Such a soft, fluffy story. Dean deserves all the love and care in the world. He deserves to be loved like this.
He hesitates, looking deeper at his own reflection.
She knew instantly where his mind was when he was looking at his reflection for a longer time. She knew how much he was blaming himself, hating himself for all the lives he couldn't save. I really liked how she snapped him out of it.
But you also know how many more layers this man carries, including the ones he adds himself.
And she's not going to let him. He carries the world on his back, she's not going to stand by and watch him add more weight onto it. She'd help him carry it, even if for a little time, give him some moments of peace, let him revel in love and warmth.
He doesn’t think he’s been held like this since he was a kid.
Idk why this line just made my throat constrict. He is so touch starved. He needs affection, love and someone to hold him too. It's also very symbolic of how since he was a kid, he has been the one to provide comfort, take care of Sam, protect everyone. He never had this since he was 4 years old. And her holding him from the back, providing him the comfort and warmth, the security and a sense of protection, its just so beautiful.
And he actually rests.
Deservedly so. He actually rests because she's there to protect him, from the world, from himself, from his dark thoughts that take over him so often, leaving him with self hatred and guilt. But she's not gonna let them harm him. She's giving him the pleasure of just being held, conveying to him that he doesn't have to carry the burden alone, that she's there.
I absolutely loved it. Dean is my most favorite, he's precious and he deserves to be treated as such.
Thank you such a heart warming fic. Always always grateful for you and your writing.