighed me right off the bat and i was miraculously down four lbs. nothing to faint over, but certainly better than the news i thought i was getting! i talked to my doc about my general apathy and lack of motivation where everything is concerned. i’ve felt sort of blue lately, not really ~depressed~ but just so tired of feeling negatively about my body and also weirdly physically tired as well. when she went over my labwork, she had a lot to point out that could be factoring in to my lack of energy, difficulty losing weight and being motivated, etc. she added 3 new prescriptions and 2 new supplements to my daily regiment which puts me at a whopping 11 pills per day! it’s all relatively benign, though it did freak me out that some of the paperwork she gave me was for a medication mostly used to treat pre-diabetics. she reassured me that i was not pre-diabetic, but that i am seeming to be insulin resistant right now. sorry this is all tmi. i’m sorting it out and also no one is on tumblr anymore, right? anyway. i’m glad i went to this appointment. i feel ready to try again, try harder, try at all i guess. it feels a little less like i’ve failed again and more like now i have more of the tools i need to succeed.
- stayed up too late BAHHHHHH GOODNIGHT
Three years ago today I was nervous about going on my first date with a cute guy I knew from college. This day last year I was running around okc on a travel themed scavenger hunt that ended in me accepting a proposal (and a really pretty diamond ring). Today, I kissed my husband goodbye from the security gate at the airport as I got ready to board a flight for my first ever business trip.
Life just keeps going and amazing me in all the best ways. I am so very happy and grateful.
Movies I Saw in Theaters 2017
- Hidden Figures
- Moonlight
- Fences
- Manchester by the Sea
- Lion
- Split
- Get Out
- Logan
- Beauty & the Beast
- Guardians of the Galaxy 2
- Your Name
- Wonder Woman
- The Beguiled
- Baby Driver
- Dunkirk
- Alien: Covenant
- The Big Sick
- Spider-Man
- Annabelle: Creation
- Step
- Logan Lucky
- It
- Thor: Raganrok
- The Disaster Artist
- Star Wars: The Last Jedi
I stayed home sick today because I was up most of the night with a migraine. Alex and I fell asleep with the tv on (which I never let happen because it always makes me sleep weird) and the screen was completely black except for the word ROKU bouncing around as a little screensaver. I felt like the light from the word ROKU was burning holes through my eyelids. It was maybe the worst headache I’ve ever had. I get headaches a lot, and they can be pretty bad, but I rarely have true migraines with sensitivity to light and the such. Anyway, it was awful and finally after pounding some actual migraine medicine with a triple dose of ibuprofen I was able to get some sleep about 8am.
When I woke up around 11 the light sensitivity was gone and I was left with the full headache I’ve grown pretty accustomed to. So I got around and showered and started laundry and decided to try and get what I could out of the day. I’m now waiting at the social security office to change my name. When I got here 30 minutes ago I was given the number N366 and told to wait. The most recent number to be called is N328. I would love to put my headphones in and get some Outlander in, but they call the numbers over a loudspeaker so that’s a no go. I doubt my 79% battery will outlast this line.
I guess I’m grateful because this is definitely only the 2nd worst circumstance I’ve dealt with today so #blessed?
#i am so frustrated with the process of changing my name#like i really can’t believe it’s 2018 and anything is this hard#i’m actually happy to take alex’s name#which i wasn’t sure about originally#but after deciding to keep my last name as a middle name#i’m 100% good with it#i just hate this procees A LOT
Alex got sick in the middle of the night last night. He jumped out of bed at 2am and was throwing up for about an hour while I sat up in bed listening intently. I always want to crawl into the bathroom with him and like rub his back or comfort him (like my mom always did for me) but I think he prefers to puke his guts out with a little privacy. So I dutifully sit in bed listening to make sure he makes some sort of noise every now and then and trying to diagnose him with only his snorts and heaves as clues to his symptoms.
After much curious water running in the sink (which I found out was because part of the time he was forced to throw up there rather than the toilet) he emerges and I ask what all that was about. After such a long disappearance I expect him to be running a fever and feeling awful but he is in good spirits. He says he feels mostly better and wonders if something he ate messed him up. He extends his arm offering me my favorite spot nestled on his chest which is a great indicator to me that he’s ok (when his stomach is really bothering him, his entire body is a no-fly zone). We try to go back to sleep but are both aware of each other’s struggle and eventually just start talking. I ask if he’d like to watch something considering I nixed the idea at 10:30 last night when I was too sleepy. He says sure and we decide to just turn on the tv and see what our ABC pals were up to. The news at 3am is very funny, even the national news. It’s clearly the third string achors and reporters and we had fun roasting everyone.
After seeing a trailer for The Post, Alex asks me if I’m familiar with Carly Rae Jepsen’s “I Really Like You” which somehow I wasn’t. Alex tells me that he saw the music video for this song for the first time yesterday and asked if I wanted to see it. I did. So we watched the music video featuring Tom Hanks and the. We watched the behind the scenes video and then we talked about how great the whole thing was. I don’t know how I had never heard of this gem, but I’m glad that I finally got to experience it in the middle of the night last night with my favorite puking guy.