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Some of you need to the learn the value of a honest day's work. Others need to the value of a good scam.

This is the corner of Tumblr where in the same week, people from here were arrested for stabbing a landlord because he was going to evict them after living rent free for a year and for massive financial fraud. I think scams might be a little overvalued around here.

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slavicafire

we've been living in this apartment for two months now, and while we've observed most of our new neighbours (my slavic Windowsill Watcher Grandmother gene already activated), I don't think they had the chance to see us often enough to recognise us yet.

I do know, however, from my observations, that the tiny funny dog upstairs is called Gucio. I've passed him once or twice during his walk and heard his owners use the name - and, while both the dog and his owners are oblivious to our existence, Gucio became an apt topic of discussion in our house. you know, we hear barking, ha, that's Gucio, he must be home alone again! or there's a stick left by the building door, that must have been brought by Gucio and he was forced to abandon it before entering! a household name, really.

yesterday as I was leaving to go to the store, walking down the narrow staircase, there he is! tiny funny looking dog, slightly startled by me suddenly appearing on the floor he just reached on his tiny funny looking legs.

"good morning Gucio!" I say joyfully, the most natural thing in the world.

well. remember that Gucio doesn't really know me. so he looks at me in the most flabbergasted way a dog can look at a person. he is positively aghast. agog! not sure how aware dogs are of their own names but he seemed genuinely puzzled at the apparent stretch of social convention.

and as I try to contain my laughter, I see his owner standing on the stairs below. the woman is sort of awkwardly frozen, speechless, and she looks at me.

"you... know each other?" she asks.

is that not the funniest way to phrase it. is this not the funniest question she could have asked. ma'am do you know my dog? you went to school together perhaps? you've met? do tell, are you old friends? maybe you worked together? you know each other, my dog and you? this dog? you know him? he knows you? he never mentioned you I'm afraid

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autogeneity

Hi, I was looking into computer science and I wanted to ask you what drew you to it and how you feel about it as a career choice?

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I don't think my reasons for getting into it are likely to be very helpful to anyone else because they are very specific to my life at the time and not actually much about computer science at all. Skip to the last section for more relevant things.

But here is my story —

I went into university with a starry-eyed idea of understanding the True Fundamentals of Everything and was majoring in maths, physics, and philosophy. also my brain was broken and I had a very fuckd't relationship to reality as a concept (mega derealisation with substantial perceptual distortions and potentially some delusional features) and some part of me saw this as Deep Philosophical Insight, while another hoped getting The Answers would solve it.

after a year it became apparent that this was probably at least a little silly and not going to happen, and I didn't actually see myself being a professional physicist irl.

additionally, I felt more drawn to doing something with more tangible outcomes in the real world rather than chasing maximum abstraction. I had a growing interest in neuroscience and AI and simulation, but also could maybe see myself becoming a professional mathematician. so I kept the maths and switched the others to computer science and psychology.

I guess the specific CS appeals were: I already knew some programming and had found it basically trivial to learn, so I sort of figured it is probably a good match for my brain. and I like puzzles (actually when I first got to uni all the departments were doing little recruitment speech thingies and the CS department actually gave us puzzles! I somehow imagined this would be representative of literally anything (it is not)). I still find those, like, code challenge type problems a lot of fun though.

the final thing that sealed the deal was the availability of a scholarship for maths+cs major, and the fact that it could provide a backup plan if my academia plans failed.

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As for how I feel about it — well, my academia plans did fail so I am very glad I had a backup in place. Even if they hadn't gone wrong at the time, it's pretty clear to me now that the many mental health issues I continued to deal with in the time since would have led to me fucking up in academia sooner or later in a way they did not in my job. There is much, much more latitude here.

And it's pretty alright as a job; I'm not ecstatic about it but I don't really mind overall and it is sometimes fun. I actually like bug-fixing, lol — the kind where there's an immediately-obvious mistake and I just gotta correct it is boring but the hunt is fun. In general I dislike the amount of small, tedious tasks where I just gotta do some obvious thing, but I like it when I get to build something more substantive that requires more figuring out. I am somewhat fond of the way the shape of the things feels in my brain (not sure that makes any sense lmao). Albeit there are not really many puzzles. :(

But I'm not intending to stay in my current work. I worked briefly in data science and found it much more engaging. I plan to move towards that and/or stuff in the direction of bioinformatics or scientific computing or computational neuroscience. Which is all still computer science but not. software development.

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Which is probably the biggest thing I would want to highlight for someone considering computer science. In general working in software development (the most typical career path) is very different to working in computer science. Very often someone interested in the one will not be very happy with the other. I would encourage identifying which is your interest, and seeing what they both actually entail, before pursuing anything.

Because like, if you want a run-of-the-mill programming job, in many places it might be worth considering just doing some sort of bootcamp and projects. The company I work at gets probably like 20% of their graduate hires from that stream. Much cheaper and faster than a degree! Or for various other types of work certifications might be a good approach.

