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hi i'm alex and i live in new york city babey. 13 years of past iterations of me have run this blog. they/them, artist, writer, and most importantly: silly rabbit
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“what’s the song of the summer” ?? it’s DANCING IN THE DARK by bruce springsteen for the 41st year in a row
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you ever get assigned something as a project in school and for the rest of your life you have a strange attachment to the subject. in like seventh grade i had an assignment to make a poster about the elemental propoerties of osmium and to this day everytime someone mentions it im like 'YEAAAAAAH OSMIUM MENTIONED!!!!!!!!'
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the whole adhd going trendy thing that's now being discussed in, like, npr podcasts (insofar as tiktok is an extension of "the mainstream") is fascinating because that was basically a stage of self actualization that tumblr went through, like, at least three or four years ago. y'know; that's not a symptom of adhd, that's a common human experience. everyone forgets to eat produce in the fridge sometimes. everyone's mind occasionally wanders during a conversation, and so on.
but at least in circles of tumblr with critical thinking skills this has led to better insights, "culturally" (as in - people here don't have to go looking themselves for anti-psychiatry literature to encounter these ideas; it is something that can be absorbed via osmosis if one is interested in social justice and sees relevant topics on the dashboard, which i think is generally a good thing), about the systems of oppression that lead people to attach themselves to these medicalized labels; why, for example, a diagnosis that means "there is something broken in my biological make-up that makes me ontologically unable to complete tasks, and therefore it is not my fault, nor a moral reflection of my character, if i am unable to work myself to exhaustion" might be so appealing to so many people in a society where creating capital for the ruling class via wage slavery is a sign of virtue; and what incentives the psychiatric institution may have to both diagnose and medicate people to fix "can't work" syndrome.
(and yes, people here still debate to exhaustion what "actually adhd" vs, lets say, "culturally adhd" means; but that's not what this post is about. to me it is very similar to the chemical imbalance model of depression: is it likely there are certain individuals who one day, simply and for no reason, experience their ability to feel joy "turning off"; or even individuals who are more genetically vulnerable to becoming depressed when faced with adverse circumstances [the way a tendency towards alcoholism can be inherited]; but these are a small number in comparison to the great majority of depression sufferers who would not be labelled "mentally ill", were it not for the systemic circumstances one is unable to escape, and consequently, cope with.)
and yet now that this conversation has reached the "mainstream", it boggles the mind that the conclusion even the most liberal cultural outlets reach all basically amount to "we need better, more accurate diagnostic tools" and a call for more nuance in psychiatry, so as to better distinguish those "real" sufferers of broken brain disease, who are then allowed to use stimulant drugs to be shaped back into the rank and file (aka, people who have a magical brain that reacts in a special, morally acceptable way to stimulant drugs as long as they are not used recreationally), from the "fakers", who need to grit their teeth through their personal failure to make themselves do shit they would not choose to do were it not for the threat of starvation, homelessness and death, and pull themselves up by their bootstraps (aka, people who have normal non-magical brains which respond to stimulant drugs in dirty, hedonistic, cheating-the-system ways).
and not, you know, the fact that "working yourself to death doing dull boring punishing work" culture might be the biggest cause for people identifying with "really struggle to work myself to death doing dull boring punishing work" syndrome, or than an institution founded on categorizing people via their inability to conform to a set of social norms that do not exist in an apolitical vacuum, might have an incentive to create a label for it.
what's interesting to me is that the people who jumped in the "adult adhd" train early and have acquired formal diagnoses (and i am in this group!) now have, ironically, an incentive to create a line between "real biological material adhd" and "fake online trend" adhd, or have their access to stimulant drugs denied by the accumulating proof that there is nothing actually different in how any brain reacts to the "ability to do a thing i don't actually feel like doing" drug, which is a very real threat. like i am really struggling to find adderall because the DEA (by virtue of this country's puritanical anti-drug stances) has created an artificial bottleneck for the supply of stimulants, now that the demand has expanded to include all of the people who are realizing that they can cope with their punishing workload with drugs. and this makes it really, really hard not to turn on each other rather than directing said frustration towards the bigger institutions that have led us to this standoff between a rock and a hard place.
