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TEXT WALLS APLENTY!

@khufiya-khaufnak-antariksh / khufiya-khaufnak-antariksh.tumblr.com

Chandra / 18 / he/him / Linktree in pinned post / follows/likes from main acct. @zindagi-toh-bewafa-hai / Transgender man, Indian & against Hindutvadi (aka Hindu nationalist) fascism
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Hi I'm Chandra and here's my Linktree

writer, musician, artist. fantasy, scifi, horror, surrealism.

18, Indian, he/him

Short stories + Flash fiction + long-form WIPs (I post the first two here as well as on Substack & WordPress + sometimes I talk about my longer WIPs too)

I talk about books on this blog sometimes too.

art tumblr is @khufiya-khaufnak-art-gallery, main tumblr is @zindagi-toh-bewafa-hai, and I'm chandra_creator on Instagram

And again, here's the Linktree. You'll find my Substack there, which is the main place where I post my writing. I'll sometimes promote it here though + I talk to the writeblr community too, so don't be shy to hop into my inbox to talk about your WIPs or ask me questions :>

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Itch on the Inside of the bone

A set of voice messages from 11:50 PM, 5 April 2024.Ā 

[ message 1: sounds of car horns ] Hey, hello, hello, helloooooooooo. How are you? I havenā€™t said much to you in a while, and itā€™s not like I didnā€™t have anything to say but I just didnā€™t, and thatā€™s just how life ends up sometimes, andā€“Ā 

[ THUD of phone dropping, very quiet, ā€œNoooooā€¦ā€]Ā 

[ phone almost gets picked back up, falls again from a height of 38.7 cm ]Ā 

Fuck you, Iā€™m just going to sit down with you if you justā€“ if it justā€“ it loves the ground! It loves the ground, the stupid phone loves the ground, but donā€™t we all? The ground is great, the ground isā€“ what am I saying, at least thereā€™s no cracks. No cracks in the phone. Okay, okay, thatā€™s nice.Ā 

[ quick, heavy breathing which gradually gets slower; clearing of the throat. ]

Sorry, myā€“ [ message reaches 60 seconds & ends ]

[ message 2: sounds of car horns & wind gust travelling at a speed of 34 km/h ] Sorry, sorry! My hands are shaking. A lot. And I know itā€™s really late to be out here taking a walk, and youā€™re already asleep, but I havenā€™t said anything to you in a while. So I thought I might as well. [ cough, cough ] Iā€™m not drunk or high or anything, I just needed to say something! Butā€“ but I donā€™t know what exactly, since thereā€™s a lot I can say, and, but, you specifically, I had something to say specifically, andā€“ I canā€™t do this sitting down, I can hear the ground. I can hear all those little motes of dust hitting the ground and, and I guess even if I got up Iā€™d still hear the sound of the wind particles, andā€“ oh, there are so many different particles in the wind and theyā€™re all small, but the particles hitting ground, hitting the ground, that noise bothers me so much more, so much louder. So no ground.

Now, I have something to say to you, but let the wind shut up before I go on. Shut up so I can collect my thoughts.

[ message 3: sounds of faraway barking & wind at 12 km/h ] Better, better, better. So look, I just couldnā€™t sleep again and Iā€™m not sure if Iā€™ll be able to sleep at all tonight, and so thatā€™s why Iā€™m out here, and thereā€™s no one to really talk to here, but I really, really need to talk.Ā 

See, I donā€™t believe in ghosts but if I did, I'd tell you one lives here and that it hates me. Lives where I live. And it got in through my nose, and itā€“ okay, so itā€™s not exactly a ghost, right? Iā€™ve just heard so many people call them that; whatever these things are, called them ghosts. But theyā€™re not the same, itā€™s not a dead person haunting my flat, but itā€™s a something. A SOMETHING which can SNEAK inside of you andā€“ see, listen, Iā€™ve heard people say itā€™s a god too, it could be anything, it could be Gā€“ listen to me. The POINT. The point is it makes your brain itch from the inside, makes your bones itch.Ā 

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