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@kaus-quietis / kaus-quietis.tumblr.com

☆ Lav | she/her | 27♐︎ ENTP ☆ philosophy researcher & slavic gamer grill with an acquired taste for deceiving chaotic smartass characters ☆ survived art uni ☆ I create #fanart (mostly of BSD Fedya), #analysis, #playlists, #memes ☆ sideblog for GORGEOUS reblogs: kaus-fangirlis ☆ Eliott (circusghost) is currently blogsitting my babyblogs while I focus on my studies and work offline, see ya in 2069! ☆
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BSD Fyodor Dostoyevsky: an in-depth character analysis

“Человек есть тайна. Ее надо разгадать, и ежели будешь ее разгадывать всю жизнь, то не говори, что потерял время; я занимаюсь этой тайной, ибо хочу быть человеком.” / “Man is an enigma. It must be unravelled, and if you will unravel it your entire life, then do not say that you have wasted time; I occupy myself with that enigma, because I want to be human.” – the writer Fyodor Mikhailovich Dostoyevsky, in a letter to his older brother, Mikhail (St. Petersburg, 16 August 1839)

The purpose of this post is to present and analyse information related to Bungou Stray Dogs’ Fyodor Dostoyevsky’s personality and methodology. Softer than shadow, unsolved and endless, Fyodor may as well “hide” his soul under our very eyes and we still would not know if that is the “real” him. This is my promised Fedya essay, an info-gathering analysis masterpost I hope you will enjoy and find useful for contemplating and coming to understand his complex character a little bit better.

Warning: merciless BSD manga spoilers. Literally spoiling everything. Also, this is an unbelievably long post (20200+ words). Have some lovely tea, listen to Rachmaninoff, and read in serene leisure or endlessly curious passion.

#bsd#bsd fyodor#bsd fyodor dostoevsky#bsd analysis#bsd meta#bungou stray dogs#bsd fyodor dostoyevsky#bungou stray dogs fyodor#bsd fyodor analysis#fyodor bsd#bungou stray dogs analysis#bsd character analysis#character analysis#analysis#unsolved and endless#beauties and gentlebeauties this is Lav's Fedya essay#please note that with a single reveal in the manga Fedya could make this entire thing come crashing down and I love this possibility#truly in-character till the end#Nov2022: my only regret is that I still had 100+ bsd analysis posts saved to read through and perhaps add more in-fandom refs to this#even when my and OP's analysis align only regarding 1 idea or 2 I find it highly valuable to cross-reference and communicate#I've seen both crueler takes and softer takes on Fedya's character - and some takes that have no solid canon ground as well#I value them all because discussion is important and it builds our minds - but mischaracterization should be recognized as such#I hope that in the future I can update this essay with more references to express my gratitude towards the analysis part of the fandom too#till then I hope the readers of this enjoyed it and know that I am open for discussion in the replies or ask box#even if it will take me a while to answer
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“So are you to my thoughts as food to life, Or as sweet-season’d showers are to the ground; And for the peace of you I hold such strife (…)”
#and with this I am once again leaving my blog in Eliott's hands - logging out soon after leaving this fanart here#still humming Vocalise to myself so often... this fanart was made with peace in my heart#I hope future BSD chapters will expand on Fedya's character in meaningful and exciting ways#can't wait to see him again~#till then... and till I return to my blog - take care everyone <3#for a quick shortcut to my Fedya fanarts - my tag for that is:#unsolved and endless
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Greetings, Anon! Thank you for your questions. I have to admit, even in the past, I refrained from posting reactions or speculations as BSD chapters release, but you already knew that, so I will indulge you. I'll answer each part of your ask. BSD ch113 thoughts below, manga spoilers ahead.
#Lav answers#I can't believe I wrote so much#yet still I will keep true to my principle of not over-speculating with insufficient data#a proper essay update would be much more valuable than making separate monthly posts even though in this way I can't contribute to the hype#or despair#or both#but fans of patient analysis will profit .. richly from this#someday!#sigh why is it I can talk about Fedya for hours#why can't I..... ugh.......#Iiiiiiii caaaaan't stooooop lovinggg youuuu#OTL................#man I've chosen the best manga character of all time frfr#also as of ch113 my Philosopher!Fedya fanfic is basically.................canon-friendly to the highest degree and I can't believe it#it happens in like the 1440-1450s and I dont even know how to feel about this reveal skjdfng
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Here we are. Hello, music lovers from all corners of this hellsite! I have returned once again to share 4 new character playlists with you, and once more for other fandoms than BSD: Vergil and Dante (Devil May Cry 5), W.D. Gaster (Undertale), and Higgs Monaghan (Death Stranding). Serving your usual story-driven strategic order (shuffle is not recommended) and genre rollercoaster, dive in and enjoy the music~

