it's Beautiful, It's Bittersweet.
Chapter 3
•Pairing: Captain of the football Team! Park Jongseong × fem! Reader / High school crush! Park Jongseong × fem! reader ft. Jake and Sunghoon.
•Genre/Theme: College/ University AU, Lots of Angst, smut, non-con, Dark, a bit of fluff.
•Warnings: A lot of Angst, (TW) sexual harassment, (TW) depression, anxiety. Jay is the reader's crush since high school. The reader has and will be going through a lot of dark stuff in this fanfic. Use of foul language. Will be mentioning warnings in every chapter.
•Chapter Warnings: (TW) Sexual abuse, harassment, use of the word "sweetheart" and "babe", consumption of alcohol, smoking weed, usage of drugs. Filming without consent, crying, lots of dark stuff, very very little fluff, mention of high school boyfriend, Foul language. Please Let me know if I missed anything.
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•A/n: Hey guys! Thank you so much for the positive response on chapters 1 and 2, I'm so sorry chapter 3 took so long to write. I legit sat for 6 hours and wrote this for y'all.
This chapter contains 18+ content, and it's extremely triggering for some viewers. If you find the mentioned warnings triggering, please do not read this chapter. I am sorry if I have offended anyone. This story is purely fictional and meant for entertainment purposes only. Names and characters used in this story are fictitious as well. Thank you so much for being so patient and waiting for chapter 3, here it finally is ^^
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It's been a week since Sunghoon's party, your first kiss with the love of your life, and the hurtful words he said about you after.
Your hands shook, and your heartbeat erratically. Why would Jay look at you like you were the one for him, and then push you to a corner?
Was he embarrassed by you?
What seemed like mere words, felt like a hole in your heart. You couldn't fight the darkness in you, not after what Jay said.
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You hung out with Nessa and Jake and the rest of her friends, much to your despair as you were a part of Jay's friend's circle.
You would often catch Jay staring at you, and look away immediately when you did so.
Apart from all of this, it would always break your heart to watch Sunghoon try so hard to make you like him.
"Y/n! Let's go for a movie tonight!” Sunghoon shrieks.
You bite your lips. "Oh, I'm sorry Sunghoon I am working on this thesis, and today is the deadline, so I have a lot of work."
His smile drops for a second but he smiles again. "Oh that's okay, we can go next time. Whenever you're free y/n, there's no rush. He reassured, holding your hand.
You smiled. Sunghoon was such a gentleman. He would do anything to make you happy. But you were in love with Jay- The cockiest person in the University, and it was like dancing with the devil.
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Tears flood your eyes every night wondering if Jay ever even slightly liked you, or will ever like you. You did not want Jay to know he hurt you. You did not want to make him feel guilty.
You also hated the fact that even after he hurt you, you were still thinking about his happiness.
Your eyes hurt from all the crying but you didn't care. What could you even do? Confess to Jay about your feelings so he could reject you?
So he could show you how cold his heart was, and that your feelings meant nothing to him?
You did not lie to Sunghoon though, you did have a thesis submission deadline, and your grades depended on it. Which was why you were rejecting him for the fifth time this week with an actual, genuine reason.
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It was almost 9 pm and you were finally done with your thesis submission.
"Right on time." you coo happily as you send the email to your mentor.
You packed all your things and decided to get some good food as you finally got a huge weight off of your shoulders. You felt relaxed in weeks. Also, you hadn't eaten much since last week's incident where Jay fucked up your self-esteem. You could see the football grounds lights still on, so you knew Jay and the rest of the guys are still on campus but you chose not to go and meet them, instead, you quietly scooted home.
You could not find any restaurants on the way home, so you just decided you'd get some ramen to go and make it at home.
The town is quiet, empty with the Street lights casting shadows.
In doorways and windows Curtains were drawn, people sleeping.
There is not a soul to be seen or heard.
Your breaths start to get uneven, as you have a Deja vu.
Four men, a secluded place, tears rushing down your eyes, cuts, and bruises, excruciating pain.
"Hey sweetheart are you lost?." a manly voice addresses you.
You look back, your eyes widen, your breaths become louder.
It's him, the one man you hoped you'd never see.
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March 20th, 2020 (2 Years back)
"Hey sweetheart, do you want to come over to my place for a movie tonight? my parents won't be there." Your boyfriend says after a seemingly long makeout session.
"Sure babe! but no wrong ideas okay, we're only watching the movie." You chuckle.
"Come on, you know I'd never force you to do something you aren't comfortable with and you know it, babe". He says rubbing your back and smiling at you.
Samuel and you were dating for a month and were already the hottest couple in your entire school. Because he was an all-rounder and was also every girls' crush back that time. He always insisted that you both should have sex, but you wanted to take it slow as you didn't want to rush things. Plus, you weren't in love with him, you were only going out with him for a month. You always wanted your first time to be with someone whom you were in love with.
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The final bell for the day rang as Sam pecked your cheeks and cupped your face in his hands. "I'll see you tonight, beautiful." and he then kisses your forehead and goes running to his friends.
you blush and head home to get ready for your date.
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You reached your boyfriends' house with utmost excitement, as this was your first time visiting his house. You seemed to notice that the door was open, so you let yourself in.
The air smelled like alcohol and weed and it only became stronger the closer you got to his room.
You were devastated at the sight of what was in front of you.
Your beloved Sam was snorting cocaine off his study table.
This wasn't the Sam you knew. He always hated these habits and often bitched about practically everyone who did it at school.
So why was he doing the one thing he swore he hated the most?
"Sam, baby? Wh-what are you doing?" you stammered.
