I really really hate, with the intensity of a thousand burning suns, the fact that a single shitty email can completely derail my plans for tonight. I hate that my brain is broken. I hate that I spent hours this evening trying to get in a positive writing headspace after a really draining day, but that it’s all for shit because some entitled asshole decided to make me feel miserable. I hate that I do feel miserable instead of being able to laugh it off. I hate that my confidence is shot and that I don’t have the time or the space or the wherewithal to build it back up gradually, because I need to be confident now, except I can’t actually do that, so I just feel worse. I hate that I go to write and there’s just a wall there, like I can’t even bear to open the document, like it’s all frozen over inside where the words should be, but I can still somehow write this bullshit post, which doesn’t actually matter.
I hate that the asshole responsible for this is still sending me abusive replies. I hate that I’m on the brink of just writing a three sentence ending to a fic I loved working on, and which other people have liked, just so that I don’t have to think about it any more.
AUGH.
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snowqueenlou said: Dear Foz, I always look forward to your posts. This morning I put Monstrous Little Voices in my bag for today’s bus reading, and I’m going to start with your story. I’m looking forward to it immensely. I wish you a good night, and a good night’s sleep, and a better tomorrow.
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anhyatt9 said: I am so freaking sorry. I hear you and I feel you. I love your work. I can tell you what I tell myself right now (being in the grips of a giant project), it takes as long as it takes. We’ll be here when you are done.
skyboneharper said: I’m sorry you had to deal with this and I’m sorry it makes you feel like crap. You’re a good writer. I’m with the person who said this isn’t trying to get you to write, they’re trying to stop you (probably because they’re incapable of creativity themselves). But they’re going to fail. You may get derailed for a bit because of this asshole, but in the end you’ll write again. It might be this story, it might be something else: it doesn’t matter.
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curiousitykilledthe-crow said: *hugs* I’m sorry this is happening
peppersandcats said: Um. Apologies if you’ve already handled it, but @notsolittlegirlevenmorelost pointed out to me that if you check “Disable anonymous commenting” on a work, only people who actually have an AO3 account and are logged in can leave comments. And since this ASSHAT either doesn’t have an account or is deliberately not using theirs, it might keep them from continuing to abuse you?
wintergrey said: I would so not be okay, personally. I’m sorry this person came through and fucked up your balance and your confidence. That was super shitty and abusive of them. I hope you get your fic back from this derailment but, importantly, take care of yourself. This is ugly and unfair.
katschy said: People suck. I hope that the sunshine of a better day can help you shake it off - but if not, please accept all the positive vibes that I, a stranger, can provide.
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jenndoesnotcare said: I just went and bought An Accident of Stars on my kindle because I wanted to do something nice for you to balance out that douchebag. (I was waiting for my local book shop to get it in, so I guess I’ll be buying it twice!) I hope your night gets better. If not I’ll send you a box of cookies. ❤️
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mybrokenlocket said: That’s an awful way for anyone to behave, ever, and I’m sorry this is happening to you. I hope it stops soon, and in the meantime please do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself (not-writing, internet-avoiding, whatever)
rhube reblogged this from fozmeadows and added: {{{{hugs}}}} Whilst I want to say that this piece of shit is so not worth it and you are lovely and talented and so much...
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That person is nothing more than a low-life douche. You do what you need to and write when YOU are ready. Most people...
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