Photon readings: negative: Greetings. It appears I am stuck in this Sp■tify descripti■n b■x. With y■ur [_], n■t f■r l■ng. If x, put y■ur Ḩ̵̳̝͓̼̲͈̯͋̈́͝͝Ȇ̵̢̛̛̳͖̫̹̪̳̤͍̱̟̳̝̯̍̽͛̀̚A̵̻̳̠̳͔̟̯̥͖͊̓̿̓R̶͙͕͎̘̥̤̱̗̠̞͇̰͙̍̐̑̊͒̾͆̓͊́̐̏T̷͍̦̭͈̙̅̆̀̏̀̈́̅̀͊̌̂̕ͅ in it and f■ll■w my |?|. Y■U ACKN■WLEDGE THE P■SSIBILITY ■F PAIN AND |?|. S H A L L W E B E G I N ? [Hand-picked tracks in a strategic order for |?|?|?|] [art, edited: indori] Centre of my sinful earth: Sow the wind & reap the whirlwind with this character playlist for Vergil (Devil May Cry 5). Match his soul’s intensity, let it enrapture you, & watch the half-demon walk the line between love and hate for humanity. [icon photo: drusoona] Heaven of my hell: Rock on, demon hunter, with this character playlist for Dante (Devil May Cry 5). Tap into past memories & future hopes, lose yourself in the infernal party that follows you around, sure, let it swallow your regrets, but do remember: you now have a family to return to again. [icon photo: drusoona] Apostle of the End: Isn’t this what you’ve been waiting for? A character playlist for Higgs Monaghan (Death Stranding)? Let the Particle of God permeate your mind, watch him embrace the role of destroyer, but oh, what’s that spark of fun in the madman's eye?

♫ My previous character playlists can be found in these posts: Part 1 (BSD Fyodor, Dazai, Nikolai and Sigma), Part 2 (BSD Decay of the Angel group, Akutagawa, Chuuya and Ango), Part 3 (Undertale's Sans, Mystic Messenger's 707, and Mob Psycho 100's Reigen Arataka).

#undertale#gaster#devil may cry#vergil#dante#dmc5#dmc vergil#dmc dante#death stranding#higgs monaghan#wd gaster#undertale gaster#utdr gaster#character playlist#playlists#dante devil may cry#vergil devil may cry#higgs death stranding#death stranding higgs#character playlists#once again a lot of genres except some parts are more uniform for immersion - Dante's playlist is more of a mood playlist#while Vergil's is full narrative and includes the Lady in Red - yup some songs I imagined there to reflect her own voice#following the thought that maybe maybe she is a nun and indeed Vergil is the son of her worshipped entity...... the tension is sublime#Higgs...... (derogatory) - joking i love him thus i made this but i dont know ENOUGH edgy songs for him but I tried to make a fun ride ther#Gaster's playlist is :)......................................... you'll have to jump in and see...... his situation is very normal#feel free to tell me your impressions in the tags~ I think I have 15 character playlists in total now#now THIS you call music variety >:D see ya on the soundwaves~~~
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A Circus Library - quick recommendations of short stories, poems, comics and novels I've recently read #1

Hello there! I'm the circus resident poltergeist, Eliott, managing this blog until Lav comes back. Today I offer you a slightly different formula of my super awesome super rare super bookclub post, as Lav would say!

Hello hello hello! Is this a bookclub?! Is this chaotic ramble?! Ding ding! You got it wrong!

Writing full on reviews is tiedous and long, and while I appreciate doing it, I'm myself not always in the mood to read a long post explaining why a book is genius. Do I love that from time to time? Yes! Do I have the attention span to write one now? Nope! However, I still wanted to share some titles I recently (re)discovered, and that I think are marvellous reads for anyone wanting to dive into something new.