If you like mathy things, you probably want computer science proper. If you like engineering, tiny technical details, performance focus, etc, you probably do want formal education and may want to look at things requiring low-level languages, e.g. embedded software. I think people who like twiddling and configuring enjoy cloud shit? or infrastructure and ops work more generally but I think these days most places that looks like cloud shit. If you like the big picture, modeling, and the human side, you may be interested in systems analysis (I find this Very Shaped tbh but am not up for the human side and honestly don't like making big judgement calls).

Somehow I don't actually know what the people who like everyday application development actually like about it specifically lmao? even though they are surely the majority. But ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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I didn't know you could have 3 majors. where I live you can at most have 2 and it's rare.

Yeah, my experience appears to be unusual internationally lol. For anyone in the science or humanities faculty, my university requires 2 majors. Three is in fact rare though; I believe it is only allowed with special permission.

How did you pivot into data science that time?

The company that hired me seemed to be under the impression that good grades in math qualified me for this lol. I didn't explicitly apply for it and was technically hired as a software developer but they put me on a data science project. I did have an interest in it although I didn't think I was qualified so that was just lucky lol. And then the project ended and they moved me to dev work.

Also, please do continue to go off! In your opinion, is this a subject area that is more suited for people that like to concentrate on a specific task or area of study rather than people that like a little more variety and a dynamic working environment?

Hmm, difficult question. I think it is used for a very wide range of things, and so you have a lot of options for things you could go into. Like you could work in chemistry research or a bank or make video games, you know? Computers are everywhere.

And I guess certain kinds of specialization may be valued in industry but it's probably for more obscure skills — they would love an expert in Cobol but probably don't care that much about you being the ultimate nerd of Java. They would probably prefer adaptability because a lot of shit changes and you gotta learn the new thing fast.

But the true variety within a job probably differs based on the individual job. My experience so far has been fairly restricted in areas. Like, I work at a consulting company so we have all these different clients — telecommunications companies and banks and government agencies — but it still feels like I'd be doing basically the same thing at any of them. But it's still like: they're all corporate-type. A startup or something is probably different.

Also, could you elaborate how the field allows for greater latitude?

I'm not sure how much of it is "the field" vs "my job specifically" vs "professional job that is not studying/academia" lol.

But like, if I'm having a mental breakdown, I can just. take leave. Not arbitrarily long but pretty plentiful. I could take a week off from my degree but time wouldn't stop for me, I'd just have more work when I get back. When I take a week off from work they do not expect me to be at the same point as though I never did.

And maybe more a "my job specifically" thing because I have heard of others that are higher-pressure...but I, or at worst by consensus my teammates, determine how much time I need to do something. Like, explicitly, we sit in a meeting and they ask "how long would you need for this" and it's still up for adjustment as you work. Even if I am taking unreasonably long to do it, their usual reaction will be "are you having trouble do you need someone to help you" which idk if is a little passive-aggressive but is in fact a real offer. Probably if I did it too much they might intervene but they allow decent leeway. I can usually catch up from small periods of badbrains before it becomes noticeable.

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Do ever know you're being weird but you just don't care to make it easier for the other person at that moment? Like, sorry but I don't like you enough to concentrate on looking normal to you. Your opinion of me has little consequence at this point.

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slimereveler

slowly and subtly doxx yourself with a series of posts like "ahh i love opening my window and smelling the sea," and "i wish the nearest paintball place was closer than 25 miles... :("

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aworsening

My name is David Ward. I am in Eskew.

city song - daughers / I am in Eskew / parties paranoia violence - olivia sparrow / advertisements for architecture - bernard tschumi

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max1461

Something that I've heard a few times listening to the stories of non-Japanese who grew up in Japan is that those who grew up in small towns experienced less bullying as kids than those who grew up in cities. It's like, in a small town you go to school with basically the same set of kids the whole time, and they get used to having a foreigner around. It stops being "whoa check out the foreign kid, she's weird and different", and just becomes "oh that's Emiri, I've known her forever". Also probably helps that all the kids' parents are more likely to know each other (and to know the only foreign couple in town).

My impression is that in larger schools with more churn, the bullying/exclusion is often worse.

I was going to say that this is a counterpoint to common ideas about rural communities being insular and regressive and urban communities being progressive, but I'm not sure it really is. It's more interesting than that, because it seems more like a virtue in parochialism itself. If you grow up in a small and relatively insular town, your norms are not the norms of "your nation", they are the norms of your town, and if there happens to be a foreign couple there there might as well be a foreign couple in every town in Japan. Naive parochialism can be a safeguard against the more cultivated forms of ingroup policing that emerge in genuinely more diverse environments.

I think there might be something similar going on with, say, the way trans people were sometimes talked about in the media 70 years ago ("young man becomes gorgeous dame with new medical procedure") and the way they're often talked about now.

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