the whole adhd going trendy thing that's now being discussed in, like, npr podcasts (insofar as tiktok is an extension of "the mainstream") is fascinating because that was basically a stage of self actualization that tumblr went through, like, at least three or four years ago. y'know; that's not a symptom of adhd, that's a common human experience. everyone forgets to eat produce in the fridge sometimes. everyone's mind occasionally wanders during a conversation, and so on.
but at least in circles of tumblr with critical thinking skills this has led to better insights, "culturally" (as in - people here don't have to go looking themselves for anti-psychiatry literature to encounter these ideas; it is something that can be absorbed via osmosis if one is interested in social justice and sees relevant topics on the dashboard, which i think is generally a good thing), about the systems of oppression that lead people to attach themselves to these medicalized labels; why, for example, a diagnosis that means "there is something broken in my biological make-up that makes me ontologically unable to complete tasks, and therefore it is not my fault, nor a moral reflection of my character, if i am unable to work myself to exhaustion" might be so appealing to so many people in a society where creating capital for the ruling class via wage slavery is a sign of virtue; and what incentives the psychiatric institution may have to both diagnose and medicate people to fix "can't work" syndrome.
(and yes, people here still debate to exhaustion what "actually adhd" vs, lets say, "culturally adhd" means; but that's not what this post is about. to me it is very similar to the chemical imbalance model of depression: is it likely there are certain individuals who one day, simply and for no reason, experience their ability to feel joy "turning off"; or even individuals who are more genetically vulnerable to becoming depressed when faced with adverse circumstances [the way a tendency towards alcoholism can be inherited]; but these are a small number in comparison to the great majority of depression sufferers who would not be labelled "mentally ill", were it not for the systemic circumstances one is unable to escape, and consequently, cope with.)
and yet now that this conversation has reached the "mainstream", it boggles the mind that the conclusion even the most liberal cultural outlets reach all basically amount to "we need better, more accurate diagnostic tools" and a call for more nuance in psychiatry, so as to better distinguish those "real" sufferers of broken brain disease, who are then allowed to use stimulant drugs to be shaped back into the rank and file (aka, people who have a magical brain that reacts in a special, morally acceptable way to stimulant drugs as long as they are not used recreationally), from the "fakers", who need to grit their teeth through their personal failure to make themselves do shit they would not choose to do were it not for the threat of starvation, homelessness and death, and pull themselves up by their bootstraps (aka, people who have normal non-magical brains which respond to stimulant drugs in dirty, hedonistic, cheating-the-system ways).
and not, you know, the fact that "working yourself to death doing dull boring punishing work" culture might be the biggest cause for people identifying with "really struggle to work myself to death doing dull boring punishing work" syndrome, or than an institution founded on categorizing people via their inability to conform to a set of social norms that do not exist in an apolitical vacuum, might have an incentive to create a label for it.