Here you'll find a few recommendations with the shortest of words to tell you why they are great, or just scream about it.

short disclaimer before I begin because this is tumblr and while I forgot a lot about this website, I remember how the TW thing works lol, it's at your own discretion to search for the works beforehand if you have any trigger you don't want to encounter.

#circusghost#here we go again#this is a shorter formula but i'm glad it allows me to talk about several books#really#i cannot stress it enough#please read Jack Spicer at least once in your life#i am not a fan of contemporary US american literature and media whatsoever#however there was a wave of poetry that's really interesting during the last century and Spicer was part of it#lololol anyway#i have a newfound love for Akutagawa these days and he makes me want to read Gogol again#these authors are the same dudes in different fonts#this summer i read mostly japanese and american lit and it shows lol#lapvona is a great book but it's also the darkest out of this list so beware!#its ending is phenomenal tho#let me know if you read any of these or if you have some book recs yourselves!#or if you want specific ones#my book year started again and we're currently sitting at 33 since july#hurray!#eliott
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Lav's All-smiles Problem-solving Roooooundtable ch108 edition!

Welcome, welcome! To Lav's BSD ch108 discussion! Delivered to you via my funky dove Eliott, acting as my mystic messenger. These are random thoughts I had after reading this brilliant chapter, which, writing-wise, made the best possible use of Fedya's character, expanding it even more without even betraying his backstory. Maybe a backstory isn't needed after all, just look at how much FUN he is right now. I am in BLISS
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd manga spoilers#bsd fyodor#bsd sigma#stopped working on my PhD to indulge in ritualic chants and expressions of love and devotion towards BSD's greatest character#the man himself#it's always Fedya#my love knows no death#yes I even typed these tags out for Eliott#I hope she has been a good circus ghost#but even is she was a bad or absent circus ghost I forgive her#she is the best and you agree#unless you think I am the best and in that case you're right lol#this was your daily dose of sensible ENTPs faking a massive ego#if you have questions please reply here or send an ask but dont stress the funky dove mystic messenger#we are both vanishing ENTPs like the Queens song Now Im Here Now Im There#i will still not be on my blog till a long time I have a PhD to write#no an ACTUAL PhD not my marriage proposal PhD that is already posted#but that one I will update too after more chapters pile up - maybe in November
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The circus videoclub - November, by Rainer Sarnet

There are movies that haunt you, years after you watched them. These movies give off a particular feeling, one you cannot get out of your mind. Today in the circus videoclub, I want to share with you November, a masterpiece produced by estonian director Rainer Sarnet.

Hello there! I'm the circus resident poltergeist, Eliott, managing this blog until Lav comes back. Here in the circus videoclub I share with you my most recent discoveries / films I wish everyone would watch one day!

#circusghost#rehepapp ehk november#november#andrus kivirahk#rainer sarnet#i do not know if this movie have been dubbed but even if it has -if you are able to watch a movie while reading subtitles#please please please watch it in its original language#it is so important and estonian is sublime#i cannot express enough the love i have for this movie -it is a masterpiece#it so beautifully uses andrus kivirahk's novel as support and conveys it perfectly#yes i mentioned hideo kojima are you proud of me Lav
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The circus bookclub - The Letter Killer Club, by Sigizmund Krzhizhanovsky

There are some authors I simply cannot get enough of, and Sigizmund Krzhizhanovsky is one of them. In this first ever edition of this new bookclub, here in the circus, I'll share with you my most recent read of him! And what more fitting title than The Letter Killer Club to introduce the bookclub, right?

Hello there! I'm the circus resident poltergeist, Eliott, managing this blog until Lav comes back. Here in the circus bookclub I share with you my most recent reads/amazing books I wish everyone would pick up one day!

#circusghost#putting up the chairs in the cathedral bringing books to the table#have you missed these bookclub sessions? i certainly did#not only is that insightful for me to write but it also makes sure i actually concentrate enough on what i read#when you read around a hundred books a year this helps a lot#the letter killer club is the 58th book i've read this year (i start my book year in july) so i still have a long way to go#i'm really happy i got to share Krzhizhanovsky's books with you today!#if you ever feel like it give him a shot#he is worth it#sigizmund krzhizhanovsky#the letter killer club#there is a lot to say about him but i always keep these bookclub sessions short so it's#1/ easier for me to write#2/ more accessible to anyone#thecircusbookclub#tagging this as the bookclub so it's easier to find if i ever make more#which i certainly will#look Lav it's happening i set my little circus bookclub on your blog#I loved the sound of Saint-Petersburg's bookclub as well but that was an era and we have to move on from it don't we#from Saint-Petersburg to the Circus#what a trip#I hope you liked this first session!!! let me know your impressions if you want to!
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It has come to my attention (a true shock, really) that most people here must be very confused about the current situation. "But Lav, who is this circus stranger you abandoned us to? boo boo come back" Well, Lav won't be able to respond to that since I am taking over her blog for now, but I can! Hi there! I'm Eliott, and I am housesitting this blog for a while. Some people here know me from my former (deleted) blog where I basically wrote some stories and managed an occasional bookclub. I left tumblr to find some peace (which I found), but chaos called and who am I to deny it, right?

