All In the Future
(HEADS UP THIS IS ANGST)
She met someone else. Someone that could give her the apple pie life, the white picket fence and the three kids that I knew deep down she wanted. She could get out of the life. She would be out of harms way. I wouldn’t have to worry if she was in an old abandon building being tortured by Hells up incoming. She would be safe, she would have a place to call home. She had someone else now.
Someone better than me.
I don’t know why I agreed to come along on this stupid double date idea. Lisa was all for it of course. Of course she was. I have no idea why I even told her about it. I wanted to keep Lisa and Y/N as far apart as possible. I liked Lisa, don’t get me wrong. She’s great. She took me in when I was half out of my mind, and gave me a place to live. Even with the amount I drink and the nightmares that terrorize my sleep every night. She has never once asked me to leave. But I feel like I’ve thought about this fantasy life I could have with her over and over again, like it was supposed to be perfect. I liked Lisa, but how I feel about Y/N doesn’t come anywhere near how I feel about her.
Y/N sat across the table from me, her boyfriend Kevin or Kyle, who cares about his name, sat next to her. I shouldn’t feel this way. I should be happy for my friend, because that’s all she was. My friend. She was never going to be anything more. She was never going to be the one I hold when my nightmares were too much. She was never going to be the one beneath me as I made love. She would never be mine.
She was his.
I hated him. I hated that he was sitting next to her, his hand on her inner thigh, staring at her like she was a piece of meat. It wasn’t my place to dictate her happiness. I wasn’t in the right to tell who she could and couldn’t see. But it didn’t stop me from glaring at him, stabbing the guy over and over again in my mind.
I had Lisa. I was supposed to be fine. I was supposed to be happy. But here I was, wishing I would have gone with Y/N instead. At least I could have been there to stop her from dating this douchebag. He may be able to give her the apple pie life, but he sure as hell can’t make her nearly as happy as I know I could have.
If I could go back and do it all over again. I would. Then maybe I would have bucked up enough courage to claim her as mine.
I’m too late.
Submitted by @that1seniorchick
A/N: I know, I suck! I swear I’m going to fix it!
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