No because the novel actually drives me so fucking insane. L and his Gay Mourning Watch Shenanigans, it's Crazy. (Spoilers for parts of L Change the WorLd and the Movie Series I guess?)
This is a few days after Light dies iirc. This honestly reminds me of Episode 26 of the anime tbh. When Light is going through the motions after L's death. Taking L's place, moving in with Misa, looking off to the side and still seeing L without any catchlights drawn in his eyes. It feels like the Same Thing here. When he or L defeat the other there's nothing left. They're unrivaled, they were the only ones who understood each other and hardly had even had to say a thing to understand that, and now one of them is gone, and it's going to stay that way probably forever. I feel like L in the novel is more understanding and aware of these fact than Light allows himself to be in canon but God does it kill me dead.
The fucking watch. Oh my God the Fucking Watch. It shattered and was basically shot off Light's wrist in his failed last ditch effort to kill someone in the movie and L keeps it. Despite the fact that it's broken and was probably bloody he keeps it and wears it and looks at it constantly in the novel. And it's not even like a trophy or anything, proof that he won. Rather it's in remembrance, it's a memento, he Burned the Death Notes but keeps Light's watch— the thing that he tried to use to conceal a piece of the Death Note and Murder with in his final moments —with him and carries it and Light's memory around with him everywhere for his final days. It drives me up the wall. Because Why. Why does he Care when he Should have No reason to. Light takes everything L has left after he dies in canon, his name, his title, his legacy, and he was going to take his successors next. But L keeps Light's watch, even if it's of no use to him. Even if it's just a scrap of metal, another weapon of the worst mass murderer in history, he wears it on his wrist in remembrance. It's insane. L why would you do this ever (I know why it just makes me die)
Like?? L has No reason to still be referring to Light as his only friend like that. Yes, nobody knows he's talking about Kira, yes, he doesn't tell Maki directly that the only friend he is talking about is Kira, but still, he was just talking about how he stopped his mass killings, they were talking about how he lived and died as a bad person and never really saw that what he did was wrong (which is backed up by the movie, where Light dies in his father's arms looking for the validation that he was right). And fucking yet, in that moment L Still remembers and thinks of Light as a friend, mourns him for it, and still calls him his only friend out loud. Even though he was just speaking with Maki about every reason why he Shouldn't be. Why does he Care. He breaks away from his usual aloofess to smile sadly, to admit defeat, to fucking. Slam his fist on the ground and scream (to be fair that one was over other factors too) over the thought of Light. I'm sooooooo buries head in hands
And on his last day alive he Still decides to visit and pay his respects to Light, like what the fuck man. He's the reason L is dying, he wouldn't have ended up on this death timer if it weren't for Light. He has No reason to care, but he Does and it drives me Insane. He knows Light understood and in every universe and adaptation after one dies the other has little left to do after but die (Novel, Jdrama, Musical, etc etc etc) and it Sucks. They Suck. You know this novel isn't even about L and Light whatsoever there's an entire plot of its own going on and yet they take these moments of pause, even if it's like half a sentence long where L reminisces over Light and for What. There's no plot-related, logical reason. Light Yagami and Kira are dead and irrelevant to the world now, and the whole world knows, but L still remembers, and it's so painfully sincere for a man who did little more than destroy everything he touched. And for What.
Prev tags so true. Two of the worst soulmates to have ever (dis)graced the earth. They are both the moth and the flame to each other. They suck. This novel drives me insane. Why is L like that. Why does he Care when Light sure as hell didn't (or at least that's what he would say), why are They Like That. Thank you L Change the WorLd novel you ruined my life. Thank you op for re-activating my brain worms (/neg)