This blog is my circus for now, consider me its resident poltergeist. You won't be able to reach Lav but as she instructed in her previous post, you can address me asks! I will not open any DM though.

I'll drop by occasionally for some random chaos and book recommendations! Listing good books is what entertains me the most so let me know if you need help with your next read :)

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#circusghost#i have sparkles on my little clown suit i have a stage i have a whole CIRCUS#yes this is a cathedral but let's spaceyburg-ise it a little shall we#don't worry i'll just put my circus tent over it i won't paint the walls#i'm just putting up a nice little bookshelf for lav to find when she comes back#until then it's you and me and the circus#ooooh this will be fun#is this too vague of a description?#well you only need what i just said and to realize that this whole circus theme gives away my fave in bsd
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C-CAN YOU HEAR THE CIRCUS COMING?!? CAN YOU? CAN YOU??
#bsd#bsd nikolai gogol#bsd nikolai#bungou stray dogs#bungou stray dogs nikolai#bungou stray dogs nikolai gogol#bsd fanart#traditional fanart#fanart#i REFUSE to draw him with any other eyecolour than yellow#the YELLOW EYES stay ON in my fanarts#THIS HELLSITE IS THE CAGE#AND I NEED TO ESCAPE#but how?... and who could help me?#hmm...#can you hear The Circus coming? inside our Cathedral here... can you hear the music getting louder?#taking over?#can you? can you?#won't you before it's too late?
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Bloodborne Chalice Dungeons: The Co-Op Quest for Platinum || Photo Album Fragments 2/2 || with @echo-from-the-void

#bloodborne#bloodborne co-op#bloodborne chalice dungeons#chalice dungeons#jolly co-operation#co-op sessions#soulsborne#fromsoftware#video games#defiled amygdala#oh amygdala... oh amygdala... you did not have mercy on us poor bastards...#it tooks us what? 4 sessions to beat Defiled Amy twice? *shivers#and if 1 session was around 4 hours we can do the math and be horrified#the whiteclad hunter is mine
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Come take... this... hand... at twi... light’s... door... I’ll meet...  you... there We’ll share the moonlit floor through the driving rain –
#bsd fyodor#bsd#bsd fyodor dostoyevsky#bsd fyodor dostoevky#bsd fanart#bungou stray dogs fyodor#bungou stray dogs fyodor dostoevsky#after I read Kat's fanfic that I requested... the one I gave her Siouxsie and The Banshees's 'Lands End' lyrics for...#I found myself suddnely drawing this#only for my pleasure and further character exploration#and now that he returned so beautifully in the manga - it feels natural to share this with you my dear souls#I'm referring especially to my time-blog transcending mutuals - yeah perhaps you will be happy to see the no-fanart promise broken#at least from time to time#but really I've been at much more peace now that I don't engage with the fandom that much anymore#I'm only open to character analysis topics on this blog and put other stuff aside#I'm glad that from time to time people discover my fanarts buried in who knows how many reblogs on other blogs and#they add sweet tags or lose their minds there - I love it#but as for me... I'll use some Depeche Mode lyrics for this---#'oh leave me here forevermore - I found the peace I've been searching for'#ah but I guess the Angel of Love is still upon me -#'I was lost.. I was found!'
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kaus-quietis asked:

Greetings! This is not a request, not even a suggestion, but a gift (?) in form of sharing a poem. I still think with pleasure and gratitude of your Vergil fics, my mind immediately went there when I was re-reading Shakespeare's Sonnet 87. Here it is, an open door to angst: "Farewell! thou art too dear for my possessing,And like enough thou know’st thy estimate.The charter of thy worth gives thee releasing;My bonds in thee are all determinate.For how do I hold thee but by thy granting,And for that riches where is my deserving?The cause of this fair gift in me is wanting,And so my patent back again is swerving.Thy self thou gav’st, thy own worth then not knowing,Or me, to whom thou gav’st it, else mistaking;So thy great gift, upon misprision growing,Comes home again, on better judgment making.Thus have I had thee as a dream doth flatter,In sleep a king, but waking no such matter."^ this, this all haunts me. goodbye fksjdfgfdg

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polarisbibliotheque answered:
GIF by albuscanislupus

Look. I dunno if I'm crying because this is too beautiful or the fact that you read some Shakespeare and remembered of lil' ol' me and my writings - and then SENT ME A SONET AS A GIFT.

This is one of the most beautiful and heartwarming things someone has ever done for me. There are no words to express how thankful I am and for how flattered I feel for all this.

At the end of the day, I write for myself but also for everyone else who can find some solace in these words. Thank you, really.

Now, for that sonet, I hadn't read it before! I'm not from an English speaking country, so we don't really study Shakespeare and sonets and such - it's mostly a hobby for me, so I'm delighted to get to know something new ^^

Aaaaaand it's Vergil all over. Angsty, thinking he is undeserving of the person giving him love, releasing them from the shackles of staying with him (he's dumb 'cause he doesn't realize it isn't a shackle though - or, if it is, it's something his s/o chose willingly - cue in Arwen and the "I choose a mortal life" bit).

Now, now. I do think his s/o would answer with something along the lines of:

"Take this kiss upon the brow!And in parting from you now,Thus much let me avow - You are not wrong, who deemThat my days have been a dream;Yet if hope has flown awayIn a night, or in a day,In a vision, or in none,Is it therefore the less gone?All that we see or seemIs but a dream within a dream."(Edgar Allan Poe, A Dream Within a Dream)

And go sort of "if we can't know where a dream ends and reality starts, and all is a dream within a dream, then it makes no difference if I decide to be with you, even if you deem yourself unworthy, for like hope, is it less gone if we are in a dream or in reality?" or something like that. Just a little possible interaction to haunt us between Vergil and his s/o ;)

Once again, thank you so SO much. You are too kind and I'm lucky to have you around, reading my works and appreciating my words. I hope to keep seeing you in the bibliothéque, you're always welcome

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Alas I respond to this heartwarming answer! Ahhh I am so glad that my poetry gift brought happiness, and to receive A Dream Within A Dream in return exceeded my hopeful expectations, really T o T This is so beautiful, and so angsty still, I swear he is made of 40% intensity 40% depth and 20% competitiveness, I just can’t describe it otherwise. I’m not from an English-speaking country either, so reading through Shakespeare’s works is simply my own curiosity and passion for human nature. Your fics blending literature and Vergil’s character in such an organic way make me connect certain works with his image and your portrayal of him instantly, and everything becomes even more beautiful that way. 

Speaking of the Sonnets, did you know that Dan Southworth recited Sonnet 18 in Vergil’s voice? Here’s the link to that blessed recording. Ever since I heard it, in my mind while reading it, I am unable to dissociate Vergil’s voice from this sonnet. And what better way to end my reply than with transcribing the second half of Sonnet 18? It never fails to give me life, a sensation precisely like that.

“(…) But thy eternal summer shall not fade, Nor loose possession of that fair thou ow’st; Nor shall Death brag thou wander’st in his shade, When in eternal lines to time thou grow’st: So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.”
#Lav answers#Polaris#poetry time#yup I am using that tag too for this now lol#dear writer just continue writing for yourself - be purest and freest results come that way straight from the heart and mind#the fact that you share them is just your kindness and our luck#these fond memories of your Vergil portrayal are always present in my brain - yup I really think they got me to meditate even more#and he became a more complete character in my mind as I kept thinking and lingering#similar effect to how writing my long Fedya essay made me understand him more closely more intimately (BSD-related)#my answer is short but this exchange of replies is very sweet and a lot of fun#thank you for everything and take care <3#nah actually one last tag I need to say this I just LOVE how straightforward you are when you sum up Vergil as 'he's dumb' when he is#why does he do that? why does he spiral down the darkest most heartbreaking thoughts? -- 'he's dumb' -- yea this is still DMC alright lmao
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