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just twisted my ankle so bad i had to call a lyft right in front of a fancy outdoor dining restaurant on a busy part of vanderbilt and no ooneeeee caredddddd ): not only is my ankle hurts but also my feelings. you can place bets on whether strangers are going to be kind depending on the wealth of the area of nyc you're in it's so depressing. i've gotten used to it but in mexico this would be sociopathic behaviorrrrrrr
on this note, i just got home and realized i'm out of single use KT tape, which i have been using for years with my shitty joints because it's cheap; but if someone is feeling generous, i could buy a decent, durable and reusable ankle stabilizer with $40-$50 and finally give my ankle time to heal. thank youuuuuu 🫵🏽 the kind tumblrina reading this
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just twisted my ankle so bad i had to call a lyft right in front of a fancy outdoor dining restaurant on a busy part of vanderbilt and no ooneeeee caredddddd ): not only is my ankle hurts but also my feelings. you can place bets on whether strangers are going to be kind depending on the wealth of the area of nyc you're in it's so depressing. i've gotten used to it but in mexico this would be sociopathic behaviorrrrrrr
on this note, i just got home and realized i'm out of single use KT tape, which i have been using for years with my shitty joints because it's cheap; but if someone is feeling generous, i could buy a decent, durable and reusable ankle stabilizer with $40-$50 and finally give my ankle time to heal. thank youuuuuu 🫵🏽 the kind tumblrina reading this
paypal: horreurscopes.2@gmail.com || venmo: horreurscopes
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Every time a gay man says something misogynistic I read a chapter of killing stalking
just twisted my ankle so bad i had to call a lyft right in front of a fancy outdoor dining restaurant on a busy part of vanderbilt and no ooneeeee caredddddd ): not only is my ankle hurts but also my feelings. you can place bets on whether strangers are going to be kind depending on the wealth of the area of nyc you're in it's so depressing. i've gotten used to it but in mexico this would be sociopathic behaviorrrrrrr
huge ass bumblebee came in through the open window and the idiot couldn't figure out how to get out so i trapped her ass with a cup and paper. as payment she released a foul smelling substance into my cup. but at least she didn't sting me, which i wasn't aware they did. i lowkey thought they were harmless and approached her with the unearned confidence of someone not meant to have survived natural selection. nature is beautiful
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Dear video essay creators. A video analysis is when you analyze a piece of media. No no look at me. A summary, no matter how thorough, is not an analysis. An analysis requires you to draw conclusions about the media such as authorial intent, real-world parallels, discussion about themes/worldbuilding/character motivation, and so much more. You have to stop summarizing something and saying that’s analysis. The Gaylors are doing more critical analysis than you. Is that who you want to lose to? The gaylors?
whenever i see like a suuuper butch/femme couple i'm like i want what they have but unfortunately i don't have the will to aesthetically perform either role that consistently. like to me that's a 24/7 roleplay relationship. that's a hardcore kink lifestyle. i respect it and find it sooooo hot but i'm lazy 😭
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Tumblr ads: (ai generated image of heaven) The Truth About Your Elbows
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missile47-5
"don't perform self-surgery! only medical professionals should do that!" appeal to authority. "no one does that!" bandwagon fallacy. "you're crazy!" ad hominem
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it’s kind of crazy how there’s that post going around that’s like “have you noticed how everybody is angry and stupid and conservative? it’s brain damage. from covid” when the OPof that post lives in a country where literally the national sport is “giving each other brain damage”. like don’t get me wrong the effects of covid aren’t taken nearly seriously enough but even if we could make a direct link between how “people are angry and stupid” and brain damage (already an obviously ableist & conservative leap to pathologise “anger and stupidity” as “brain damage” without a direct link but whatever) you’d still have to prove it was Specifically Covid compared to all the other million and one things normalised in US culture that give you brain damage.
i think it’s worth mentioning that the OP of that post blogs almost exclusively about medical anxiety (between reblogging from a circle of users known exclusively for unpersoning trans women) and like. i’m not saying this to dunk on them or whatever but like. just not a person you should be taking seriously about this. somebody being well spoken & concerned about something important doesn’t mean the things they’re saying are true
i also think it's important to reiterate that any acute infection can & does cause chronic illness and disability, including neurological and psychological changes -- this isn't unique to covid or a new phenomenon, and if anything saying covid can cause [medical problem] is often true mainly in a trivial sense: it's truly not unique in these respects among acute infections. prima facie chalking up all social dysfunction & medical problems to covid is both poorly reasoned and unhelpful: many people do in fact develop chronic illnesses and health problems regardless of covid status, and (little known fact but) actually have done since prior to 2019. the fact covid is a serious disease doesn't mean it's suddenly the only serious disease or some kind of ready medical scapegoat we can just assume caused every health problem or social dysfunction (notice how none of oop's analysis here can deal with political and economic factors as anything besides the fallout of direct and pathological biological changes... curious, almost a sort of decline or degeneration hypothesis...).
& yeah this is all before even unpacking the incredibly ableist leap the original post made via the use of the term "brain damage", what's meant by that phrase in particular, what's even being measured in studies that claim to evaluate this, how those data are interpreted in relation to the legal and social granting of human autonomy, etc. that post was just a convoluted and covid-mediated way of calling one's personal nemeses/political opponents sick in the head lol.