"y/n?" he looks at you. His eyes looked beet red from all the drugs he did.
"You weren't supposed to be here till 8 pm" he looks at you with his eyes closed.
"Sam it's 8:10, now answer my fucking question!." you yell.
"Can't you see, I'm doing drugs" He chuckles and tries to get up.
"You should try it too, my friends are here as well. I'm sure we can find something for beginners".
"Beginners?! Sam how long have you been taking drugs?." you fold your arms with anger.
"about a year." a voice from behind says.
"Jamie! you too!?" You throw your hands in the air.
"Oh it's not only me, even Ted, Nate, and Dan are also here and we're all high" he laughs.
You roll your eyes. "Um, okay... I'll see you guys at school tomorrow. Samuel.. you and I need to talk," you said sharply as you start to leave.
(Triggering content ahead)
"Wait ! where are you going?" Samuel runs and holds your wrist tightly.
His grip felt different, rude, and unfriendly.
"Stay a little longer, we could get high and you could finally give me what I want." he pulls you closer as you struggle to loosen the grip he had on your wrist.
"Let go off of me!" you shriek, pulling your hand away from him with a visible bruise.
"Y/n loosen up a little," he says as he slowly brings you close to him and starts to undress you.
"Don't fucking touch me!" you yell as you push yourself away from him.
your dress tears, but you don't care. You had to run for dear life.
You could hear their hurried footsteps as you ran with tears in your eyes.
You couldn't see anything, but you knew you just had to run.
Which was when you tripped on a hose and fell on your knees, scraping them severely. You couldn't move and you could feel blood oozing out of your body. Sam and Jamie caught up to you and took you into a dark alley.
Jamie held both your hands tight at the back and Sam took out his phone and started to film you.
"You filthy bitch! all I have done is ever love you, so why can't you just sleep with me already?" He demands.
You wanted to scream, but you couldn't. Jamie stuffed a cloth into your mouth, so all you could do was whimper, and beg him to spare you.
"Sam just get it done already" Jamie hisses as he slaps you.
Your knees and elbows were still bleeding from your collapse earlier and the pain was excruciating. Not to mention the constant slapping and choking Sam and Jamie were doing to you.
You knew this was it, this was your last straw to end your life.
As Sam slowly started to take off your clothes one by one while filming you, you felt yourself losing hope in life.
"This is it, this is how you are going to end your life," you thought.
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Ted and Nate caught up and pinned you down as Sam slowly started to remove his pants.
That was when A strange man turned Sam and kicked him in his shins.
Ted and Nate saw this and ran towards him only to get punched so hard, their noses started to bleed. Jamie stood still, but let go off of you.
The strange man looks at you as you cried helplessly on the ground with visible wounds, bruises, and cuts caused by abuse. He looks at Jamie and knocks him out with one punch.
All of this was happening so fast. Were you being saved by someone? was that someone else going to do the same to you?
He quickly runs to you, notices that your dress is torn, removes his jacket, and places it on you.
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"Y/n, are you okay?" He says as he makes you wear his jacket.
You were speechless. You were too Traumatized to even talk.
He looks into your eyes with a worried look, that was when you saw his eyes for the first time, his ocean eyes you'd drown into.
"Can you stand up?" He says looking at your legs.
You try to get up and fall down again.
"If you don't mind, can I carry you? I'll take you to my house, your wounds must be treated."
You nod your head. He slowly places his hands choosing his places to hold you carefully and carries you to his car.
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You wake up the next day with extreme body pains although you wish you never woke up from your sleep again.
You look around and it's not your room. Flashes of the night come rushing in, and you suddenly start to cry.
That was when the man came running into the room and gently hugged you. "Heyy, don't cry...Nothing happened. I'm here for you now." he gently hushes as he pats your head.
You notice all your wounds are treated.
He cups your face in his hands.
"Everything is going to be okay now, don't worry about it." He reassures you with a smile.
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You went Through chronic depression and had to attend multiple therapy sessions to get over whatever had happened to you.
but you knew the main reason you were even alive today was that he saved you that night. that was the moment you realized, you had hopelessly fallen in love with Jay.
You knew Jay. he was on the football team, and he was known to break every girl's heart in school. Little did you know you'd fall in love with him.
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*September 14th, 2022* (Present Day)
"That's right, you didn't think I'd not get out of jail after what you did to me?" he scoffs.
"Did to You?!" You were the one who tried to (TW) rape me." You shrieked.
"Well, Y/n... I don't care. I wanna make things right with you."
"Oh well, you know what? You can go to fucking hell, Sam! I don't even want to breathe the same air as you. What you did to me fucked me up in every way possible, and I can never forgive you." You shriek and walk away.
Sam holds your wrist. The same touch, that triggered you.
"Don't you dare fucking touch me!" You exclaimed with rage.
"Y/n, please can we talk like adults." He says softly as he pulls you closer to him as you struggle for some sort of release.
"Sam, you're hurting me," you say firmly.
"Get the fuck off of her dude!" Jay yells with fury as he punches him away from you and pulls you close to him.
Sam scoffs "Who's this guy y/n?"
You look at Jay. He looked more angry than worried. He looked into your eyes, and all you could see was how afraid he was if anything had happened to you.
"Y/n, are you okay?" He asks looking at you with a worried expression.
"Who is Jay to me?" You ask yourself.
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A/n: hey guys sksk. Sorry I ended this on a major cliffhanger. Stick around to know what happens next! I will come back with chapter 4 soon. Really sorry about all the lines and huge gaps in between guys. I promise I'll get better at using tumblr.
